#executivedysfunction
Orange flowers blanket my knees
My coffee is betrayal -
not sweet enough. Bland
Daylight again,
but I am a vampire
Decomposed lettuce juice in the fridge
Other people exist - I decline
Where is the cacao bean delight?
The ocean can wait
I have my shell. It has pockets
Jul 16, 2025
Jul 16, 2025 at 3:50 PM UTC
I lay here rotting
Between sheets and shame
Unable to move
Unable to cry
Only the sinking of my teeth into fabric
To muffle my screams
For it is too late to be in need
I lay here
I lie here
And honestly
I'll die here
Yet even doing that
Would still make me a chore
So I stay within the blanketing darkness
Telling myself it will be fine
When we know all I am doing
Is waiting out the clock
Sep 26, 2025
Sep 26, 2025 at 2:20 PM UTC
My brain tells me
That I am lazy
To which I respond
I am trying my best
Your best isn't good enough
It says back
It's your best too
Is all I can come up with
We have to do this
I tell my brain, frantic
I'm too overwhelmed
It replies
It will only get worse
I plead
My brain doesn't respond
I lay in my bed
My brain shows me
Painful images
I don't want to see those
I cry, begging them to go away
We have to do this
It says matter of factly
I do not respond with words
Only sobs
Nov 9, 2020
Nov 9, 2020 at 5:38 PM UTC
Why won’t you move?
Do something productive?
Don’t be lazy, get up for once,
Don’t you plan?
Don’t make excuses
Don’t be picky,
It doesn’t need consistency
It doesn’t need rewards
You don’t have to understand,
You don’t need it to be perfect
Watch your time, organize,
You aren’t overwhelmed
You don’t need interest,
How will you live?
If you can’t do basic things,
You won’t have help
Don’t be a failure,
Don’t put things back,
You’re being lazy, immature,
**** it up, ignore it,
You're being dramatic,
Just shut up, such a disgrace,
All those excuses
No wonder you can’t do it
Wasting your energy,
Refusing to pull through.
Oct 31, 2025
Oct 31, 2025 at 10:37 AM UTC