#healingpoetry
The darkness takes me, rises and falls again.
The tunnel opens and stretches along my path.
An angel, perhaps you can stop me from my miserable fate.
You are the light that accompanies me and manages to bring me back to the surface.
Feb 2
Feb 2, 2026 at 4:00 PM UTC
Here's to the breakups sounding like
squeaky brake pads — loud enough
to warn you; too late to stop the damage.
From sharing white tees and hang-ups,
to both being stained by
leftover kisses.
My eyes like peeling wallpaper,
drywall soaked in tears —
Either cried too much
or held back for too long.
So I deleted you from my lockscreen
and lost contact with myself.
"New number, who’s this?"
You used to be the first contact
on top of my frequent list.
Now when you first contact,
it feels alien; first contact like UFO's.
Unidentified feelings.
I thought about ripping
the brake pads off, and driving
straight into a wall — higher than the ones
you drove me up against.
But you gave me the drive
to become better.
So thank you for the breakup.
It broke me, just enough
to rebuild with purpose.
Gold in the cracks.
Worth in the wounds.
This is my Kintsugi.
Jan 29
Jan 29, 2026 at 4:22 PM UTC
I woke up and the world was still
Painted in yesterday’s shadows.
My name, a whisper I barely answered.
I counted the losses like bruises
Each one a secret I wore under my clothes.
You don’t wake up brave.
You wake up empty.
And sometimes, that’s enough.
I made coffee with trembling hands,
Opened the windows, let in October
No one tells you the sky doesn’t change
Just because someone broke your heart.
No one tells you the sun will rise
With or without your permission.
So, I let the morning floor my room
Like forgiveness,
Let it paint all over the worlds I never said.
I am still here,
Even when I wish I wasn’t
I am still here,
And today, that’s the revolution
Oct 28, 2025
Oct 28, 2025 at 11:40 AM UTC
My mind is a record skipping
Old songs and broken dialogue
Her laughter in the kitchen
Her silence in the hallway
The apology I never heard
The goodbye I never gave
I replay scenes in slow motion
Rewind and rewatch every sigh
Was this where it started to end?
Was I too much, or not enough?
Did she feel the tremor too or was it just me?
Turning love over in my hands
Like a stone I can’t put down
Night keeps pressing in
Questions blooming like wild vines
I bargain with ghosts
Promise tomorrow I’ll let it rest
But morning comes
And the ache stays
Some songs don’t end;
they just keep skipping in your head.
Oct 28, 2025
Oct 28, 2025 at 11:35 AM UTC
"Words cannot express how much today meant to me.
I can tell just how much effort you’ve put into these special days to really make me happy and feel loved, and I do.
I feel so loved I guess that’s part of why I got so emotional because I have so much more to lose now and that’s scary.
I love you so very much.
You are my man.
My everything
and I adore you."
Her words: proof that I mattered. At least on that December night.
Sep 29, 2025
Sep 29, 2025 at 3:38 AM UTC
I know I may sound cruel,
but what I have now—
peace, love, gratitude, abundance—
cost me everything.
Countless tears,
endless nights in despair,
asking myself: what am I doing with my life?
I walked straight through
the valley of the shadow of death,
and survived.
And now you want to rise
from the ashes
to shatter my peace?
No.
Never.
Not here.
You are rebuked.
Here,
you don’t enter.
Oct 15, 2025
Oct 15, 2025 at 8:05 PM UTC
When you remember
of your old friends
the friends who didn’t stand by you—
when all you needed was space and safety
to face your own fears and mistakes,
remember the ones who did.
The ones who fought for you.
The ones who believed in you.
Not by excusing your failures,
but by handing you back
the responsibility to live fully.
Not stuck in the same routine—
house, work, church—
but alive, awake,
choosing something more.
Yes, some friendships ache.
But it’s better to walk with those
who lift you out of victimhood,
than with the ones
who would rather keep you
right where you are.
Oct 11, 2025
Oct 11, 2025 at 8:52 AM UTC
When you feel trapped in the past,
remember why you walked away.
They may have blocked you,
hidden you,
erased you—
but wasn’t it you who begged for release?
Yes, it’s sad.
It was a friendship of years.
But when the walls began to crumble,
they chose the one who arrived later—
not you.
Not you, who was there from the start.
Who gave sweat, blood, and tears
to fuel their dreams.
So don’t forget.
It hurts now,
but being alone
is the better choice.
Oct 2, 2025
Oct 2, 2025 at 11:25 AM UTC
they will tell you to stop
to leave the ruins as they are
but you know better—
you gather the stones
turn them into verses
turn them into shelter
roses can grow even in ash
and sweetness can return
to bitter days
every scar you carry
is not an ending
it is an opening
a seed pushing
toward the sun
legends are born this way
not in perfection
but in persistence
so drink—
from the fountain that flows
for every thirsting soul
and leave it running
for those still coming
Oct 9, 2025
Oct 9, 2025 at 8:38 PM UTC
who would have thought?
isn’t that the girl from 103?
she left that scoundrel,
now lives on the east side.
she should be
the pretty girl with the ribbon bow,
shining every day,
dancing until her feet blister,
getting ready with her friends,
singing with joy,
inking in red
a silly smile
on a boy’s cheek—
not crying at nightfall,
afraid of the monster.
he’s already locked away,
watching the sunrise
through bars.
but yours rises round,
burning like fire—
and tells anyone who dares to see:
fear is no longer yours to keep.
no man
will ever again
hold the power
to make you suffer.
Sep 25, 2025
Sep 25, 2025 at 8:12 AM UTC
you will see his eyes
and think it is love
but the danger is
we stay
when we should leave
a stone
turns into a mountain
do not give
your love
to empty hands
Sep 21, 2025
Sep 21, 2025 at 5:56 PM UTC
I was five when my world cracked
Hands that should have kept me safe
Taught me shame before I knew how to spell it.
My innocence stolen before my baby teeth could fall.
At nine, the sky turned black.
I watched my father leave this earth,
not with a goodbye,
but with a silence that still echoes in my bones to today.
I did not know what grief was,
only that I couldn’t find his arms when I needed them most.
My mother’s love was never absent,
but it felt like it was when i was,
Pulled from her warmth
into the house of a woman
whose hands spoke in bruises,
Whose love came with thorns.
I learned to smile with broken teeth,
To speak gently to survive storms
That had my name carved in them.
I stood so still...
At twenty-nine, the ground shook again.
Another thief, this time stealing the voice
I had just begun to reclaim.
Another act I did not ask for,
Another night that left me hollow.
I walked through the fire again,
and this time, I didn’t die
but oooh, how I burned.
But here I am.
Breathing.
Still soft.
Still kind.
Still believing in love.
Still reaching for light
with hands that have known nothing but darkness.
I am not the things that happened to me
I am the voice I kept finding,
even when silence tasted safer.
I am the body I am learning to call home,
even when the world keeps trying to evict me from it.
Every year that I age, I defy death.
Every breath I take, I defy silence.
Every step I walk forward,
I become my own Miracle.
So here is to the girl who learned to raise herself
and to the woman who is no longer apologizing
for how loud she had to cry
to be heard by God.
Happy birthday, my beloved.
You have survived a thousand endings.
And still
You rise.
Aug 7, 2025
Aug 7, 2025 at 6:56 AM UTC
when the quiet breaks
i learned to love the silence
not because it felt like peace—
but because it never lied to me.
the noise left bruises,
every laugh a little jagged
every “i’m fine” cracked at the edges
and every promise wore someone else's face.
but silence? she didn’t pretend.
she just sat beside me while my hands trembled,
while my breath forgot how to stay.
people say healing is loud
but mine looked like folded laundry
and rooms i didn’t run from.
.
Jul 22, 2025
Jul 22, 2025 at 6:34 PM UTC
i don’t know
why i allow
you to step
into my life.
i’ve fought
so long
for peace—
you walk right in
like you’ve got
the right.
you got me
feeling stuck
in place.
i waived the flag,
called a truce—
but instead of
stillness,
you chose
the chase.
what do you want,
anyway?
i spent so long
trying to figure it out—
but it’s still
the same lines
on a different day.
i don’t know
why i let you
circle back
again,
when all you do
is skirt the truth
and keep me
in your game.
Jul 9, 2025
Jul 9, 2025 at 12:22 AM UTC
I look in the mirror and see someone softer—
Not weaker,
But worn in a way love tends to leave behind.
There was a time I loved blindly,
Loudly,
Without asking if the ground could hold me.
I called it strength,
But it was fear
Wearing confidence like perfume.
Now, I measure my footsteps.
I pause before giving too much.
I speak, not to be heard—
But to be honest.
You wouldn’t recognize the way I love now.
Not because it’s gone,
But because it’s grown quiet,
Rooted deeper,
No longer searching for permission to bloom.
I am still learning.
Still unlearning.
Still loving.
But I am not the same.
And maybe—
That’s what healing really is.
Apr 20, 2025
Apr 20, 2025 at 9:06 PM UTC
Sleep, sleep, my love,
everything's alright, I'm here with you.
Rest,
rest now.
Snuggle close to me,
I will be the one
to take care of you.
Let that mind slow down,
let the thoughts fade,
wrap yourself in calm.
Fall into my arms,
I'll hold you tight,
and give you gentle caresses,
like mom and dad.
I'll whisper that story,
filled with hope and love,
of our future.
Sleep, sleep, my love,
everything's alright, I'm here with you.
Relax your body,
relax your soul,
and let your spirit rest.
Fall into the deepest
of dreams,
tomorrow will be
a beautiful day.
With butterflies,
flowers, and meadows.
The sun will rise again,
and life will smile once more.
Sleep, sleep, my love,
everything's alright, I'm here with you.
Mar 18, 2025
Mar 18, 2025 at 6:09 AM UTC
So many times,
life denied me
what I longed for,
what I hoped for,
what I thought was mine.
Sadness,
uncertainty,
wrapped around me.
Why others?
Why not me?
Time and again,
I thought I understood:
It wasn’t mine,
I didn’t deserve it.
But today,
under the sun,
I ask myself:
Why not?
I am worthy.
I know how to love,
I strive every day.
I respect,
I believe,
I share,
I give.
And those who know how to give,
also know how to receive.
I deserve everything in my life.
I deserve freedom.
I deserve health.
I deserve peace.
I deserve prosperity.
I deserve love.
I deserve happiness.
What are you denying yourself?
Mar 4, 2025
Mar 4, 2025 at 7:27 PM UTC