#fidelity
Dejected resolution
Offerings in gold
Spare my intention
And leave the rose
Charter a course
And remove love from golds tongue
Carry the war
Laying upon the palace the fine things consumed
Feb 21
Feb 21, 2026 at 11:24 AM UTC
Into the morn I pass
Without timber and alas
You are ferried warm in the maize
In an as was the time
So becomes the night
Both shall meet, everlast in defeat
Returning hearts
Bitten field
Hallowed mornings
Springs reveal
Oh the ripened wheats
Cause again
Her merry cheeks
Alive this morn
Feb 21
Feb 21, 2026 at 11:07 AM UTC
Every night, if it felt as if the world was ending,
as if the night held an anger strong enough to end our lives,
here stands the moon.
In winter — the season of sadness and regret —
here stands the moon.
In summer — the season of love and desire —
here stands the moon.
In autumn — the quiet anger after summer —
here stands the moon.
In spring — the warmth that follows winter —
here stands the moon.
So when I tell you you are my moon,
never doubt the purity of my love.
Jan 6
Jan 6, 2026 at 5:44 AM UTC
He graced me with my voice,
and with it I seek out questions.
I don’t claim the right answers,
neither lies or facts; just truth.
Defy the false, a rare gratitude
to be given your own note.
Forever playing it, truthfully;
a key true to its pitch.
Were it not for His will true,
where would we be today?
Dec 30, 2025
Dec 30, 2025 at 1:04 AM UTC
why do i want to see
where this goes?
why do i want to take
everything to its logical conclusion?
why am i curious about you?
who are you?
i have everything to lose
and everything to gain
you?
this little weird connection
excites me too
but it’s excitement
like the russians do it
it’s excitement
like japan’s best pilots in 1945
did it
skydiving with a rock attached to my ankle
jumping into the ocean with a parachute
strapped to my face
why now?
why me?
why you
of all people
to break
such a powerful spell?
like some irreverent witch
unbinding something sacred
something virtuous
in tatters
you bless me
with a curse
and curse me
with your blessing
why?
-cole, 10 nov 2025
Nov 15, 2025
Nov 15, 2025 at 2:14 PM UTC
Yes
We are gross
In the same gross way
It’s gross that you wrote me
It’s gross that I read it
That I read it and didn’t delete it
It’s gross that I care
What some stranger thinks
I hate my sensibilities
And my capacity for self sabotage
It’s gross that I play volleyball
With my own projections
That I love myself more
Because of whatever you see in me
That I love the fictional version of me
You made up in your head
It’s gross that I toy with the disaster
You represent
That I feel burdened
By my strongly held convictions
It’s awful and gross
That my shadow and I play bingo on the weekends
That our discussions have turned into mutual ************
I wish I didn’t care
I wish I didn’t wish I didn’t care
Freedom is gross
******* is gross
-cole, 10 Nov 2025
Nov 9, 2025
Nov 9, 2025 at 8:54 PM UTC
I cannot marry
you, but forever I will --
love you and be yours.
Jan 30, 2025
Jan 30, 2025 at 4:28 AM UTC
Love was made on a level that only the stars above could discern.
My lips ensnaring yours, softly, but, aggressively
as the sweetness of lustful saliva lubricates
embracing you with my arms
I wish to fuse you and I together forever!
The natural expression of divine love that defines
the steamy procession that pursues the rawest display of our reciprocating affections
that moment of rewarding bliss as I enter you.
You, receiving me eagerly with your legs clutching me firmly.
One, we have become under the creator of all.
Early morning sunshine peeks through the window just to greet you,
but, only I can feel you close to me.
The angels have succumb to their envy of me
the celestials I must now fight
oh how they wish to be near you
I cannot lose you.
I love you.
There were those moments that I scoured space and time in search of you.
Breaking the mad tyrant’s gauntlet to confiscate the stones and crawling back to you on my shattered knees to rest at your feet,0
I will give everything that is good to you!
Yes, you!
Only you!
The sun incinerated my hands when I repositioned them to extend our particular solstice.
My reward was a prolonged winter
perpetual so that I could always cuddle with you.
You are God’s beautiful prose
the Creator’s presence is only visible through the essence of you.
You.
Jan 2, 2025
Jan 2, 2025 at 10:21 PM UTC
when did a camp fire
become a wild fire
raging through
two hapless
souls blinded
in love with love--
how did it all grow
to a spreading inferno
with bait that satiated
opportunities denied
threatening what is
to be lost forever--
carefully built
solidity over years
of hard work and much
sacrifice, seeing the long-term
goals, knowing that a flash in the pan
often ends in a bitter rainstorm--
when did a camp fire
become a wild fire
raging through
two hapless
souls wounded
so stop now--
Mar 21, 2024
Mar 21, 2024 at 11:55 AM UTC
Might fidelity
be: pretending love, hoping --
it will get better?
Mar 11, 2024
Mar 11, 2024 at 5:01 AM UTC
We went wild, so happy
with each other, so happy
to have found each other
to have found love
true love, for you and me
...My love for you is still there
...you can see it shining
...wherever you are, let the sun
...of your activities go down
...and blow away the clouds of your worries
...then you'll see it, see me
...with you again
I lived with my friends
until I met you
and you turned out
to give me more than they do
and I want to give that to you too
...My love for you is still there
...you can see it shining
...wherever you are, let the sun
...of your activities go down
...and blow away the clouds of your worries
...then you'll see it, see me
...with you again
Oct 12, 2023
Oct 12, 2023 at 4:44 AM UTC
My tent has a hole
at the top, that's the moon
which always shines
Before me, after me
Moon, you have room, right?
Tell me, do you have a place
for my heart?
Then, I'll come
to you
when I die, I will
to let my love shine
together with you
..One day I'll have to leave
..everything behind
..and none of it is mine
..except my love
..which is mine, all mine
for my loved one here on earth
That's why I hope
I can shine on him
with you later
..Nothing is mine
..except my love
..which is mine
..all mine
..all mine
Oct 8, 2023
Oct 8, 2023 at 2:55 AM UTC
Can love heal my heart,
wanting to be here with you --
and longing for her?
Aug 14, 2023
Aug 14, 2023 at 2:35 AM UTC
Love can strike at any time.
I'm afraid it might.
What do I do if I'm already in love?
It must be quite a plight.
Pull yourself together
and think of what you've got.
Lightning never strikes twice, my man,
or have you lost the plot?
Jul 15, 2021
Jul 15, 2021 at 5:32 AM UTC
Darling, you're my sun,
luckily not the real one –
You'll never go down.
Jun 22, 2021
Jun 22, 2021 at 6:26 AM UTC
we blossomed once
in the desert
two green weeds
seeking rootless pleasure
now flower bedded
horticultured—yet wistfully I miss
the *****
of cactus lips
Aug 20, 2020
Aug 20, 2020 at 8:51 PM UTC
You will fall in love with me soon,
Haziness will be in your thoughts.
You may then enjoy that swoon,
Sweetness will be in my plots.
You would love my expression,
Kindness is on top of my virtues.
You might not realize my real lies,
Strangeness lies in the truth of my life.
There might come an important time,
Truthfulness of mine will be so banal.
You might seek stability in your life,
With someone that has a better base.
Will you leave me alone then,
Or will you seek respite inside?
Will you forever faithfully be mine,
Or will you pursue infidelity outside?
Jan 18, 2020
Jan 18, 2020 at 4:26 AM UTC
The Fidelity of Transmissions
”Cells, the units of life that compose our bodies, are able to make copies of themselves to help us grow, fight disease and recover from injuries. Cells have built-in mechanisms that maintain
the fidelity of transmission
of genetic information from one generation to the next, and to control cell division in a timely manner, allowing our bodies to build or rebuild various tissues.”
~~~
when the poetry cri de cœur grows unbearable ,
sound mystery-science calms his tumbling transcendency
alas, here too, his ears sit up straight when stumbling on a invitation to
“come write,” for hid within the science jargon, oft rests a snipers shot
redirecting the didactic mind back to the
everyman’s land where-poetry cells split,,
commanding him to delve into, visit new brain wrenching vistas
“the fidelity of transmission”
at its macro level, for science is micro-poetry,^
n’est-ce pas
~~~
when you love another
the transmission is a slow pour,
or a radical jarring,
the fidelity extremely extraordinarily variable
the loveliest unpredictable
the sip sip of eyelid kissing adoration,
the irrational irrigation of the no-space-between,
when the television remote disappears in the couch crack,
the screen, complete static, perfect complement, to a rigorous experiment of
the loveliest unpredictable
we manually conjoin fluids in her mouth’s petri dish,
stain the slide for observation,
in full Imax color observe the cells busting and doesy-do’ing over to
a new partner, where bonds of fidelity attach a partnership clause to
the loveliest unpredictable
when a child emerges, the first words are
find that remote, just kidding, first comes a comestible demand,
mother’s milk 98 degree heated,
feed me a white solution to any unanswered cell’s questions, what a
loving predictive predicate
scribble this, ****** that, change a diaper,
while debating whose baby’s assemblage resembles,
overjoyed at the experimental outcome,
proofs of the fidelity of transmission,
the outcome notated, but science demands no bias confirmation,
another test required of tissue rebuilding
the loveliest unpredictable
~~~
^postscript
for is He not laureate greatest poet of all,
developer of the scientific architecture,
inventor of varietal sunsets, moonscapes,
individualized singularity of snowflakes,
love making, gravity and the preprogrammed death
of your own cells,
etcetera etcetera etcetera
all just poetry in motion in fluidity,
ah, fidelity fidelity
fidelity
Mar 9, 2019
Mar 9, 2019 at 9:54 AM UTC
It didn't matter. We didn't matter.
"I saw you and felt nothing."
"I saw...you know...and felt something."
That's what you said to me.
You don't want to keep hurting me.
You didn't want to keep lying.
Those statements didn't make a difference when I confronted you, crying.
"Honestly, you're sick."
Disgust and a sour taste filled my mouth.
Your feelings for me are too intense?
That was the same for me.
Notice how that sentence was in past tense.
You couldn't breathe for a second?
You didn't think about your lapse in judgement?
I'm not asking for the world, which you wouldn't be able to give.
I'm asking for the respect,
r the prospect.
Now I'm here, confused.
Tell me what am I supposed to do?
Hold your hand and be a healer
or slap it away because of fear.
Jan 30, 2019
Jan 30, 2019 at 3:40 PM UTC
If only for another night
My love, you're mine 'till the doom's light
Jan 4, 2019
Jan 4, 2019 at 2:35 AM UTC
Now that you are out of my life,
I'm so much better off,
You thought that I'd be weak without you,
But I'm stronger,
You thought that I'd be broke without you,
But I am wealthy.
You thought that I'd be sad without you,
I am laughing,
You thought I wouldn't grow without you,
Now I'm enlightened ,
You thought that I'd be helpless without you,
But I'm a genius,
You thought that I'd be stressed without you,
But I'm relaxing'
You thought I wouldn't have friends with you,
I have many.
I'm an FBI agent (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm an FBI agent(what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what),
I'm an FBI agent(what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm an FBI agent (what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what).
Thought I couldn't breathe without you,
I'm taking deep breaths'
You thought I couldn't see without you,
2020,
You thought I couldn't last without you,
But I am loving'
You thought that I would die without you,
**** the Autopsy room'
Thought that I would fail without you,
But I'm on flourishing
Though it would be over by now,
But it won't stop,
You thought that I would self-destruct,
But I'm non-suicidal,
Even in my years to come,
I'm still going to be here.
I'm an FBI agent (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm an FBI agent (what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what),
I'm an FBI agent(what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm an FBI agent(what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what).
I'm wishin' you the best,
Pray that you are well,
Much success, no stress, and lots of happiness,
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna blast you on Facebook,
(I'm better than that)
I'm not going lie about you or your family,
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna hate you in the blog,
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna compromise my Buddhism and integrity.
(I'm better than that)
You know I'm won’t disrespect you on cyber space
Cause my ama-la taught me better than that.
[Chorus:]
I'm an FBI agent (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm an FBI agent(what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what),
I'm an FBI agent(what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm an FBI agent(what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what).
After all of the darkness and sadness,
Still comes happiness,
If I surround myself with positive things,
I'll gain prosperity.
I'm an FBI agent (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm an FBI agent (what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what),
I'm an an FBI agent(what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what)(Don't stop me now)
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm an FBI agent (what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what).
I'm an FBI agent(what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm an FBI agent(what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what),
I'm an FBI agent (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm a FBI agent(what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what).
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 8:33 AM UTC