#goodintentions
I told you from the beginning...
If you touch me,
You'll hurt me.
You heard me,
So you laid your hands on me to pray
Mar 1, 2021
Mar 1, 2021 at 3:55 AM UTC
Something that I do
Not not everyone does
Is when I’m done with you
I’m really just done
There’s no hard feelings..
I’m not mad
I’m not sad about our loss
I’m not nervous of how I’ll be without you
I’m not afraid of what you’re gonna do next
Whatever reason I told you I’ve released
I don’t hold it against you and I love you and
I don’t need you
Whatever version of you I knew I out grew
As we move through life we will change and perhaps our paths will cross again
different people and different conditions
And we may reconnect
But until then I am done
I love you and
I am not attached to any further outcome
This is called “detachment with love”
Tell me what it makes you feel !
Dec 14, 2019
Dec 14, 2019 at 12:19 AM UTC
Hello everyone,
I'm so very sorry … I feel horrible doing this, but I have no choice. You see, I have published my first book on Amazon/Kindle! This piece (and many others) had to be taken down because they do not allow published material to be available online for free. (Go figure) I wanted to leave the shell of the posts because I felt compelled to leave all your helpful and loving comments. (Silly sentimental, I know), but I also didn't want to just have the pieces disappear without an explanation. I feel bad enough as it is!
I owe ALL of you so, SO much for all of your reads, love, and support. It was YOU that gave me the gumption to FINALLY get off my **** and publish! Thank you all for the warm comments, camaraderie, and encouragement! I will still be here, reading, uploading and just being the Rascal that I am. How could I EVER leave you guys?
The book is called “The Way I See It – FictionPhilosophySoul Food” and it will be FREE for the first few days on Kindle Select, so watch for it, if you are interested. I hope that you go and grab it. If you do, I would also hope that you find it worthy, you would leave me a good review. That will help me get in the public eye! Soon afterward (2-3 days or so), it will be available in paperback.
Find the book(s) here: www.amazon.com/author/jeff.gaines
Or find the book(s), and all about me, here: www.JeffGaines.world
Soon after, I also hope to have my first novel (a supernatural thriller), called “Wanderer” available as well!
Wish me luck!
Big, Biggest Love,
Jeff Gaines
Mar 9, 2018
Mar 9, 2018 at 8:38 AM UTC
youre a city girl raised on
fantasy-realities of ivy leagues and
imminent success your
only scars are pimple scars
remainders of a childhood
of
vaguesuccesses.
exceptional, they call you, who were
bred and groomed for this title
talent is a spectre that haunts
you and your sibling and every
otherchild
born into that grey area between
happy and sad.
you have the world beneath your
dainty soft feet but its never
enough to bring you to the summit of
the desires (expectations) that
push down on you like
a suffocating cloud that waters your eyes
and
chokes your lungs. youre afraid to leap
up (out of sight out of mind out of the safe cradle
of a mothers wisdom and a fathers love and
the familiarity of being a tightly coiled rope ready to snap)
and into a sky where suddenly that weight is
lifted and you feel light
(the weight is comfortable, it keeps you grounded)
and perhaps
that you were moulded with
this constant belief that you [are/must be] the best is
the ________ (only/best) reason to stop yourself.
when others have problems that seem so
much grander and you in your protective bubble
that even a city cannot permeate (you ignore the sight of beggars
or thieves or poverty and avert your eyes
from anything that contradicts
the perceptions that you have, it doesnt
matter if youre in a city
plagued by pain and exploitation
as long as you can live in your (steel tinted) dreams)
you wish that you had that claim to fame (isnt it sad that
were so desperate for relevance we
selfishly wish for suffering, trading your own
trivial vices).
but you [dont understand/cant understand/will never understand]
no matter how many times you
sympathise and complain and romanticise.
youre just a pimple-scarred city girl carrying
a world of ideals and expectations on
your shoulders.
Apr 13, 2017
Apr 13, 2017 at 7:59 AM UTC
There are things I love
And things I loathe.
Maybe I woke up
On the wrong side of the bed
Or the same side of the bed
I wake up on every morning.
Or maybe I don't do well
On mornings after I've cried.
Maybe I'm just
Naturally a little
Bit meaner than
I look.
Not that I don't have a heart
Of gold and good intentions
But you know what they say
About good intentions.
There are things I love
And things I loathe.
And today fell more on
The second side.
Jul 25, 2016
Jul 25, 2016 at 10:45 PM UTC
Good intentions lay around us like unopened books
We thought we might, but we never even took a look
We thought we might, but our actions where null
We just stayed in our lull
Our intentions where grand
But we never took that stand
We know we failed
We are on that paved road sraight to hell
May 10, 2016
May 10, 2016 at 8:07 AM UTC
I'm the thief of your dreams; I've gone and turned them all black.
Everything you wanted for me, everything you hoped I'd be I threw back.
Now you worry and smother me with all of your good intentions,
But I lie to you through my teeth-- even my "truths" are inventions.
Apr 23, 2016
Apr 23, 2016 at 11:49 PM UTC
Good intentions lay around us like unopened books
We thought we might, but we never even took a look
We thought we might, but our actions where null
We just stayed in our lull
Our intentions where grand
But we never took that stand
We know we failed
We are on that paved road sraight to hell
Jan 30, 2016
Jan 30, 2016 at 12:28 PM UTC
Aggressive stood the silhouette
Distant in the night.
Sutured to her shadow
A dark and haunting plight.
Forgotten was the hour
Desolation bereaved.
Consumed by her fears
A beast was conceived.
What's worse then battle
Is one fought alone.
When the lights are all on
But nobody's home.
When the demon that lurks
Is one that's detached.
Mindful yet careless
Improperly miss matched.
The void spreads like cancer
A concrete defeat.
Becoming the snake pit
By tripping over her feet.
Saved by good intentions
But just for a moment.
See, with actions and consequences
You just have to own it.
Nov 22, 2015
Nov 22, 2015 at 5:30 PM UTC