#heartbeak
Through a frosted window,
I may have seen your face.
Once,
about five years ago.
I still have the framed painting
you brought me from
Newfoundland.
You mentioned something about the landscape.
Signed with X's and O's.
It sits in the back of my closet,
and I make the excuse
that I need a nail.
But really, I just
don't have the
desire,
to look at it.
Jan 24, 2020
Jan 24, 2020 at 9:41 PM UTC
men ain't **** she says to me
HE isn't **** i agree
i miss him
i love him
i hate him
she whines
he's toxic
he's dangerous
he's unworthy
i say all the time
i know she responds
with an aching heart
so why can't i seem to let go
if all he does is tear me apart?
because HE is your normal,
source of comfort, embodiment of love
he taught you the ways of living with venom
and your brain knows he's bad
but your heart's made of denim
though he's made those rips
HE plays the victim
and your pretty little face, i answer with disgrace,
believed the pretty little lies that spilled out of him.
Dec 2, 2019
Dec 2, 2019 at 9:04 AM UTC
lost in the in between
lost in your eyes
lost between my head and my heart
my head tells me go
my hearts tells me stay
but its not that cliche
i feel trapped in the guilt that follows me everywhere
every conversation lingering in my head
hours on end
thinking how i can end it
how can i tell you
without thinking about the endless ways
that you can end your life
separately
we are perfect
together
we are toxic
a viscous eruption of anger and spite
distance is our enemy and our friend
"im sorry, baby. forgive me."
and my naive brain always forgives
but im lost in the in between
until the day
i found my way out of the maze
and found myself.
Sep 24, 2018
Sep 24, 2018 at 7:17 AM UTC
I gave you all my love
I gave you all of me
And it still wasn't enough
But I,
I am enough
And you,
Will never convince me otherwise
May 28, 2018
May 28, 2018 at 1:53 AM UTC
we are alone—together
juxtaposed chromatic films,
visible darkness
screaming silence,
vivid eyes,
melancholic smiles,
savoring your sweet lies.
Jan 19, 2018
Jan 19, 2018 at 5:21 AM UTC
I wish I was your
One and only rather than
Your one of many
Jun 28, 2015
Jun 28, 2015 at 5:29 PM UTC
I remember it, like the back of my hand.
You walked towards me and I stood, sweaty palms intact.
You started talking and I swear I couldn’t breathe.
And worse off, you'd only said Hi to me..
I didn't know where to go from there
I'd dropped my books in the hall,
your fingertips brushed my hand
I didn't understand.
Why help me?
You have places to go, people to see.
So why'd you stop to help me.
You didn’t stop there,
you stopped me in the hall, asking for the class notes.
Little did I know you started building my hopes.
The trips to my house, the late night talks...
I couldn’t pinpoint what made me fall,
in my mind you had it all.
The tricks of the trade spun differently for you,
you have this thing about all the things you do.
You did it for me right?
Wrong.
You did it for her.
I was blindsided,
I never saw it coming, but it snuck up quick.
Like a predator chasing its prey, I never stood a chance.
You wanted me, to get to her.
Did you see us together all the time?
Is that how the plan unfolded in your mind?
You knew were inseparable,
Sisters connected at the hip.
You took a crash course on crashing,
Taking my best friend from right under me.
I didn’t see it coming, so can we go back?
Can I get a redo?
Cause now all I feel is hate with every little thing you do.
I wouldn’t of let my palms sweat, my heart race.
I wouldn’t have kept pace with my feelings.
My books would have stayed spread out on the floor,
When you came to see me at home, I would have shut the door.
Those notes would have stayed in my binder
the ignore button would have served as my reminder.
My blushes wouldn’t have reacted,
and my hand would have retracted.
My eyes would have wandered,
that ‘hi’ wouldn’t have left my lips.
I would have kept walking,
and I wouldn’t be left like this.
Apr 26, 2015
Apr 26, 2015 at 12:05 AM UTC
You said that you were leaving,
At first I tried to stop you.
And you did stop and you stayed,
But only for a little while.
So we laughed, lived, and enjoyed.
Laughed until we were crying.
Lived like we would never die.
Enjoyed each other so much.
We cried until we forgot,
Forgot about why we cried.
But then it had all come back.
You said you were leaving,
But this time I kept quiet.
You didn't stop.
You didn't stay.
We cried.
We died.
Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 6:33 AM UTC
Once I thought love was tangible.
That it was gentle, precious
Careful and sweet
Then I realized that love was an idea
A theory that bruised and crumpled
Until you were used and torn
I don’t believe in love anymore
Feb 22, 2015
Feb 22, 2015 at 12:47 AM UTC
I should have known it wouldn't last,
And alas, our time has passed,
I was good and submissive,
But you were dismissive,
And I don't know what I can do.
You liked me, adored me,
You though I was sweet.
But today, you called me,
And said you could see,
We were not meant to be,
Because of what we believe.
I know I'm so young,
And sweet, and naive,
I know it's crazy,
But I believe,
That age doesn't matter,
not to me.
But I guess I should see,
Only friends we will be,
But these Tim Eyes will always remain.
Apr 30, 2014
Apr 30, 2014 at 10:51 PM UTC
It's not about the way that you dress
It's not about the way you flip your hair
It's not about how many friends you have
It's about the way that you smile
When my whole world is in denial
It's about the way I can't resist you
Even after not talking for a while
It's about the way you touch every curve on my body
Along with every feeling within my being
It's about how I get such a peaceful sleep
Whenever you sing to me
It's not about the way that you can be the biggest ****
It's about the way that you make up for it
It's about the way that you keep me your secret
It's about the way that you can't keep it
It's not about us
It's about what we could be
Apr 20, 2014
Apr 20, 2014 at 8:16 PM UTC