#falselove
...that when it's in heat
becomes swollen with
pride; its feathered arms
drooping low in flam-
boyant arrogance;
its featherless legs
sauntering in pretence
gait as if it's a horse;
and its crooning voice
promising the world
and its all to the
unguarded hen.
Because after it has climbed
up and come down,
it just shakes its body
and waltz off in victory;
never looking back - at least
not until again its in heat.
My fair Adunola
beware of that rooster.
Jan 12
Jan 12, 2026 at 12:32 PM UTC
Because of you, I went into depression
Maybe I made a bad impression
But I genuinely cared
While you only pretended!
Because of you, I went into depression
You left me alone
After hurting my feelings to the core
To me, were you really dear
Unfortunately, not the other way round
To you, NOTHING was our bond!!
Because of you, I went into depression
My trust being my bane
You provided me wrong advice
But what was worse
Was the fact
That it was incomplete
You only pointed out my faults
Without offering any solutions!!
Because of you, I went into depression
But am I not human?
I CAN make mistakes
And I did make a lot of improvements
But you never noticed
In fact, you almost disappeared!!
Because of you, I went into depression
But I'm not truly alone
Jesus is on my side
He knows you've taken me for a ride
Anyway, you I'll forgive
But you're incapable of love
And by that, I mean TRUE, UNCONDITIONAL love
I'll come back stronger
Meanwhile, our relationship is OVER
Goodbye and good luck
Enjoy your life in New York
While I don't give a ****
Nov 7, 2025
Nov 7, 2025 at 2:06 AM UTC
I gaze upon a dark night sky.
Whilst laying next to a figure, the silhouette of you.
I smile as you lie to me.
I smile obliviously to the torture you are about to cause to my heart.
Throughout the days, I held your rough hand.
Hoping that I will never be left in an unforgotten area in your mind.
I smile as you lie to me once more.
I smile obliviously and ignore the ache in my chest.
When you left me, I felt hurt.
I felt deserted, which I was.
You cunningly left me for a fool.
A fool with no cruel in their veins.
I became more isolated.
More numb.
More of a void.
The more I saw you,
The more I wanted to love you again.
But again…
I went back to the same night sky.
And went back to muttering pretty lies to myself.
Would you like to know what the lie was?
“I love you.”
Nov 4, 2025
Nov 4, 2025 at 4:28 AM UTC
on display in a glass box my heart beats
showing nothing but pure intentions.
a person approaches looking at my heart
admiring, watching, waiting.
studying, listening, stalking.
what makes it race?
what makes it calm?
you leave.
return
come back please
i see you again this time with a bag
my heart races just seeing you
what could be in the bag?
roses, candy, wine?
perfume, stuffed animal, a ring?
as you unzip the bag the glass box starts sinking into the floor.
my whole heart out in the open for you
beating loudly to show you how much i love you
the box stops.
the heart keeps racing but this time in fear.
hammer and nails.
the box tries to cover the heart as fast as it can
but remember... its made of glass
smash! smash! smash!
my box my wall destroyed
my heart next
thump one nail thump two nails thump thump thump
my heart shattered
barley beating
content with the work
you leave
I'm left alone
iron walls come up
thread trying to put my heart back together
faint but there my heart beats
a person approaches
Mar 24, 2025
Mar 24, 2025 at 5:32 PM UTC
You never loved me;
you loved the idea of me.
The idea of having me as yours,
as someone pretty to say "I love you,"
as someone who was always there
to talk to, to complain to.
Someone to think of.
But now that you have her,
you don't need me.
You never needed me.
You needed someone, anyone,
but I wasn't going to let that someone be me.
You never loved me;
you loved the idea of me.
And now you love her.
(the idea of her)
Jul 19, 2023
Jul 19, 2023 at 2:05 AM UTC
Ever been kissed with no meaning,
Yet had everything seeming,
As if it were all alright?
I got kissed like it was nothing,
And yet to me it felt like something,
And lately that's been haunting my mind.
It's like my kisser had nothing felt,
Yet it felt like he needed no one else,
And that's why lately I'm not fine.
We know the sun is for the day,
And night is where the moon lays,
But the love behind that kiss felt like sunshine at midnight.
I lay here and feel broken,
And I swear that this was spoken,
But I'm repeating that I do not feel right.
I got kissed by someone I thought I loved,
But to love wasn't enough...
Because in the end it felt like I wasn't even liked.
Jul 12, 2020
Jul 12, 2020 at 9:24 AM UTC
Early morning
When little birds' songs are heard
Blinding sunshine pours into one window
With the smell of coffee
I smiled as I tasted the bitterness
Suddenly remembering you for it still lingers in my heart
I wanted you to love me as much as I did
But as WE, US
Was all in my head
I am just someone you need to fill your void
I said "I love you"
You responded "I love you too" with hugs and kisses, yes, neither it was warm nor cold
It doesn't feel right
No matter how much I love you
Your heart doesn't belong to me from the start
Your eyes didn't light up to my presence
Blinded with love I still continue to love you
I was alone in this fairytale of mine
It was then you no longer needed me
You rejected me, you denied me
It was easy for you to let go, easier for you to forget, for I was a nobody to you
I am the only one carrying this love
I am losing my mind that maybe
There can be YOU and I
My heart became numb
Unloving you is the hardest thing to do
If I could unsee the videos in my head
I'll erase all my memories of you
So I can't remember you
I know I can't be with you
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 4:05 AM UTC
Your smile nukes me, obliterates logic, burns my bridges to sanity,
Your eyes, deep depths of the ocean, my covert escape from reality
This feeling it seems so wrong, but feels just about right
Some moments of ecstasy, some days spent feeling contrite
The heart so very forgetful of the past, the pains and the ache
These dreams made of brittlest of glass, bound to crash and break
It takes me further away from the truth, my wild running imagination
Dropping these anchors, my words may need to weather, storms of tribulation.
Mar 16, 2020
Mar 16, 2020 at 2:05 PM UTC
i'm sorry that i'm not enough
i'm sorry you thought this was love
i'm sorry my walls are too tough
i'm sorry i threw down the glove
i'm sorry my edges are rough
i'm sorry when push came to shove
i'm sorry was never enough
Feb 2, 2020
Feb 2, 2020 at 9:37 PM UTC
Contrary to popular belief
You don’t stop loving a man after he hits you
If anything it just leads you to wonder
Why did I deserve this? What did I do wrong? This is my fault, I should’ve seen this coming.
What can I do to fix this? How could I make myself better? How can I prevent this from happening again?
Contrary to popular belief
When he says he won’t do it again, he doesn’t actually mean it.
It’ll only gets worse.
How far can I go? Why does she stay?
I have her wrapped so tight around my finger and my fingers so tight around her throat.
Why does she love me? Will she believe me when I say I love her, that I will change?
Contrary to popular belief
Things will only change for the first couple days.
He will apologize.
Why do you love me? How did I become such a **** up? I had a rough childhood, I don’t want to end up like my father. Couldn’t you see how you provoked me? What would I ever do without you? Could you please forgive me?
Contrary to popular belief
You will forgive him with a lump in your throat, this time is no different than the last.
Things will never be the same
You’ll step more lightly when he’s near, breathe more quietly. You’ll feel the same fear you felt when he first pushed you against the wall every time a door closes too hard. You’ll still lie to everybody about the bruises.
Contrary to popular belief
You can only lie to yourself for so long
You don’t really believe he’ll change, but you’re afraid of change anyways. You’ll settle. I know the real him, he didn’t mean to hurt me. His anger just gets the best of him sometimes, but it’s not his fault. He’s really sweet, I swear. He loves me.
Contrary to popular belief
He doesn’t love you
When he struck you your best interest was the least of his. He knew he did wrong.
He doesn’t understand the severity of what he’s done, nor does he care to. History repeats itself.
Contrary to your beliefs
He never loved you
Feb 28, 2019
Feb 28, 2019 at 3:11 AM UTC
you love me, you love me not
how many times do you command
pulling me in and out
while you strum the strings on my heart
i ask only since i’ve wilted
struggling not to give away my life
Dec 15, 2018
Dec 15, 2018 at 9:25 AM UTC
Something
I want you to be something you can never be;
Something you could never feel, deep inside of me.
I want you to see something; something you could never see.
Something you could never dream,
That’s always been inside of me.
Something someone said,
Stuck in my mind and affected my head.
Something someone should have been,
Fades away with apathy.
Something you will never be,
Is truly into me.
Now all I can do is learn to hate something.
Something or anything; nothing with integrity.
No dislike of apathy, for it has no reaction;
All I hate is all I love, for all it has is what I need.
Passion, reaction, satisfaction;
You used to give me all of these.
But you will never be anything,
When we could have been everything!
We chose to be nothing real.
We could still chose to be something,
If only we could remember how to feel.
(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.
Jun 3, 2018
Jun 3, 2018 at 8:37 AM UTC
Aaj ke pyaar me ab wo purane zazbaat nahi,
Sirf aansoo hi milenge logon se par vishwas nahi,
Rona tou Saab ab aadat ban *** hai,
Kyuki ab en aansuo ki kimat koi khash nahi,
Ab es dil ko kisi ki chahat ka intezar nahi,
Lafzon se ghayal hain hum,Kisi khanzar ki darkaar nahi,
Jise sazaya tha murat ki tarah es sine me humne,
Usne hi kahan,Hume aapse pyaar nahi,
Hum wo kasmein bhul sakte,tute khwab nahi,
Dil tod wo kahte hai,Hume tou kuchh bhi yaad nahi,
Aaj kahte wo humse,maaf kr dijiye hume
Par mere ek bhi prashno ka unke paas jawab nahi,
I hate the love which is done only for selfish reason...
Apr 13, 2018
Apr 13, 2018 at 1:27 PM UTC
The first time I heard you say you'd leave,
The first time I heard you say you don't love me,
The first time you said you were moving on,
The first time you said you loved me; you were wrong.
Nov 15, 2017
Nov 15, 2017 at 8:14 PM UTC
Why Don’t I Hate You?
Why don’t I hate you, after all you have done to me?
I have never known anyone who could destroy me so completely.
I was blinded by the false vows you made of a future;
Only to find out you were nothing but an abuser.
I had no warning,you just suddenly vanished;
Leaving me to question, and,my inner demons to vanquish.
It took all I had not to curl up and die.
Instead I wrote down my feelings, and, gave permission cry.
In a letter addressed to you, I never sent;
I poured out my “Whys” until I was spent.
I acknowledged the future you told me was a lie.
It was time to let go, and, say my final goodbyes.
I struck a match, to burn my memories of you.
I watched the flames grow, and then it was through.
A piece of my heart died the day you left me alone.
I wondered how could someone have a heart made of stone.
I had to create my own ending to us.
I’m forever changed, and, I won't be so quick to trust.
I hope that one day I am able to forgive you.
Because in doing that, I can reclaim what I most value.
Myself.
Randy McPeek
Aug 16, 2016
Aug 16, 2016 at 1:18 AM UTC
I'm built of water splashing over edges
As I fall and break upon rocks
With mud in my bones and creaky joints
and sand makes my eyes lashes
I'm built of dust, blowing away
Carried by the wind wherever it goes
I don't care anymore for it doesn't matter
I'm just built of words with no meaning
And of empty light burning in darkness
And hollow waves crashing against storms
I fall beneath and beneath
And hit the darkness rusting underneath
Where no one shows when I scream
Where no light dares to touch my eyes
And my bones all shatter,
until they're just powdered calcium
And blood freeze in my bones,
forming stalactites, piercing through my veins
And my skin cracks and breaths escape
And the shadows sink inside my shell
And fissures seep through my irises
And oceans dissolve my dust eyelashes
And memories burn my eyes
and flow past the brims
It's only raw, absolute, sheer pain
As I tear slowly without screaming
Only tears, howls and lost love
And your betrayal and false friends
I've lived for so long but haven't found peace
Now I'm just begging your memories to leave me be
For there's nothing now I could lose
Nothing left of me or my dreams anymore
Nothing of wounded hope
And my canvas of love
I've seen the streets for a thousand years
always wandering never finding my own home
I'm afraid if I let my eyes closet they'll dream again
For I'm torn, vein by vein and cell by cell
I'm nothing but a shadow of who I was
Nothing but reflection of my past
Just an echo of a scream I used to be
Just an illusion of the life I've lived
Nothing more is left, love
For I've given you all of me
How can you tear me, love?
I'm already lying in red ribbons
I'm strips of flesh and blood
And of Silver pain and Black hope
Love, I'm smiling the last time
Please tell me to stay
And hold me for eternity
Because just forever isn't enough for me.
Dec 11, 2015
Dec 11, 2015 at 6:20 PM UTC