#episodes
Sometimes I feel magnificent.
I feel like I’m unstoppable,
a force to be reckoned with.
My actions aren’t well thought through,
with suicide attempts on impulse.
I’m running off of a few hours of sleep,
and I feel like nothing can knock me down.
I love myself,
and I love the world.
But then comes the lows.
I can’t get out of my bed,
and my pillowcases are stained with blood, mascara, and tears.
I claim I’ve never felt this awful,
which I’ve said the last five times this happened.
I sleep for too long,
and I feel inferior.
I hate myself,
and I hate the world.
Now I write my notes,
apologies for hurting everyone.
And then the good comes again,
but I only wait
for this ******* cycle to repeat again.
Aug 19, 2025
Aug 19, 2025 at 2:49 PM UTC
Well look who's
decided to
SHOW THEIR FACE!!!,
It is such a SUPRISE,
yet still a DISGRACE,
you are the
TALK OF THE TOWN, and
you VANISHED
without a TRANCE,
your BUSINESS is OUT THERE,
and ALL OVER THE PLACE,
so, come out of HIDING and
of the WORLD, JUST FACE,
the RUMORS are SPREADING,
like WILDFIRE, you SEE,
the GAWKS and the STARES,
I AM SO GLAD IT'S NOT ME,
the things that they are saying,
you just would not believe,
from the SQUEALER, and
the BLABBERMOUTH,
you have been DECEIVED,
BEWARE of the TATTLERS!!!,
JUST WATCH WHAT YOU SAY,
Your BUSINESS WILL BE OUT THERE,
VERY SOON AND TODAY!!,
IF ONLY YOU SAY
THE RIGHT THINGS,
TO THE ONES
WITH ITCHING EARS,
then you won't be hit with,
EMBARRASSMENT and FEAR,
If you want to SHUTDOWN
the NOSEY and UNKNOWN,
Tell them to
MIND THEIR BUSINESS,
and find BUSINESS of their OWN!!!
Why you all up in my KOOL-AID??? and
DON'T KNOW THE FLAVOR!!
Get up out of my BUSINESS, is
A JUICY GOSSIPERS MEAL SAVOR!!!
B.R.
Date: 4/5/2025
Apr 5, 2025
Apr 5, 2025 at 8:27 PM UTC
chain-knees
sullied
debut of
tie
&
episodes. A
secret
trill,
like an
eagle's evil cry, lacerates the die-hard spirit of death and hardship.
~MIKELSON
Jan 2, 2025
Jan 2, 2025 at 5:29 PM UTC
Who knows
How many more of those
Devastating blows
From life's twisted episodes
I can take
Before I get exposed
And everybody knows
This smile's a fake,
Adorned like over warn costumes on Broadway shows
©2024
Jun 29, 2024
Jun 29, 2024 at 1:43 PM UTC
Fleeting episodes
Comet's marigold brilliance
The night of firefly
Teal ocean waves' graceful sways
Lantern lights' dazzling glimmers
The first encounter
Evening rooftop hugs and talks
The late-night dances
Fleeting but never dying
Film tapes caged within my heart
Apr 3, 2020
Apr 3, 2020 at 11:54 AM UTC
**** baby,
I’m Having another episode,
Will you watch it with me?
My track won’t stop skipping;
Siren won’t stop screaming,
As the song drones on and on and on
And on in screeches of violent pitches
I am reminded that the witches’ words ring true
As I dance with the devil;
I guess it does take two to tango.
Jul 13, 2019
Jul 13, 2019 at 8:47 AM UTC
1:00 am, 3:00 am ... most nights,
thirty minutes without warning,
restless air, chokes the pipes
when controlled, it explodes in bits
of yellow, orange , dark red and gray
skull seems to crack ... or , is it breaking now?
a darkness follows a wheezing,
desiring to spew all malaise
expelling bad air, while chasing fresh air
praying a stillness soon rules .... . but , no,
the painful exertion persists
that disturbing noise just goes on,
and racks one's whole being ... one's world
every rib quivers ... every fiber throbs
eyes and veins start to bulge
as if to burst on their own...
,, ,, , for a while, a calm occurs ... yet ,
another dreaded episode lurks...
on a dark, restless night such as this,
one can only imagine
~ ~ ~ the undulating waves ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ and the blue waters ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ of the tranquil sea ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~
Sally
~ ~ ~
Rosalia Rosario A. Bayan
March 20, 2019
#dreaded episodes #malaise #severe cough
Mar 20, 2019
Mar 20, 2019 at 1:39 AM UTC
i'm basically either homicidally happy,
or suicidally sad
but sometimes, i'm a bit of both
Jan 28, 2019
Jan 28, 2019 at 1:16 PM UTC
smoking a cigarette
I stepped a bit too confidently
in front of a speeding car
Jul 30, 2018
Jul 30, 2018 at 3:29 PM UTC
wishing for a break
from the hectic mania
that my mind projects
and the absolute havoc
the outside world reaps
Jul 30, 2018
Jul 30, 2018 at 5:35 AM UTC
.RED.
Passion, obsession shooting through me, consuming me when I didn't see it coming,
Please be patient while I can't shut up for the next week about the music I listened to or the book that I read.
.WHITE.
You see my eyes go blank as I'm chirping to you and then it's
Quiet, too quiet in this small, dark room.
Cold novacaine floods my veins in a single heartbeat,
Novacaine fills my brain in a single heartbeat so I am
Teetering, tottering on the edge of die or live
Because if I can't feel, can't love, can't give
Then what's the point of it?
.BLUE.
It usually comes after and it always hits me faster than my mind,
Don't have the time to straighten out my thoughts and make things right before I'm
DROWNing
SUFFOcate
NO TIME to DELIBERATE
If this is really worth this feeling, I hit the ceiling, I'm reeling
SHUT IT DOWN
.BLACK.
Now it's darker than the night
No red left in me tonight, I've given up the fight
I'm so tired I can't see
I know we'll play this track again tomorrow but now all I have energy for is sleep.
May 24, 2016
May 24, 2016 at 6:47 PM UTC
" From The Picture Taker "
Shadeless
Shameless
My hat is off
With my smiley
Ready to take off
and launch for anybody!
Earphones on my near shoulder
Acting like a sthetoscope
Just to hear my beating heart;
Not only twice but thrice
Nakedly seen on my left chest part!
Chapter recorded by a clapper...
Says--- our story start from now.
Days seemed to be an hour of vow
So share the wisdom feeling you and me
Originally from the picture taker
Even if the captured photo was taken as a selfie!
And we can made within ourselves an artistic soldier.
Mar 18, 2016
Mar 18, 2016 at 10:59 AM UTC
What would you like for Christmas?
A smile
Well why would you want that?
Because it would make my day better
If I knew I made someone
Somewhere
Smile
Dec 6, 2014
Dec 6, 2014 at 9:49 PM UTC
Don't tell me
your sad too.
It hurts
Too much
I want you to be happy
I need you to be
If your sad too
I don't know how to go on
And I want you to continue
in life
While I stay
Here
In the
darkness.
Nov 17, 2014
Nov 17, 2014 at 10:30 PM UTC
The walls are closing in
and the oceans just may be parting
only to surround the very small space
to engulf all of my being
The raging tides begin
and the perfect storm is just starting
in an attempt to drown in this wretched place
I have made my way across without seeing
The lightening strikes again
and the path to my lungs is hardening
my hands are worthless as they tremor and shake
I'm dying and you don't even believe me
Jul 2, 2014
Jul 2, 2014 at 11:21 PM UTC
A moment holds Time eternity
A life is moment stretched
Trying to define and set boundaries
We are just travelling through eternity
So many episodes and memories
As our consciousness allows us to hold
Events, stirring the still waters inside
Our body just an encasing for the soul
Soul is indestructible, for it is eternal
Not bounded by the chains of expectations
Rises above all, to meet the cosmos settlers
Mutual handshake with the eternal Truth
We are on a journey, travelers within Earth
Our destination, is eternity, beyond time and space
It’s one big dome, where we all are audience
Once we have traveled through Life
Waiting for the extravaganza to begin
Where we do not judge and compare
As we are all the parts of the same Choate
Jun 10, 2014
Jun 10, 2014 at 10:10 AM UTC