#givingin
Midnight marks the darkest hour
And I lay in bed awake-
As I listen to the tiptoes of an intruder
Trying to be sneaky tonight
A lean figure appears in my door
A smile on their face
I swoon as he stands in the moonlight
Gleaming in all his dark glory-
Mystery always did have a wonderful lure
Everything about him spoke a million questions
The true embodiment of mystery -
Such as
Why would this fellow visit me in the dark of night?
There were thousands resting just alike
My mystery man stalked closer,
No caution displayed openly-
And as he reached out his gloved hand
I felt sparks ignite my form
Wonderful!
I shot up from bed-
The shock was evident on this greek god
But I could care less
I was done playing games
I asked him his purpose
His reason
For tempting me when the night has grown so cold
He vanished-
Once my fingers grazed him,
He was gone as if he hadn’t come
And yet again, I was all alone
The mystery man visited me every night-
same time same place
But once we touched he was gone
So I wondered if I was going crazy instead
As time grew on
I began opening my arms wider
To the dark mystery that was this man
And eventually, he joined me
We became one
Madness and all
Some say things aren’t always what they seem
And perhaps they were right
My mystery man
Now clear as day-
Is no man in truth
A man is a monster
A darkness
My darkness
He filled me with fear
And anguish
And madness
Those who cannot resist the temptation
Risk losing more than just that-
They risk their sanity and mind
And revert into their darkest side
The temptress always so evil
Will wear you as a ring-
And mold you to their liking
Until you can't think a thing
Beware of midnight visitors
Though they seem perfect so-
They are filled with more lies then mystery
And it has truly come to show
Nov 26, 2019
Nov 26, 2019 at 11:22 AM UTC
The chains of life slowly drifting,
As the spirit melts away,
As the tide is ever shifting,
Swallowing the light of day.
Rigor of the body swaying,
To a tune that Hades hums,
Two coins, and no more pain,
River Styx will fill my lungs.
Horror of rejection fading,
As my past loves turn to dust,
I'll go with you, silent, praying,
I will forego earthly lust.
Sanity completely leaving,
Echoes call me to the void,
Things are seldom worth believing,
I'm so sorry doctor Freud.
Jul 3, 2019
Jul 3, 2019 at 1:00 AM UTC
What can I say it provoked me.
The smokey black slithered with sultry grace
passed all my carefully placed defenses.
Humor me, it spoke
caressing the ear.
I watched the glow of it's single eye
searching my mind
The black became a tether
knotting, choking.
What can I say I did nothing,
little lamb laid to the slaughter.
I remember it choking, the smokey black.
Like a raven haired lover,
A mistress of shadow wills my curiosity
In that moment, lost to the movement
I would or could never return.
Pinned to obsession
staggering the lines of possession
A rebel's tango begins
the staccato steps to be my end.
Jun 13, 2019
Jun 13, 2019 at 2:13 PM UTC
I have not felt the urge in so long
Tonight the desire is strong
I attempt to resist
But I find myself tracing the white lines
Over and over again
For now, I trace with my fingertip
However, tonight the desire is strong
The desire to see the shine of the blade
To feel the pull as it neatly slices the skin
To see the bright red as it fills in behind the blade
How long can I resist this urge
Now where did that come from
Look a shiny blade in my hand
I have missed you
Let me see you work
Let us make new scars
Jan 19, 2017
Jan 19, 2017 at 9:56 PM UTC
I lay here staring
Hoping it will ring
The phone to my happiness
The remedy for depression
Closure to my insecurity
Why won't she call
Why cant she see
The need for her assurance
In my life.
In my world
She'd be queen
She'd be first
And i'd be happy
Im loosing it
Tempted to cut
To choke
To smoke
To get drunk
To forget
The hurt inside
If only i could
Tell her how i feel
Maybe she'll understand
Maybe she'll see
How important she is to me
But what scares me most
Is hearing the anger in her voice
The will to go on without me
Her happiness without me
The joy someone else might grant her
So if that day comes
The one where her silence deafens
Her gaze relocates
The spark dies down
And friction looses its grip
I'll crash and burn
Worst than 9/11
And i'll pay the price
One i can't afford
They don't understand
They say im too weak, too young
I know more than they do
Because its happening to me
This will be my 32nd disaster
And just like the first 31
I'll fight alone
I'll crawl alone
I'll cry alone
I'll be alone
In my corner
At the back of her mind
Im broken
No glue can fix me
Every nut, bolt and *****
I've lost them all
Help is no longer needed
But what i'll smile about
Is the fact that
When I hang from that tree
And then lay in my box
She'll look at me
She'll see me
She'll know what she missed
And when she speaks
She'll know how i felt
How i mourned
How i burned
Then she'll love me back
Jul 26, 2014
Jul 26, 2014 at 6:41 PM UTC
Heart aches,
Head aches.
All I wish...
Is to feel nothing at all.
Become Stone.
Never to be alive.
Again.
No more,
May the night.
Conquer me...
Apr 29, 2014
Apr 29, 2014 at 7:55 AM UTC