#exfriend
If you were really my best friend,
you'd know that all I needed was
for you to be there for me.
I didn't need to know the truth.
I already knew I had ******* up.
I just needed you to assure me
that everything would be okay.
But instead, you were there for him,
acting like what I went through wasn't hard,
telling me how much I messed up,
assuring me that everything that happened was
my fault.
True friends don't do that.
Ex-friends do.
Jul 7, 2023
Jul 7, 2023 at 2:24 AM UTC
When it comes to forgiveness, you won't forgive, you won't budge.
You truly hate my guts and you sure do know how to hold a grudge.
I did you wrong but you did me wrong too.
But forgiving me is something you won't do.
I'll admit that I made mistakes but when it comes to admitting yours, you won't.
I wanted to make up with you but after seeing how much you hate me, I don't.
If there's ever a grudge holding contest, I know that you'll win first place.
You hate me and because of that, I hope we never meet again face to face.
I wish that you didn't hate me but sadly, it's true.
You want nothing to do with me and because you hate me, I want nothing else to do with you.
Mar 20, 2021
Mar 20, 2021 at 12:06 PM UTC
we stand together
it'd always be us
together
i promise i wont be like him
if you do too
you planted your flag on place we built together
and i couldn't see til it was burning
it'd always be us
together
right?
the flames lick at my feet
smoke pours in
i cant see you anymore
i stand alone
Dec 11, 2020
Dec 11, 2020 at 5:15 PM UTC
Eyes beaming to boisterous belly laughs of old friends-
pursuing painted sunsets and cold winds.
Made me feel like a man, from your alcohol and wine.
She said, “where were you when I wasn’t fine?”
Deluded her with my plausible lies, truth be told-
You were forgotten, but I’m not your foe.
Is he a better charmer whose eyes light up your den?
Lost a good friend, cause’ I left for some men.
Oh, how foolish I was, I cried more than I could chew.
Truth is I am not a man without you.
Sep 5, 2020
Sep 5, 2020 at 9:54 PM UTC
I lost a friend
I didnt expect it to end
A friendship like godsend
Out of the blue
Got a message felt like getting the flue
Got me all dizzy
Couldnt believe what i saw so i acted busy
What can i say what can i do
I thought when we said forever together it was true
Did i do something wrong ?
All i could do is to dive headlong
I demanded a reason
I havent done no treason
All i heard was empty excuses
I couldnt let it go easily
I cant be one who loses
But i was losing the argument breezily
I can't force my presence on someone
If it all it does is hurt them
So i had to let go
But i felt so dumb
Jun 12, 2020
Jun 12, 2020 at 9:16 PM UTC
I'm cast into blue icy depths,
Those eyes of yours and mine had met,
A hardened hate is what I felt
But I don't know of damage dealt
With you I had not a squabble
When we first met your affections toppled!
If I may,
then I will guess
He fed you lies
Must be the reason for those freezing eyes
I’d love to tell you how
I thought
It went to hell
But you two wander off.
I'm pulled out of the frozen waves,
Into suburbs
Where we all live
Your kids come over every other
Day to play with mine
A jostle and I'm back again
Watching your backs walk fast again,
I wish we had a different fate,
But I see now, your hearts are hard,
My character must have been flawed
It is of no effect to me,
Cause if ever a time were to arise,
Or God decides there will be rain,
For you two,
I hope to be near
So that I may hear all your tears,
Stop
As aid comes around
But you will not know from whom,
And I'll leave without a sound.
Mar 9, 2016
Mar 9, 2016 at 11:45 AM UTC
You remind me of a ****** eraser.
I don't mean hard on the outside
and soft on the inside.
No.
I mean frustrating to deal with,
not worth the effort,
and you leave a dark mark
in your wake.
You remind me of a bad cup of coffee.
No, no, not bitter, that's all me.
But you? You're
stale,
like I should have
poured you down the drain
instead of consuming you,
hoping you'll improve my day.
You remind me of a Beach Boys song.
Not because I want to take you
anywhere near the Florida Keys--
ugh--
Because for the love of
******* God,
no matter what I do,
I can't seem to get you out of my head.
Nov 24, 2019
Nov 24, 2019 at 7:44 PM UTC
My blood still flutters
at the thought of you being
all I thought you were.
My face gains a freckle
every time
I remember that you and I watch
the same sunset every night.
Is it ever gonna be enough?
Treading water is getting old.
Can’t live with you,
can’t live without you.
Apr 22, 2019
Apr 22, 2019 at 1:55 PM UTC
I finally feel I can be happy again
Now that I’ve shed my metaphorical
Skin
I no longer feel the crawling sensations of the insecurities you
Conjured up for me
I can no longer feel the burn in my chest
After you’ve passed on my secrets
To uninvited ears
Because you will never get another one from me nor will you ever know another part of me
I am done living in your shadow because you thought me incapable of true friendship
Without you I will grow into the most beautiful and best me
like a **** that held me back
you will no longer break me and pick me apart and keep me from growing
Feb 15, 2019
Feb 15, 2019 at 7:10 PM UTC
Leave me alone
Move on!
You always knew you needed me more than I needed you.
Nov 23, 2018
Nov 23, 2018 at 12:01 AM UTC
You don't understand what you've done
You think this is funny
till it really happens hunny
You are calling me all these names
thinking its a joke, till you choke
Killing yourself isn't something to be proud of
so don't be joking about it to someone who is unavowed
It's to the point where I'm barely holding together
wanting to pull the trigger since all I'm in is cold weather
Your 14, skinny, perfect, and smart,
as you're over here calling me words,
that shouldn't be heard.
She thinks its all fun and games
till I actually aim,
lives are changing so you won't be able to claim
... claim my life you're trying to tame.
Aug 12, 2018
Aug 12, 2018 at 2:02 PM UTC
We're high enough without the drugs
So teach me how to forget you
'Cause I don't know how to forget you
Please just help me to forget you
All I want is to forget you
I swear.
Those five words buried deep within ourselves.
We paraphrase our hearts.
We summarize our feelings.
I'd never let you go because
I never loved you.
And that's the way it has to be.
The way it is.
From the last time to the first.
Mar 27, 2018
Mar 27, 2018 at 8:21 PM UTC
We blew up over
Bomb Pops.
The red, white, and blue kind.
Our tears pooled while in
Swimming pools.
The chlorine kind.
Mar 24, 2018
Mar 24, 2018 at 6:47 PM UTC
she was everything
you weren't,
she cared
when you didn't
i trust her
with things i'd never tell you,
she holds me
so tightly, unlike you,
she understands when i can't speak,
and she doesn't push me.
she is amazing,
but that's why i'm so scared.
because those were the same things
i once said about you.
Jan 29, 2018
Jan 29, 2018 at 4:17 PM UTC
she’s the type
of girl to
grind your
heart into little
pieces and roll it
then smoke it
right in front of you
Oct 2, 2017
Oct 2, 2017 at 1:39 AM UTC
you picked love
over friendship
your lose,
babygirl
- ex friend
Sep 19, 2017
Sep 19, 2017 at 3:30 PM UTC
Do you think of me in the middle of your day?
Does listening to a certain song trigger your painful memories of me?
Do you see a certain image, a certain brand, a certain place and I appear inside your cluttered head?
Do you think of me when you're alone in your room?
Staring at the darkness of your ceiling, reminiscing my crooked smile and abrupt laugh?
Does it cause a rippling effect inside your chest
Remembering all the perfect memories we're created together?
Do you regret what you've done to me?
Knowing we're strangers and that's on your end of the blame,
all fingers pointed towards you.
Do you regret what you've done?
Knowing I will always deeply resent you until my last breath,
Knowing I will never call out your name like I use to before,
Knowing I will never smile and bright up the moment I see you walk in the door,
And knowing we'll never, ever share that type of love we once had before?
Do you regret what you've done?
Do you regret losing me?
Aug 13, 2017
Aug 13, 2017 at 2:58 AM UTC
To the ******* who once was my bestfriend but has now forgotten about me
Your tan skin and sweet smile was once my daily sunshine
A reason for me to wake up in the morning and be energetic in school
Your laugh pokes at my heart like a ring-less three point shot in a basketball game
I watched my heart become the ball
You shot through rings of fire
That kept burning and burning
But I played your game
Like you played me
Because you were once my best friend
But now you’ve forgotten me
You were once my daily sunshine
And now my daily hell.
I used to open Facebook and see a message notification
Your name in bold letters with a simple "Yo"
And a smile emoji
And sometimes you'll tell me
"Notice meeeee"
With five Es in the me
Now I open Facebook and see no message notification
Your name in light letters with a seenzoned "Yo"
And a smile emoji
I'll archive our thread
And I'll try to forget about you
But when you go online
I always tend to notice you
I see your name on the active list
And see your posts as you tag them
And not me.
You used to send me random lyrics
And made me listen to random music
You used to tell me
"You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there"
But when I needed you
I did count on you like four, three, two
But you did not come
You were not there
I did not even see your shadow when I asked for help
I never saw you by the audience during my performances
I've stopped watching your basketball games
Because I am done watching you
Shoot my heart through rings of fire
Watching it break on the same court where you taught me to play
I've stopped messaging you on Facebook
Because I am clearly just another message you have already read
And I was just another friend
You have already forgotten.
19:09 - 19:28
7 April 2017
Apr 16, 2017
Apr 16, 2017 at 5:51 PM UTC
Methanol
I was a bandage
which you ripped off
as soon as your wounds
were healed,
because I was loyal
and what a mistake that was
because I can't be anything else,
except what lies on
the opposite end of the spectrum;
completely detached and indifferent.
Maddening methanol,
blinding me with your impurity,
but now I see
what a fraud you were.
"Losing" you didn't injure me,
your absence didn't sink
its teeth into me;
you were sour as
sudden abandonment,
I was more than glad
to be rid of you.
Jan 2, 2017
Jan 2, 2017 at 8:08 AM UTC
It's not so much a longing as it is pure curiosity,
but there's no need to reopen closed wounds.
Sugar soothes my scars, but you're salt,
and we were meant to fall apart eventually.
So, I will call some neutrality
(this is my doing so),
because we all **** up, and I've no ill will left to poison anyone with,
and I will be here if you ever need me.
Nov 8, 2014
Nov 8, 2014 at 6:54 PM UTC
Sometimes I check on you-
to make sure you're still here.
And I'm certain you don't know I do,
but I do.
I haven't even seen you in more than a year
and, truthfully, I don't really want to now.
But that doesn't mean I want you dead.
Oct 5, 2014
Oct 5, 2014 at 10:41 AM UTC