#fucklife
I'm extremely frustrated
It's difficult to explain
As well as infuriated,
but why complain?
Friendship deteriorated
And ended in pain
Oct 11, 2018
Oct 11, 2018 at 6:07 PM UTC
Stitched into this sac of skin at birth.
That fused to your bones
Fabricating a narcotic seamless facade
We pluck at the seams, with crude claws.
Laboring to unravel the lace seams
In vain
Whirling, flickering, suffocating nausea aimed at
Misuse of our pronouns of
Our echoing repulsive abnormal figure.
Funding a doctor to shed our skin.
Mutilating skin and bone to perfection.
For self-acceptance.
Sep 17, 2018
Sep 17, 2018 at 6:58 PM UTC
Received on February 14th, valentines day
Not meant to be this way
Just for my soul to train
The cup she gave me
my valued possession
turned to the thing
blocking progression
I drink from it
Filled with rage
Wrists un-slid
again, this stage
Keep it to tease
the beast inside me
for if I throw it away
I would be the same
that I was the day
I broke her
and threw her away
Sep 17, 2018
Sep 17, 2018 at 5:49 AM UTC
You can do this. (Do you even understand?)
The fight is half over. (No. it's just begun...)
Don't stop believing. (can't stop if you never started...)
It can't be that bad... (Oh... It's much worse...)
What's wrong? (What isn't?)
It'll be okay... (No... It will never be okay.)
(No I'm not fine... No I don't want to talk about it... No I don't need a hug... I just want you to leave me the **** alone...)
Feb 28, 2018
Feb 28, 2018 at 6:54 PM UTC
I'm not.
I think the world is against me.
I think I will never amount to anything.
I think I can't do anything right.
I think it will be okay.
But it never is.
It will never be okay, not in a million years.
It will never be fine, like I tell my mom everyday.
It will always be a ******* **** show of my life.
The scariest part is, I can't remember how I felt before.
I can't remember the happiness, or the joy.
All I can remember is the sadness, the anger'
The pain, the ripping in my chest.
Every time I think I'm done.....
Feb 28, 2018
Feb 28, 2018 at 12:06 PM UTC
What a wonderful day , Hearing all the pain from the others
Everytime it think about it, it hurts, feelings are so deep
I wish to become a child again. I miss myself, the moment,
When I was a child seeing my father and mother both love each other,
getting those small things that makes me so happy and not colder,
Just enjoyable days happens as a child that will not happen today
Because today , all the happiest things become confusion
Writing this poem , falling tears , can't find a way or a solution.
Maybe I'm at the breaking point where I don't care about my life anymore,
I just want to end my life , so I can escape from the pain that keeps killing me.
I just want to end this sh*t that makes me more uncomfortable of becoming ME.
Dec 8, 2017
Dec 8, 2017 at 5:16 AM UTC
Hello.
Goodbye.
They see nothing.
I feel nothing.
How are you?
I am fine.
When did that ever matter?
Jun 9, 2017
Jun 9, 2017 at 11:05 AM UTC
Stuck in skirmish of working this
retail
I'm intricately plotting my escape with detail
Now see well
it's time for an alternative path
One that I believe, achieve then kick ***
This ***** whack
working hourly wages
I'm Turning time into sand,
with people who won't make it
Reality is a series of obstacles
Let's face it
My sanity is slipping like
Like **** on black latex
How can I ******* break this
I've become a statistic
a realistic typical stereotype
I fantasize on the daily
wishing I can take Ariel flight
How can I steer clear of these mundane communications
slab-faced coworkers &
there basic conversations
I'm tired of it, I'm tired of it
I'm done with it...
No more giving a ****
Now it's time to resist
These urges of being someone
Who settles & simply quits
I seek to strive for more
My motivation is too legit
My skills are beyond eons
I will conquer with fist
No more being a peon
Dance then do a flip
Celebrate like I'm Deion
For this year will test
my patience & true potential
to many years guiding this pencil
Into oblivion
Blank spaces and synonyms
Wordplay over wordplay
Metaphors for my residents
Letters create earthquakes
Echoes create resonance
I from art in sentences
This residue is my evidence
Nov 21, 2016
Nov 21, 2016 at 11:46 PM UTC
I try to move on，
To no avail,
I feel so lost,
And utterly insane.
I wish for my death，
Every moment
Of every day.
Taking out anger,
On my body,
To feel the pain.
Happiness lasts for so little,
It fades so fast away.
I feel so numb!
No emotion to regain,
Unable of caring.
Unable to stand my own pain.
I feel no hope,
My sanity has so long faded away.
I searched for help.
I searched for friendship.
I searched for a care.
Yet again,
To no avail.
Oct 26, 2015
Oct 26, 2015 at 11:20 AM UTC
I never lost my virginity
At the age of 19
To a boy who promised
That it will not hurt
I never bled
I never bit my lips
I never cried
I never slept with a writer,
Musician, chemist,
An engineer or even a *********
I never tried a pregnancy test kit
I am not scared
Of those two red lines
I never loved my best friend
Or those strangers
Who painfully ripped my body
I love those stains
Of a long forgotten past
Embedded on crumpled sheets
I was never molested
When I was 5 or so
It was just a game
I never cursed that night
I never hated my brother
I want men to crave for me
I never wanted their affection
I don’t want to ******* **** them
On streets in the middle of the night
With cat calls
I am not depressed
I love my scars
I never took ******
Just to sleep at night
Or wept in the middle of nowhere
I am a strong woman
I am not damaged
I ******* hate this life
It’s too beautiful for someone like me
This is not a poem
Of a broken girl
I am okay.
I wanna live.
I am not a liar.
A happy girl
Wrote this
Waiting for her prince charming
To free this damsel in distress
From the tower of anguish
And to live happily ever after
Sep 8, 2015
Sep 8, 2015 at 3:29 AM UTC
All I need is a needle
And a spoon
I've got the balloons
The cotton ball, lighter
Drive higher up the mountains
Where no one will find me
And get really high
For the
Last
Time
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 6:12 PM UTC
I don't want you
Any part of your noxious soul
You ******* obliterate, destroy
Like venom in veins
Slowly eat away
Look at the pain
You caused so much
Broken hearts, twisted remarks
Undone, redone to undo again
Your ways make absolutely no ******* sense
****** sensations
My only limitation
But insanity comes with a heavy price
Now nothing ever seems to suffice
Normal conversation is all that was required
Of course, too much to ask, from a lowly squire
Everything you touch turns to ash
If it weren't for compassion I would've never acted so rash
But now that's all trash
You've proven your worth
Correct, none
I want all my doings to be undone
**** your tainted mind
***How do I leave this **** behind***
s.q.
Jul 31, 2014
Jul 31, 2014 at 12:21 AM UTC