#happier
Perhaps evaporating my tears
to become a mere lifeless cloud,
drifting away like a truth I shy away from,
will free me from the cage that traps
My dignity. My soul. My life.
So I’ll be a bit happier.
Perhaps shrinking myself,
Reducing myself to sick opinions, comments, words
That stab me a little each time
Will save me from
My own dangerous thoughts,
So I’ll be a bit happier.
Perhaps shoving things down my throat
Knowingly, willingly, desperately
Will remove the guilt that’s buried
Deep in my mind
Scarring my stomach and thighs
Making me just broken bones. No flesh.
So I’ll be a bit happier.
Perhaps reaching out for that green lighter
Just once more
OnCe,
ONCE more
Will satisfy my cravings for pain,
So I’ll be happier?
Apr 14
Apr 14, 2026 at 12:28 PM UTC
Maybe I do
Look at the past
Through pink filters
But I can't help to feel
I was happier back when
There was still dragon to slay
Dec 15, 2025
Dec 15, 2025 at 9:55 AM UTC
I smile at all the life I’ve known,
The paths I took, the things I do,
But in the silence of my thoughts,
I’d have been happier with you.
Sep 9, 2025
Sep 9, 2025 at 10:31 AM UTC
The sky had been cloudy for the longest time,
Hope often bleak, fun almost nil, all during my prime.
But now it seems the skies are clearing up slowly,
Bright rays of sun seeping in amidst the folie.
Like the first flake of snow melting after a freezing winter,
Like a widow's smile, years after the inter.
The sensation of light is unfamiliar on my skin,
Like a warm embrace that once had been.
I see the chirping birds and the pretty butterflies,
For where once there was a frown, now a genuine smile lies.
The clouds haven’t vanished; they still softly loom,
But a little ray of hope waits beyond the gloom.
The moment I let that ray touch me, enter my soul,
I know things are changing—and this time, it's whole.
Aug 4, 2025
Aug 4, 2025 at 10:29 AM UTC
If there’s one thing for sure abt myself. ,
I’m going to survive ,
I will figure it out
Jan 23, 2024
Jan 23, 2024 at 11:05 PM UTC
My lover’s hair is caught up in the wind’s path
And begins to interweave.
The breeze is caught up in each strand
And begs desperately not to leave.
Sep 30, 2023
Sep 30, 2023 at 8:13 PM UTC
What if we never
took the leap?
Would we still
be happy like this?
But if things may
turned out different,
And if things turned out
to be happier,
I’ll choose happy
than happier
if it’s with you.
Aug 14, 2023
Aug 14, 2023 at 10:20 PM UTC
If you're happy with her,
stay with her.
If you could be happier,
reconsider.
Jul 29, 2023
Jul 29, 2023 at 2:05 AM UTC
Those were the happier times
Moments where I felt alive
Sad days, slow days
Muddled in between
Those happier times
Where I lied through my teeth
To get between you and me
When I spoke in cursive
And told you to hurt me
So you wouldn't know
If it was me to blame
For the games you played
Those happier times
Where we couldn't tell
If we were sad and confused
Or elated as hell
Would be
If it met me
Those were the happier times
Where I could remember your face
Without wanting to
Jump off a cliff
Aug 11, 2024
Aug 11, 2024 at 1:50 PM UTC
You leave me
and it feels like coming home
since nothing important ever stays
You leave me and its because I never did learn how to share
you wanted every single piece of me
Except I have nothing left
I want to give you
-I am sorry for lying about loving you
- I don’t remember loving anyone
Aug 3, 2021
Aug 3, 2021 at 3:59 PM UTC
I’m standing at 29th and park
wrapped up in someone else arms
only a month we’ve been apart
trying to be happier since you
he takes me out to all the bars
I avoid the places we called ours
I’m smiling but inside I’m torn apart
I’m not happier since you
May 23, 2021
May 23, 2021 at 7:07 AM UTC
Time has passed
Since I was last here
And I wonder,
Is it because
Im happier now?
Apr 4, 2021
Apr 4, 2021 at 9:01 PM UTC
the cigarette smoke
laden in the air
threw the pattern seeking portion of my brain
and i saw you
as free as i had always thought of you
without the hardships of this harsh reality
it made me sad
to think of you
with how you were at the end
but you're happy now,
with hope
Mar 28, 2021
Mar 28, 2021 at 4:53 PM UTC
a teenage crush; adoration, lust.. love.
once started out beautiful, destined to fail.
to the girl i once loved;
thank you for everything you had done
for everything you had shown me;
but i had to move on, for this love was not for us, it wasnt meant to be
those beautiful moments i will forever cherish; im learning to let go the anguish.
thankyou for adoring me, as i adored you,
Oct 17, 2020
Oct 17, 2020 at 8:02 AM UTC
you look happier
without these ragged edges
overlapped colors
smudged painting
as i paint you
without my touch
May 16, 2020
May 16, 2020 at 2:44 AM UTC
When my mind is full
I watch my thoughts
I realise crosses
are really the same as noughts.
I watch my breath
fill up space in my chest
and pacify my ego's need to protest.
Control is not a prerequisite
of a happy soul.
The same way your 'other half'
is not a prerequisite to your whole.
So once in a while let it all go
receive yourself,
the highs and lows.
Don't 'empty' your mind
in attempts to unbind
unwind, rewind, or realign
for how can you?
When you've no idea
what you've just declined.
So when your mind is full
and paints your heart grey,
become mindful of the fact
your thoughts make you that way.
Apr 4, 2020
Apr 4, 2020 at 5:18 AM UTC
I'm so much happier now that I'm dead.
But between waking and sleeping there's people you might forget.
And I don't want to forget you.
**** me all over when I do.
Swimming right through the grid.
Just to find you back again since you hid.
You were paddling along with me and pushing away hard cemented concrete.
Uncovering old treasures that we lost on the street.
Not too many, but we set them free so they can be anywhere.
All the time like the dust you wear.
It's a little bit softer.
But there must be a moment to let it all be over.
And I don't want to really leave you.
**** me all over when I do.
Floating right through the pit.
Oh I needed it, I needed this hit.
Let me fall into the endless sea.
Without pushing the waves aways from me.
Not too many, but we set them free so they can be anywhere.
All the time like the dust you wear.
It's a lot lot clearer.
A lot lot nearer.
The end.
I'm so much happier.
In the end.
Life is so much better now that I'm dead.
Dreaming is much nicer when I'm not in bed.
Apr 2, 2020
Apr 2, 2020 at 7:54 AM UTC
With eyes of blue and sea foam too,
There’s not a moment in time that
I
Don’t
Love
You
Mar 4, 2020
Mar 4, 2020 at 7:38 PM UTC
I will not lie
Every year on this very day
the more I want to die
but is the voices that keep me alive
On this day
I'm expected to be happy
as everybody wishes me
But I've always felt empty
Nothing has changed
Every year is the same
From the silence in my room
to the noises in my brain
My wish for every year
will never be different
whether or not I could be happier
Then the previous birthday
Feb 5, 2020
Feb 5, 2020 at 8:19 AM UTC
I am trying to write happy poems
To smile once more
Dull ache in my stomach
Trying to ignore
Try and try to be stronger
My chin up high
Living in the present
Let it pass me by
Trying to focus on the good
Instead dwelling on the bad
Start making new memories
Missing old ones had
Try not to complain much
To stifle tears
Embrace what is in front of me
These are my best years
I am so sick of wasting my life
Chasing goals impossible to attain
Stop throwing my health and money away
Learned down a bottomless drain
I have been alive for two dozen rotations
Around the boiling sun
I die a little bit every day
Decomposing each one
Jan 12, 2020
Jan 12, 2020 at 11:12 AM UTC
The crunching of the leaves
Rustling of the pines
our laughter
Calm
Happy
A chipmunk
Screams
Dec 5, 2019
Dec 5, 2019 at 5:33 PM UTC