#findinghope
He sits on the cold pavement,
back against the world,
eyes lost in a sky too vast,
too indifferent to a boy
who once dreamed of touching it.
The cigarette flickers between his fingers,
a quiet rebellion, a silent scream.
Smoke coils like memories—
of failures, of love lost,
of roads that led nowhere.
Maybe this is all there is—
a tired soul, an empty night,
a battle no one sees.
Then, a voice—soft yet firm.
"Got a light?"
He looks up, startled.
A stranger, wrapped in the wind,
eyes carrying storms of their own.
"You look like a man
who’s been running from himself,"
the stranger says, lighting his own cigarette.
"But the thing about running—
it never gets you anywhere."
A pause. A knowing glance.
"Maybe it’s time you walked instead."
The words settle like embers in his chest.
For the first time in a long time,
he exhales without regret.
The cigarette burns,
but tonight, so does something else—
a spark, a reason.
He stands up,
dusts off the weight of yesterday,
and starts walking forward
Feb 28, 2025
Feb 28, 2025 at 1:42 AM UTC
I solation is what kills me.
S o I scream for help—
O nly then, silence echoes louder.
L iving amongst false illusion alone,
A life in an empty home of a lonely heart.
T hroughout my time, I use this map.
I tried to find hope in the dark.
O f course—
N othing shows the path.
Jan 17, 2025
Jan 17, 2025 at 1:10 AM UTC
In a world where joy and sorrow blend,
We wear our smiles, though hearts may bend.
The laughter fades, and shadows creep,
A heavy burden that we all must keep.
In moments where the heart should soar,
Instead, we feel a quiet war.
The joy that once filled up our days,
Now leaves us lost in a dismal haze.
We reach out, hoping to be heard,
But find no comfort in a word.
Alone, we craft a mask of cheer,
To hide the pain, to mask the fear.
Yet deep within, we all the same,
Carry wounds that have no name.
In this silent, shared despair,
Know that you're not alone out there.
Aug 12, 2024
Aug 12, 2024 at 9:33 AM UTC
I got so afraid of losing you that I subconsciously numbed myself of your love
My biggest fear came a reality when I realized I was pushing you away
When really all I wanted was you touching me, loving me
I became ungrateful and unbelieving of your love so I wouldn't worry about losing you
But, I've come to realize, I want to risk feeling the pain of losing you
I want to love you so hard that, if this was our last day, I'd lay easy knowing I loved you with all I had
Worrying about the future, unwillingly numbed my present
And, I will fight so so hard to get it back
Nov 6, 2019
Nov 6, 2019 at 7:33 PM UTC
It is in this moment of shame that I am most dishonoured
I can physically hear the folds of my clothing rumple as I collapse into the sidewalk of my mind-- skull fragments reverberating off the backs of my teeth and echoing dully in the absence of mind.
Silently and absently, I will expire -- My final call
Again
and
Again
I will die here...
Even if only just in a dream
Jul 28, 2017
Jul 28, 2017 at 12:19 AM UTC