jenny_way - Hello Poetry

Sometimes I wish I never ate Food became pleasure It’s how I rest Creeping into the kitchen at 3 am - making a crime Emptying the fridge, pantry staples Then pretending innocent when I’m called out I feel so ashamed that my stomach growls Maybe it’s a habit to want to eat more? The resilience of a kind had I had I’m sure, would not help I swear to have just a bite But if I start there’s no stopping Until I’m full to a state where I can’t move my body I fall asleep with a thought of What I’m gonna eat tomorrow And wait till I come home to eat Sitting in a classroom The pain and guilt after I binge ate If only I could to puke it later…

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Feb 9, 2025

Feb 9, 2025 at 3:03 PM UTC

jenny_way

Sometimes I wish I never ate

Sometimes I wish I never ate Food became pleasure It’s how I rest Creeping into the kitchen at 3 am - making a crime Emptying the fridge, pantry staples Then pretending innocent when I’m called out I feel so ashamed that my stomach growls Maybe it’s a habit to want to eat more? The resilience of a kind had I had I’m sure, would not help I swear to have just a bite But if I start there’s no stopping Until I’m full to a state where I can’t move my body I fall asleep with a thought of What I’m gonna eat tomorrow And wait till I come home to eat Sitting in a classroom The pain and guilt after I binge ate If only I could to puke it later…

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You might be not who I imagined I’m aware, yet can’t help Staring at you stealthily, while you pass through me with your friends Oh god, you don’t even notice me You care less to see How fast I’m falling in love with you Yeah, I know. I’m too naive You’re probably a piece of **** But the thought of you fills me with zeal If I’m as good as they say Then why am I not the one for you? I guess I’m doomed for unrequited love

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Feb 8, 2025

Feb 8, 2025 at 12:10 PM UTC

jenny_way

I guess I’m doomed for unrequited love

You might be not who I imagined I’m aware, yet can’t help Staring at you stealthily, while you pass through me with your friends Oh god, you don’t even notice me You care less to see How fast I’m falling in love with you Yeah, I know. I’m too naive You’re probably a piece of **** But the thought of you fills me with zeal If I’m as good as they say Then why am I not the one for you? I guess I’m doomed for unrequited love

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This feeling won’t leave me, It presses harder with my footsteps. What is it, following me ceaselessly, Keeping me alert wherever I am? If you ask me, I won’t give an answer. You told me to write it down—so I started leading a diary. Anyone would confuse my notes for a psycho’s. It’s ironic that I’m willing To dwell in asylum. Because— I worry about people who don’t deserve it. I’m scared I’ll forever be skulking from problems. And why do I only feel happy and free When I daydream, walking in circles for years?

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Jan 24, 2025

Jan 24, 2025 at 2:13 PM UTC

jenny_way

It’s ironic that I’m willing to dwell in asylum.

This feeling won’t leave me, It presses harder with my footsteps. What is it, following me ceaselessly, Keeping me alert wherever I am? If you ask me, I won’t give an answer. You told me to write it down—so I started leading a diary. Anyone would confuse my notes for a psycho’s. It’s ironic that I’m willing To dwell in asylum. Because— I worry about people who don’t deserve it. I’m scared I’ll forever be skulking from problems. And why do I only feel happy and free When I daydream, walking in circles for years?

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I’m bombarded with everything and nothing at the same time Everybody wants something from me and I’m too fed up to reply I hate that at these hard times I’m turning my back And running away instead of facing it with pride The moment I wanted to step out outside , I realized I have no one to share laugh And I know I have no one to blame but myself But honestly, I get sicker and sicker each day

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Jan 18, 2025

Jan 18, 2025 at 12:54 PM UTC

jenny_way

I’m bombarded with everything and nothing at the same time

I’m bombarded with everything and nothing at the same time Everybody wants something from me and I’m too fed up to reply I hate that at these hard times I’m turning my back And running away instead of facing it with pride The moment I wanted to step out outside , I realized I have no one to share laugh And I know I have no one to blame but myself But honestly, I get sicker and sicker each day

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Now I’m ashamed To open my mouth Cause I fear you may not like what will come out Put the black ink into your glass It turned blunt, sorry I don’t want to Sound like a haggard girl, who went through a lot of stuff I see the old me in you But something made me change or break down Cause I used to have the same mindset you have Until I faced the realm You’re too kind, you’re too wise I think you’re too good to trust I hate to be this way, but I’m like What have I been doing this whole time? Cause I could be all of the things, and I’m none I did not get anywhere near my goal Heart’s getting heavy to speak I wish I could delete the scene But I wonder if I’m ever right To doubt the power of light Cause having sun shining to everyone I’ll find a cloud to cover the bright

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Jan 11, 2025

Jan 11, 2025 at 8:09 AM UTC

jenny_way

I see the old me in you

Now I’m ashamed To open my mouth Cause I fear you may not like what will come out Put the black ink into your glass It turned blunt, sorry I don’t want to Sound like a haggard girl, who went through a lot of stuff I see the old me in you But something made me change or break down Cause I used to have the same mindset you have Until I faced the realm You’re too kind, you’re too wise I think you’re too good to trust I hate to be this way, but I’m like What have I been doing this whole time? Cause I could be all of the things, and I’m none I did not get anywhere near my goal Heart’s getting heavy to speak I wish I could delete the scene But I wonder if I’m ever right To doubt the power of light Cause having sun shining to everyone I’ll find a cloud to cover the bright

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I’m so happy away from you Guess you’re the one making me at fault Of your own patterns, of your own problems But I can’t run away from being lashed out I feel like ************ 24/7 Home doesn’t feel warm , it’s no longer my shelter Stress - stress -stress I’m over depressed Another day , slips away from my hands Think of possibilities if I haven’t been here Would my life be destined to go through s thing I said I’m too broken you said we all are You don’t deserve the pain , but neither do I I gave you so many signs I tried so hard to speak my mind But you say you do it out of love You only find way to break me not to make me strong Give me a second I can’t bear it anymore I need a second To pull myself together Before I start to Overthink To Overworry About everything Oh I need a second to get out of my cage

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Jan 5, 2025

Jan 5, 2025 at 10:48 AM UTC

jenny_way

I’m so happy away from you

I’m so happy away from you Guess you’re the one making me at fault Of your own patterns, of your own problems But I can’t run away from being lashed out I feel like ************ 24/7 Home doesn’t feel warm , it’s no longer my shelter Stress - stress -stress I’m over depressed Another day , slips away from my hands Think of possibilities if I haven’t been here Would my life be destined to go through s thing I said I’m too broken you said we all are You don’t deserve the pain , but neither do I I gave you so many signs I tried so hard to speak my mind But you say you do it out of love You only find way to break me not to make me strong Give me a second I can’t bear it anymore I need a second To pull myself together Before I start to Overthink To Overworry About everything Oh I need a second to get out of my cage

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I’ve never thought I’d be put in that place Was laughing at first, but realized then Even when I cried, I couldn’t believe I wish this all has been a dim dream I believed I was wrong Like the problem is me But now I know That it all has been you You’re the one who blamed others for your mistakes And don’t you dare to do that again Who knows what will be further, we’ll see Splitting up or living the same But stop , is it plus 1 now Or minus , in my family?

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Jan 5, 2025

Jan 5, 2025 at 10:46 AM UTC

jenny_way

I’ve never thought...

I’ve never thought I’d be put in that place Was laughing at first, but realized then Even when I cried, I couldn’t believe I wish this all has been a dim dream I believed I was wrong Like the problem is me But now I know That it all has been you You’re the one who blamed others for your mistakes And don’t you dare to do that again Who knows what will be further, we’ll see Splitting up or living the same But stop , is it plus 1 now Or minus , in my family?

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