#heartbreaks
A café table by the front for light
people outside stop and talk, I catch bites
of their plans, their issues and moods, despite
the glass, and the curfuffle of indoor café life.
I’m having an Americano glacé
my preferred ‘pause-café’ focused break
a frosty iced-coffee sweet and sugary-brown
while this girl outside is having a full freakdown
I watch life’s tableau of complexity
through a café window, like a front row seat
Oh, the chaos I’m shown from my unobserved repose
“Ooo! the chocolat croissants, I’ll have one of those”
Are whispers magnified by glass?
you wouldn’t believe the secrets that pass
when people think no one’s listening
the gruesome details about lovers smashing
if it weren’t so titillating, i might be laughing
At some point I have to tune them out
with my laptop and AirPods, I shut out the crowd
but occasionally I pause and look up to see
my fellow students from the university
sharing their esoteric exploits unknowingly
I’m REALLY getting to know them - secretly
and these conversations are firing my libido
I’m very good at reading lips - lucky me.
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A song for this:
Messy by Lola Young
I'm Into Something Good by Herman's Hermits
Feb 27
Feb 27, 2026 at 9:33 AM UTC
Because of you, I went into depression
Maybe I made a bad impression
But I genuinely cared
While you only pretended!
Because of you, I went into depression
You left me alone
After hurting my feelings to the core
To me, were you really dear
Unfortunately, not the other way round
To you, NOTHING was our bond!!
Because of you, I went into depression
My trust being my bane
You provided me wrong advice
But what was worse
Was the fact
That it was incomplete
You only pointed out my faults
Without offering any solutions!!
Because of you, I went into depression
But am I not human?
I CAN make mistakes
And I did make a lot of improvements
But you never noticed
In fact, you almost disappeared!!
Because of you, I went into depression
But I'm not truly alone
Jesus is on my side
He knows you've taken me for a ride
Anyway, you I'll forgive
But you're incapable of love
And by that, I mean TRUE, UNCONDITIONAL love
I'll come back stronger
Meanwhile, our relationship is OVER
Goodbye and good luck
Enjoy your life in New York
While I don't give a ****
Nov 7, 2025
Nov 7, 2025 at 2:06 AM UTC
Luck is not on my side
Though I am good
A pretty rough divorce
Friendship breakups
Numerous misunderstandings
Not picking up social cues
Been through it all
God not answering my call!
Luck is not on my side
Betrayed by somebody
Who was once a best friend
Made to feel like a nobody
Ghosted for an innocent Facebook comment
Guilty until proven innocent!!
Luck is not on my side
I've had a tough ride
In spite of being sweet
Always tasting defeat
Be it at work
Or outside work!!
Luck is not on my side
Never been able to take the lead
Though forever learning
Not to mention, improving
To me, India hasn't been kind
Messing up with my mind
Over and over again
So much pain for no gain!!
Luck is not on my side
Where am I bad
As far as character is concerned?
Please be bold
And tell it to my face
Should get me out of a bad phase!!
Luck is not on my side
When will this end?
I've been a patriot
But it's gone to waste
It's time for me
To finally break free
And switch my loyalties
Maybe to our neighbours
Or even better, our old colonialists
Yes, luck is not on my side
But I'm switching sides
Then luck will finally be on my side!!
Sep 27, 2025
Sep 27, 2025 at 1:28 PM UTC
Talking with my heart, thinkin' you're always mine,
Heartbroken, betrayal by your side.
Thinking you're the one, who will complete my faith,
Got shattered, my heart is still in pain.
Wandering all around, thinkin' how to contact,
Now afraid, even to go online.
Was that my mistake, to approach you first time?,
Scars deepened, wounds got worse this time.
Now I know that you, aren't for me from the time,
Got wasted, exhausted burning time.
Now that I've left my past for some of time,
Feeling free, Recovering over time.
Jul 20, 2025
Jul 20, 2025 at 10:13 PM UTC
“I miss you,”
And that’s the fact I hate the most- aggrieved
By every memory of us, every grain of our love
Even if it was for a short while, cos for a short while,
I felt so happy to experience love again, to smile
Because someone made me smile, to laugh with
Someone in private, even if its for the silliest of things
“I miss you,”
And that’s the fact I hate the most- and it’s in such
an uncomfortable experience, that the mind tends to
wonder in all its what if’s— but more so, I question
myself of whether I was the one more in love than the
both of us combined…
_“I miss you,”
And that’s the fact I’ll always hate the most._
Sep 19, 2024
Sep 19, 2024 at 4:35 AM UTC
You made me feel lonely
What you did was very ugly
I loved you and you cheated on me
In fact, you BETRAYED me
Because of you, did I go into depression
Very very wrong, were your actions
Thanks to them, greatly did I suffer
For me, not even one bit did you care!
You made me feel lonely
I thought you were lovely
How cruelly did you prove me wrong
My suffering was quite long
You drove a wedge into my heart
And tore it apart!!
You made me feel lonely
And treated me very badly
Thanks to you, did my self-belief shatter
Because, you struck at my very core
Sending shockwaves all over my soul
And effectively trapping me in a prison cell!!
You made me feel lonely
While you played a game coolly
Trying to destroy my relationships
With my family and my best friend
And trapping me in a toxic relationship
Which seemed as if it would never end!!
You made me feel lonely
But I came back strongly
Thanks to my sister and my best friend
To your twisted games, did they put an end
You tried to break me
But my goodness set me free
While you will eternally feel guilty
For your treachery and infidelity
Yes, you made me feel lonely indeed
However, from the trauma have I recovered
And learnt a lesson for life
Goodbye forever, my "poor little" ex-wife!!
Sep 14, 2024
Sep 14, 2024 at 1:07 PM UTC
I loved you and you broke my heart
Always, did I think you had a soft heart
However, you proved me wrong
For me, did you feel nothing
To you, was I merely a tool
And you turned me into a lovestruck fool!
I loved you and you broke my heart
So badly was I hurt
That I went into depression for two full months
You made me lose faith
And created self-doubts in my mind
To you, was I too kind
Hence, did I suffer a lot
Trustworthy, you certainly were not!!
I loved you and you broke my heart
My self-esteem fell apart
My mind took over my heart
And insecurities began to tear me apart
However, I was not as weak as you would have thought
Neither was I a crackpot
Loving family and friends, did I have
As well as a strong will to live
I decided to focus completely on work
After all, I did not have time to worry about jerks
Today, have I become far more successful
Than you can ever be, you miserable little devil!!
I loved you and you broke my heart
But I began to rebuild, part by part
Thus, have I grown stronger
And become happier
Thanks to the will of Jesus Christ
Definitely, have I done my best
To recover from the trauma you inflicted on me
However, does the fact remain, that you tried to break me
Someone who genuinely cared for you
Yes, really did I love you
And you broke my heart
Truly, are you nothing but a cheat
However, I CAN forgive you once and for all
But it will take some time
One, because you truly are a ball of slime
Two, because I also need to heal
For now, try to be a good human being for once
Even if the very thought of it makes you wince!!
Jul 11, 2024
Jul 11, 2024 at 2:45 AM UTC
Never is it too late, to love
Even if you have to move
From place to place
Without even setting a base
I may be thirty four years old
But that leaves me not, in the cold
Not to boast, but do I have a heart of gold
And never will I fold
Even when tested beyond my limits
Because I simply don't take ****
Not from anyone, not even family
If you try to mess with me
For you, it's gonna end sadly
Not always, may I be free
But if I happen to love you
Always, will I make time for you
Never is it too late, to love
Especially if you have nothing to lose
Coming to me, I've had a bad marriage
Which has done its share of damage
When it cometh to my mental health
However, fine is my physical health
Not to mention, do I have a good job
And afraid not I'm, to sob
Whenever I hit a rough patch
Because, usually does it end up making me a stronger person
Even If I find not a match
On any of those ******* dating apps
After all, is life full of lessons
For example, never blindly trust Google Maps!
See, I have a decent sense of humour!
So what If I lack glamour?
Sound am I, when it cometh to character
And never have I been a cheater
I may be thirty four years old
But rarely am I bored
Because, do I have the heart of a child
Which can make me wild
From time to time
Never do I give a dime
As to what the society thinks
Sometimes, do I find it difficult to blink
But if you really care for me
You should just let it be
Because it ain't nothing but a quirk
And if I truly care for you
Never will I keep you in the dark
That is love for you
Never is it too late, to love
Especially if you've already been through love
To me, has it happened twice
The first occasion was rather nice
A classic case of unrequited love
Which I can forget not, even now
Because it truly made me happy
Coming to the second occasion
It was something that I'd rather forget in a hurry
Because it brought a lot of tension
To me as well as my family
Not to mention, one of my best friends
My wife was worse than a fiend
Because she pretended to love me madly
While the reality was
That, about me she gave not a ****
Being slippery as moss
Truly was our marriage a sham
However, battle-hardened am I now
And mind not, going slow
Because, never is it too late, to love
Never is it too late, to love
Even if you've been through a lot
Because, as long as your heart is in the right place
Never will love become a race
If you have family and good friends
Eventually will there be an end
To the search for love
Because there will be someone for sure
Of course, hardships you may have to endure
But in the end, you will get there
Do not worry, dear
Surrender yourself to God
Because he'll never leave you in the cold
Finally, even if you get old
Never is it too late, to love!
Jan 7, 2024
Jan 7, 2024 at 12:50 PM UTC
this little world of mine is getting cold.
can you give a warm hug?
I can't see clearly, are you here?
this little world of mine is really getting cold.
can you please come ?
Aug 3, 2023
Aug 3, 2023 at 10:36 AM UTC
𝙸 𝚖𝚎𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚖, 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚕𝚎𝚏𝚝 𝚖𝚎,
𝚃𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚜𝚊𝚒𝚍 "𝙸’𝚖 𝚜𝚘 𝚜𝚘𝚛𝚛𝚢".
𝙸 𝚖𝚎𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚊𝚒𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞’𝚕𝚕 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚢,
𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝙸’𝚖 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚕𝚢.
𝙷𝚘𝚠 𝚊𝚖 𝙸 𝚜𝚞𝚙𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕?
𝙷𝚘𝚠 𝚊𝚖 𝙸 𝚜𝚞𝚙𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚕?
𝙸’𝚖 𝚝𝚒𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚏 𝚛𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚕𝚎,
𝚈𝚎𝚊𝚑, 𝙸'𝚖 𝚐𝚘𝚗𝚗𝚊 𝚕𝚎𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚍𝚒𝚎 𝚘𝚏𝚏.
𝙸 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎’𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝙸 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍𝚗’𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚕𝚎,
𝙱𝚞𝚝 𝚗𝚘𝚠 ‘𝚝 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚖𝚜 𝚠𝚎'𝚛𝚎 𝚐𝚘𝚗𝚗𝚊 𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚒𝚝 𝚘𝚏𝚏.
𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚑𝚢 𝚍𝚒𝚍 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚟𝚎?
𝙷𝚘𝚠 𝚊𝚖 𝙸 𝚜𝚞𝚙𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚕𝚒𝚟𝚎?
𝙸 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚘𝚕𝚍 𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐,
'𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚒𝚝 𝚙𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚜 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞.
𝙼𝚊𝚢𝚋𝚎 𝙸 𝚍𝚘𝚗’𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚜 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚊𝚜 𝙸 𝚍𝚘,
𝙼𝚊𝚢𝚋𝚎 𝙸’𝚍 𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚒𝚏 𝙸 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚝𝚘.
𝙼𝚊𝚢𝚋𝚎.. 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚖𝚊𝚢𝚋𝚎, 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚗’𝚝 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝙸 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚎.
𝚂𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚕!
𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚒𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑𝚎,
𝚆𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚋𝚢 𝚖𝚎.
May 17, 2022
May 17, 2022 at 10:24 AM UTC
I want to know
When it flutters
I want to know
If its pure, light like feathers
But i seem to loose the meaning
I cant catch the concept
Why cant i know
Seems i only know how i wept
My heart feels as if its stone
Petrifying my bones
Corrupting my thoughts and zone
Why do i only know how it feels to be alone
It feels forever noon
Wishing this rain will end soon
Oh i know, i know
You seem to see how i feel
Your mouth says forget and we can go
I act with but in my mind can you be real
Could you be real and say you dont understand
So i dont fly with false hopes
Just to end as i crash land
Why didnt i prepare some safety ropes
I feel guliable
I seem unreliable
By my fire unseizeable
Because its Dying Flames
That always holds my shames
I wish my mind wasnt playing games
I know it holds horrid pain
But i want to hear the truth
I know its not fair in your brain
But only if i could hear your heart
Because...
My Heart cant take lies
I cant take words that only dies
Then will it fall from the skies
Wait for a collapse as i slowly close my eyes
Listening to it break
As My Heart
Slowly shakes and quakes
Quitly tearing apart.
Mar 22, 2022
Mar 22, 2022 at 12:08 AM UTC
When hearts break and dreams shatter in secret,
they make the loudest noise!
Jun 25, 2021
Jun 25, 2021 at 5:14 AM UTC