#exbf
I had everything I wanted once
I woke up early
There was no acne on my chest
I no longer wished for rain
I found comfort in the sound of your warm deep voice
The sun spilled in and I didn't shut it out
My thoughts were for once silent
I was at peace
For some foolish reason
I thought it would never go away
But I'm glad I got to have
Everything I wanted
Even if it was just for a little while
Apr 3
Apr 3, 2026 at 6:20 PM UTC
"no"
the one word you could never understand
the one plea you ignored
"no not right now"
"no I don't want to"
but you didn't care
you just wanted to get any sort of fine
even if its not real consent
even if that meant manipulation and coercion
even if it meant making me terrified of men for the years to come
you didn't care
you wanted what you wanted
you couldn't take no as an answer
Jul 7, 2025
Jul 7, 2025 at 10:50 PM UTC
*I wiped away every memory you left me with,
as I printed the messages like you wrote me letters,
sealed them in in envelopes,
but boxes marked incinerate,
I waded through knee deep snow,
carrying a box full of memories while wearing some I couldn't let go,
I removed your sweater off my back and created a fire from the tear stained sleeves,
I burned the rest with the box, and cried over the memories that couldn't go away,
I lay down into the snow, holding onto your memories that went too deep,
crying because I can't remember some of the things you did with my body,
crying because I honestly wouldn't wanna know.
like as if crying would honestly allow me to let go,
you used to tell me things like how I didn't have to worry about my makeup,
or how I didn't have to worry about everyone,
and how you told me you loved me despite my flaws,
like the ones covered over my whole body,
and yet you tricked me,
so I'd let you in,
I was weak and you hurt me,
you don't deserve me,
but who would deserve me,
other than you,
you ruined me,
and I'm the fool.*
Dec 21, 2015
Dec 21, 2015 at 8:13 AM UTC