#fromtheheart
She was not too close,
Also not so unknown.
She was not a friend for life…
Neither just friend.
But still…
She always respected my opinions
Listened to all my blabbering
Bared all my naughty antics
Secured all my secrets
Understood all my feelings
Yes!! She was special and her absence is getting hard now.
May 16, 2025
May 16, 2025 at 12:18 AM UTC
They love to say
we bring out the best in each other
that I bring out the best in you,
like that's the only thing I am good for,
the only reason I am in your life.
They smile
and point.
It won’t last.
Eventually, he will leave.
Even the moon goes through phases.
As if I’ll just
pack my bags
and leave you behind,
as if I could just
erase my entire existence.
Baby,
I love how they think
you cannot think
for yourself.
your friends,
all the people around you.
They think they know
the truth
when they see me
half the time.
Baby,
I understand
the concept,
the concern.
But even the moon
doesn’t fully disappear,
If you look closer.
Just because they don’t see it
doesn’t mean
I’ve left your sky.
Some things
are just meant
for you.
No matter
how much they point,
or try to pull you
to the side,
there is no hiding
from you
Mar 22, 2025
Mar 22, 2025 at 4:24 PM UTC
Can't stop this feeling.
That you give to me.
One simple touch.
Butterflies dancing around.
In my stomach.
Shivers race up my spine.
The uncontrollable beat.
Of my heart.
Can't shake this feeling.
One simple glance.
An electrifying smile.
Creeps upon my face.
A satisfying warmth.
Swim through my body.
The need to hug you.
Taunts me.
The thought of you leaving.
Haunts me.
If you go.
Then I'll be broken.
Never wanting.
This feeling to end.
I would go to.
Hell and back.
To save it.
My heart wants to do nothing.
But protect it.
This one feeling.
That keeps me going.
And happy.
This feeling called Love.
Sep 26, 2020
Sep 26, 2020 at 3:17 PM UTC
Men all inshroud in black grayongray funeral dress like the dead they have been asking you to sit down with them and YHWH with the soft gloomgleam of their how dark with excessive bright thy skirts appear threads woven hate betwixt HimI will not be cut so easy as we want and I wont embrace His softhardfirmness not so easily not yet too soon the sun sets insofar as it can below the leftover clouds of fast passing day and we all missed homebound trains in that distraction of the sunset circus setting skies alight with love softspokensilken fire orangedarkwithexceessbright red as hell and sin together those men inshroud and Him rise to mirror set suns O and the soft breathing beyond the trees behind the train just arrived of the sea the sea crimson sometimes like fire and the glorious sunsets and the evergreen everinlove pines behind the train yes I stand to take my starting after all the deadmen I love dont know and Him yes laughing towards home towards old streets of newness and all I we are left wanting HIm in holy union with my footsteps in the quicksand too thick to stand go on then figure out now what it is that you need You Ill step out for a minute to breathe nopleasedontleaveimsorry in air on fire with loveheat Ill love right true holy You please yes take me home to your motherfatherholyspirit so I will impress on them my love for a four letter word that disobeys all linguistic laws but will love me more than none more than any more than I view the wheel that is the world from the side and I see an I that is Him yes that is I yes that is We and my heart goes like mad and yes I reach out yes Ill make You HIm I will here now forever yes yes Yes.
Jan 9, 2020
Jan 9, 2020 at 6:03 PM UTC
Right now I am happy...
I feel comfortable and I feel safe.
I feel grateful for my existence and I'm enjoying my life.
I feel a warmth envelop me a hundred times a day.
Reminding me I am alive and content and free.
Right now I am happy...
I am happy to be me.
I know I'm going the right way even though I'm not certain which way that may be.
I know this from my feelings deep down inside.
I've learned to understand me, for so long I have tried.
Right now I am happy...
It's been a journey and I've survived.
I learned the hard way, to be calm and still my pride.
I want others to learn sooner, that way they can enjoy life.
Because right now I'm happy, happy to be alive.
Feb 24, 2019
Feb 24, 2019 at 12:36 PM UTC
Rereading old writes
The familiar heartache,
unending pain, the paradox,
the ****** and contradiction
I must be trying so hard
to tell myself something
but I never learn
Reopening old wounds
Touching nerves,
the skin burns, the watering eyes,
the fights and the lies
Cutting ties and goodbyes
The drunk *** the sent texts
So many regrets and so much stress
A sad read, a happy memory
A lifetime of love and irrelevant stuff
What am I doing?
Questions, no answer
long walks in parks after dark
with nothing but a pen in my hand
and heart in my throat,
quick sand and so much smoke
Dec 8, 2018
Dec 8, 2018 at 10:17 AM UTC
Morning hues expose my timorous state.
Desperation leads me to cover my face.
Look close to see my vulnerability.
Stand next to me, feel my warmth seep from me.
People steal my tenderness, my energy, my positivity.
Leaving me naked and nugatory.
I learned to hide the physical trace.
Only I know the truth, feel the abuse.
In the night agitation kicks in.
No way to sleep, only to weep.
Safely locked. Deep in my private thoughts.
In the night I can be me. I reach for my secret sins.
I need to feel free and no longer nugatory.
Morning comes again.
Time to cover my sins.
Jul 29, 2018
Jul 29, 2018 at 9:04 PM UTC
I rang the doorbell
Seeking entrance to the home
I heard footsteps walking to
But it seemed I was outside, alone.
The cold began to nip at my skin
My internal temperature began to drop
My heart began to beat fast
Why won't she answer the door
I'm outside freezing and my heads starting to spin
I'm outside your heart. ..please let me in
Apr 23, 2016
Apr 23, 2016 at 12:07 AM UTC
Memories everywhere I see,
Your eyes always watching.
Believing we had something once,
Only deceiving myself.
Tomorrow is another day,
To be plagued by times lost.
Living a constant war,
Emptying bottle after bottle.
- James Arce
Apr 15, 2016
Apr 15, 2016 at 1:22 AM UTC
I just want you to know
I don't care if you don't love me
I don't care if you don't want me
But you must know
I want you
I want you to be apart of sunshine
I want you to be apart of my smile
But I accept if you don't feel the same
I know these actions are not in vain
But I hold them in my brain
Helping me grow against the strain
So ladies...hop on this magical train
I want to bring you joy changed from pain
Apr 3, 2016
Apr 3, 2016 at 10:30 PM UTC
If we only have this life, you get me through
Never met many so genuine; only a few
If we've only got this life
Then this adventure oh then I
Shall share it with you for your amenities
Your heart in mine is the ultimate proximity
She's endured my pain for so long
She's a never ending loop of your favorite song
{Set II: Brandon}
Even if our hymns fall flat
The fact that I saved her from splat
I made her believe again
Even then I can be that ultimate friend
She needed to know genuine still exists
Her smile brings back dreams I reminisce
You want an MVP in your relationship
To help patch the ship and sail for companionship
|INTERLUDE|
Crystal is the pearl
Sent to me as a guide
Easy to tell what I confide
The Emerald Girl
Feb 3, 2016
Feb 3, 2016 at 8:23 PM UTC
My hand shakes gripping the quill
Shaping and warping words at will
The ink is the blood of my heart
for it is where the fire for my poems start
I cut and carve my life in rhyme
blotched on the paper trapped in time
Life Death Loss and Love
Spilling and splashing to the paper, all of the above
The heart dances as the fire rages
The quill scratches and drips as words come alive off the pages
Throwing you into the realm of my mind
You will exit leaving nothing behind
For poetry is a passion
I am not of any fashion
I merely feed the fire
That my heart will forever desire.
For every poem you read
Is what my heart is willing to bleed
Jun 17, 2015
Jun 17, 2015 at 3:48 AM UTC
What determines a man's strength
Is it his mental or physical endurance
Maybe it's the size of his muscle that counts
Or maybe it's all about the size of his little man down below
Is it determined by how fast he can run
How brave he fights
Determined by how quick he reacts to a particular situation
The real question is how do you judge a man
Is not every man different
So by logic must you know what real man looks like
But every being has their own taste
Their own opinion about what a real man is
So how do judge something that everyone views differently
The answer is you don't
Every man is equally as strong
It just depends on who he has by his side
Which is why I'm glad I have you
One who I cherish so
Who I so desperately strive to protect
Who gives me purpose in life
Who gives me the strength to continue forward
Instead of being paralysed unable to take another step
This is why I love you
You gave strength that I could not have imagine to obtain on my own
So I hope that you see that what I feel is true
That all I really want is to be with you
May 4, 2015
May 4, 2015 at 11:14 PM UTC
She's like cold air piercing my lungs
She's a strong current pulling me to sea
She's like forest fire burn all of my me
She's the best when she feels the worst
She's the smell when I lay next to her
She's the one I had and the one I lost
She's the one I love but it comes with a cost
She's cancer in my bones but I don't mind
She's the one stealing all my time
She's the one sending chills up my spine
She's the one that can't be replaced
She's the one I can't remove
She's the only one I'll say I do too
She's my heaven
She's my heart
She's been the one all from the start.
Apr 2, 2015
Apr 2, 2015 at 2:54 AM UTC
When I was born,
It was the happiest day of my life
Well I don't know, but I'm sure it was.
I looked at you,
Into your eyes,
And somehow I knew you were my mother.
As I got older, our bond grew stronger.
As I got older, we almost reached perfection.
And as I got older, we argued more and spoke less.
But in the meantime I knew;
For me, you only wanted the best.
I thought,
"So be it,
She's my mum,
She knows me better than anyone."
Years went by,
We started speaking more again.
We bonded again, just like the start...
But now? Now we were stronger than ever.
A few years ago, in a hospital room
When I was born,
Crying and kicking,
Smiling and laughing
Yes, I know your muscles were tight.
But the day I was born, I looked at you for the first time
And close up I witnessed love at first sight.
Mar 29, 2015
Mar 29, 2015 at 4:15 PM UTC
who's shoulder was you crying on,
the same shoulder you was lying on,?
who's lips were you kissing,
the same lips that you'll be missing,?
who's heart did you seek,and enjoy
the same heart you made weak and destroyed,?
Mar 1, 2015
Mar 1, 2015 at 10:07 PM UTC
Beautiful soul is what you are.
In some dark days you are my star.
You are an extension of God's love.
I can't deny the fact that you are blessing from above.
Everything of you is a part of me.
Your beautiful side is what I always see.
You are a person who fights for what is right.
And sometimes this cause you to cry at night.
Since before, you've been always thoughtful.
I saw the times when you became fearful.
Deep down I felt the tears you've shed,
and courageously to God you prayed and pled.
The time I met you was one of the best-
the best time to say that I am blessed!
We both know that I am not a perfect friend,
but you offered me something that will last 'til the end.
Fun things are what we always do.
Remember the days when we tried to fly and climbed trees, too?
I remembered a day when you cried a lot,
because you were playing and had a deep cut.
Rainy days! One of our favorite days!
We were excited to run and play.
Laughing, running, throwing mud.
We even tried to play in the flood.
Impossible things became possible to us,
There were many things that we liked to discuss.
We became fake animals and superheroes.
We had a pet frog- oh yeah, we were weirdos!
Each day was a time to had fun.
We didn't care about the heat of the sun.
We embraced every bruises we had.
Friends come and go- we were always glad.
Now that we are grown ups and at our 20's,
no more plays and doing important duties.
Memories and friendship will remain the same.
Some things about us, now I acclaim.
Dear best friend, I pray and hope all the best for you.
I and God will always help you to get through.
Let's look on forward to what is best,
and stick together, for we know that God will do the rest.
-Steph Dionisio, February 10, 2015
Feb 10, 2015
Feb 10, 2015 at 3:18 AM UTC
Under His Breath
In my dreams we have true romance,
with souls intertwined we are holding hands,
you say beautiful things to me and you listen and understand,
In real life around you I am happy,
even when I feel irritated and snappy,
You make me giggle,
and it feels like you're my best friend,
but I am so afraid that our friendship may come to an end,
I beat myself up in my head, tell myself that I wish I was dead,
but he reassures me in a magical way,
I'm only left here to be patient and wait,
I'm holding my heart,
been doing so from the start,
and I will wait till my death,
just to be under his breath.
By Larna Kira Kourtis AKA LkSkyFlyRose
06/01/15
~Peace~
By LkSkyFlyRose
© 2015 LkSkyFlyRose (All rights reserved)
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 5:42 PM UTC
Listen To My Tears
These tears of a million pieces are drowning in your arms,
these tears have a million memories,
save me from self-harm,
This shadow that follows me,
never smiles, no, but I can try but I won't,
because it doesn't feel right,
Because these tears are all I have in me,
every negative thought I have somehow finds me,
It's hard to carry on hiding,
these tears are blinding,
So dissapear, I say this to myself,
I cannot take another long glance at myself,
This poison under my skin,
is the first reason for my bleeding,
Yet my heart keeps beating,
and these tears hoard the feelings,
the ones that I like to hide from you,
All I want to say is I'm sorry,
sorry for hurting me,
I am the one, I betray myself,
and I am my own personal bully,
My number one enemy, it's me thats hurting,
I wish you could see what is happening to me,
this pain is unreal and it makes me peal,
every flaw off of me,
I don't want to hurt me anymore...
That's why I stare at you,
waiting for you to notice more,
and I adore everyone, I truly love you all,
It's me I hated all along... and afterall,
I am so hateful to myself, I can't wait,
To love, to feel like hope is here,
like it's all crystal clear,
But first you need to hear,
Listen to my tears.
By Larna Kira Kourtis AKA LkSkyFlyRose
06/01/15
~Peace~
By LkSkyFlyRose
© 2015 LkSkyFlyRose (All rights reserved)
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 5:40 PM UTC
I said no thus I lose another friend.
She claimed she "loved" me
Giving a lecture on everything she liked about me
How I was so sweet to her, always treating her as if she was a princess
Always there for her when she needed me to be
Now she is mad at me, ready to rip my throat out
All because I don't feel the same way she felt about me
I'm sorry you misunderstood my kindness as a act of love
I'm sorry I feel as if a have a whole life ahead of me
I mean...
Let's get real I'm only 17 what kind of love do you expect me to feel
Oh you are the most wonderful girl in the world even though I never left my home town
I wouldn't dare tell you that lie
You see I actually do care about you
So why would I dare consciously set you up to feel pain
What sense does that make to you but it's whatever
You want to be mad at me because I told you the truth so be it
I rather that then hurting you with lies
At least I can rest in peace
Though I hope we can still be friends
If you gonna let that get in between us
Then I suppose we go our separate ways
Dec 2, 2014
Dec 2, 2014 at 12:32 AM UTC
From head to toes
We are imperfect
Saying the things that are unimportant
Talk about the weather
Rather than say, I couldn't live without you
Too scared to say what we might regret
But if we don't
Will we not feel the same
Those actions we don't put into action?
Those words we don't allow our tongue to form, our lips to pronounce
Will they not haunt us
When it comes to the end?
Lay your head on her chest
Hear her heart
Get close
Give your heart what it needs
Trust, to save yourself
Tell her you love her& give the evidence of it
Give with all your heart
Chance the hurt
To eliminate the regrets, 'what-ifs& I wishes'
Live from the heart
Nov 24, 2014
Nov 24, 2014 at 8:46 PM UTC
Sing to me now, sing to me
Convince me not to hate you please
Talk to me now, talk to me,
Convince me not to resent you
See me now, see me
Convince me that you haven't been looking through me these 18 years
Hold me now, hold me
Convince me that you feel some affection for me
Comfort me now, comfort me
Give me a taste of something you've never given
Love me now, love me
But even then will I ever believe it?
Nov 10, 2014
Nov 10, 2014 at 2:18 AM UTC
I watched you walk
Shoe laces untied
Right out that door
I peered at more
Your spine shimmering
I gave you hell
But here you are
Leaving
Your bones rake and rattle
I can here them when i'm close
But what got me
What really got me
Was the skyscraper you seem to pull out every time
there it is
Holding your soul at such a peak
But your bones are frail
And i yet weak
You hold but a piece of me
Yet i am weak
Endeavoring is only the conquest
Am i not right?
Or am i a bit bashful
I wish you farewell sky
Scraper
Until at last i reach your soul
At the top
Aug 3, 2014
Aug 3, 2014 at 4:16 AM UTC