#feelingtrapped
Bottled sounds seep; escape.
Our noise mimics semi trucks.
All in fluid motion
Jul 15, 2017
Jul 15, 2017 at 4:02 AM UTC
I feel like Lenny Kravitz's-"i want to get away"- I feel like Michael Jackson's-"leave me alone"-I feel like Prince's-"when doves cry"(but on a deeper level than ("romantic relationships") I feel like Lionel Richie and the Commodores'- "i want to fly away"....
Mar 6
Mar 6, 2026 at 7:56 AM UTC
i think about the so called journey for me this has been; through "dreams" and through every waking moment in "reality" through my lens;
i'd really like to know what really created all of this; one day i was brought into this realm, and i've been subconsciously feeling like a "nomad"(figuratively) in a sense;
though i was "fortunate" to be brought up in a two parent "middle class" somewhat "healthy"(but at times not) household and with 3 siblings; didn't realize there were "programs" in this realm and with levels to all of them(society);
I've been like that "deer in headlights" throughout my life.... i've developed this sort of "inner guardian" that "protected" and understood me to a degree in a way that no one else did....
i guess that's most people more or less in this unusual experience called life with its cycles of insanity to no end.... just woke up from an uncomfortable dream attacking my psyche, once again....
if there's a war i'm being forced to fight in a "spiritual sense"- flight has been my response because i never asked for none of this....
what is this place? why am i here? .... why do i and it even exist? why am i navigating through societal institutions-i now can see through? it nor i with no solutions- and straight into this raw state of an "apocalypse"?
Mar 30
Mar 30, 2026 at 5:54 AM UTC
This feeling won’t leave me,
It presses harder with my footsteps.
What is it, following me ceaselessly,
Keeping me alert wherever I am?
If you ask me, I won’t give an answer.
You told me to write it down—so I started leading a diary.
Anyone would confuse my notes for a psycho’s.
It’s ironic that I’m willing
To dwell in asylum.
Because—
I worry about people who don’t deserve it.
I’m scared I’ll forever be skulking from problems.
And why do I only feel happy and free
When I daydream, walking in circles for years?
Jan 24, 2025
Jan 24, 2025 at 2:13 PM UTC
those lingering thoughts, and questions....just everything that makes the mind wonder.... sometimes i wish i could make it stop like an alarm clock set for another scheduled place to report to somewhere one doesn't want to be....
like common themes in waking moments and in dream- is there something or someone after or monitoring me? does social engineering run deeper than i'm willing to believe?
or is there something i'd only understand once i've "left this reality"- something beyond subconscious residue-beyond what my mind could grasp?
some have proposed the idea that it's a sort of energy harvesting thing- possibly; either way- what ever any of this may truly mean- i haven't asked for nor want any of this....
Apr 29
Apr 29, 2026 at 3:46 PM UTC