#distressed
Educational hangover
You rewrote my internal story
Switched around the dialogue
Kept my life anything but boring
Educational hangover
You got me drunk on knowledge
Faded on grades
Homework stacked
Books for days
Jul 8, 2021
Jul 8, 2021 at 3:23 AM UTC
You can do little to none
For a poet in distress.
Left to their own devices,
They’ll write their way out
Using beautiful words.
If you truly desire to help,
You can keep their inkwell full.
Feb 13, 2020
Feb 13, 2020 at 6:56 PM UTC
i wake up
distressed,
unable to
shake the
fear away
that lingers
in my head,
but i don’t
face the
nightmare,
I just lay
in bed.
Aug 5, 2019
Aug 5, 2019 at 8:48 AM UTC
I used to have an obsession with candles.
Their soft yellow glow shimmering in the air,
Their heat melting the surrounding wax,
Their wicks, a lengthy fuse waiting to be terminated;
Their glow shining upon the surrounding area.
They comforted me, like a distressed mother
Holding tight to her kin during a hostile tempest.
They flicker so,
In the still air moving to and fro.
Jul 31, 2019
Jul 31, 2019 at 2:42 PM UTC
Ill stand and brave the weather
If it means we can be together.
The wetter the better
I will never discover
Another lover
Hide under the covers
To discover the wonder.
All these things I did
You just seemed to miss
Everything that was bliss
Is now so amiss
All the time spent growing
Has begun slowing
You mustve felt like you were towing me
But that was because of my broken knee
That you caused
Yet you wouldn't pause
To get the gauze
You just left me
Its so distressing
Nov 27, 2018
Nov 27, 2018 at 11:21 PM UTC
Resentment,
It really is unfair that I entrench you in despise
But looking in your eyes it's just not cutting through all the lies
The lies I tell myself so I can get by feeling alone
Disconnected
All the ******* time
I'm only reflecting how you make me feel
Difference is mines with itnention while your is innocent still.
The only way I see this isn't through my eyes
But crying everytime I see
Something which you can't make mine
Mine is home
Mine is love
Mine is the effort you got to despite all above.
But the word forget has froze you still
Stuck in care and sweetness
But passion and lust need to be separated my love.
Sep 9, 2018
Sep 9, 2018 at 11:19 AM UTC
Every time I get to see your bright smile
It makes my heart glow with hundreds of happy lights
I wish I was able to spend more time in your presence
Sometimes miss your laugh on quiet nights
And even when we have not talked in weeks
I do not feel distressed, down, or blue
The warming touch of memory
Brings back all the things I love about you
Jun 30, 2018
Jun 30, 2018 at 12:18 PM UTC
10mgs,
20mgs.
One,two,three.. day after day.
All just to keep this artificial smile on display.
Days drag out and the little stars that twinkled in our eyes now replaced by black holes.
Our soulless bodies sinking like broken bottles in the ocean.
The happy memories that haunted our minds nearly gone, the goosebumps we got when we remembered our first kiss are no more. Bodies numb.
This feeling,this curse; inevitable.
Every child born after condemned to a lifetime of synthetic happiness.
In capsules of sea foam green,and custard yellow. To be taken like our favorite candy.
The amount being consumed will become ungodly leaving hollowed shells and the walls to talk to.
Only the last glimmer of light in your pretty little head can save you.
Every memory.
Every emotion colliding like a kaleidescope of color.
The thoughts of him,thoughts of her.
The voices...
Another simulation complete.
Jun 25, 2018
Jun 25, 2018 at 1:12 AM UTC
i feel anxious
not sometimes,
not constantly.
well i'm not too sure.
maybe..
i feel like i'm constantly being dragged in every direction,
the stars are plucking at my hair like strings.
and my mind- it seems to wander,
goes anywhere else but where i need it to be.
i will never understand why my feet forget how to walk sometimes,
no they're not judging the way you walk-
well, now, maybe.
i'm not breathing that loudly- stop it you know how to breathe,
now you can't catch your breath.
i will never understand why my eyes flicker to find people who i assume are looking or thinking about me.
no one cares.
so why do i?
-j.p.
Feb 13, 2018
Feb 13, 2018 at 9:02 PM UTC
Why is it you choose to only yell at me
How come when Something goes wrong Im the only one your blind eyes can see
I mean ya it was me but only to a certain degree
You talk to them
but to me u act beastly
You say I can talk freely
But then stop me in my tracks saying u disagree
You throw my will around like a frisbee
And when I react you say "woah calm down love take a knee"
You love to preach how I can be "anything I wanna be"
Yet when I tell you
you act as if your the referee
Calling me back to reality
You cook me on the stove like I'm a panini
And yes that maybe have been a hyperbole
But It's like I'm trying to live my life without a short coming
And your killing me slowly
ur like a ***
In fact it feels like I'm throwing a party
But you don't like it so ur knocking on my door like ur the l.a.p.d
I'm Tryna rid u of my life a.s.ap
But I mean hey ur my parents and I'm and only fifteen
Mar 27, 2016
Mar 27, 2016 at 12:40 PM UTC
Broke, hungry, and a dry tongue.
Who knew life would attack you this young?
Ripped sweater and freezing cold.
You can't grab a blanket cause it had to be sold.
For water and food.
Tired and sad is your only mood.
Why can't the world be a bit more kinder?
She could be in a cardboard box and no one would mind her.
Holding a little hand with nothing to say.
Because of the cruel world, they may take that little hand away.
Our world is ****** and the system is broken.
But who cares as long as the rich get a gold token.
Who cares, it's only a few.
who cares as long as it's not you .
Feb 10, 2016
Feb 10, 2016 at 5:51 AM UTC
I don't want to kick the hornets nest
But I am felling quit depressed
And begaining to get awful distressed
There is things I need to express
Because my chest is really compressed
I know it's from all the stress
It will be hard for you to digest
But I have to get this off my chest
This problem must be addressed
I think it is for the best
That all of it is confessed
I know after I tell you, me you'll detest
But maybe that's for the best
Oooh never mind
I'll just keep these hornets in their hive
And stay in the shadows and hide
Jan 30, 2016
Jan 30, 2016 at 5:33 PM UTC
*Getting to you is like jumping milestones
It's lethal to leap
But hurts to be alone.*
Nov 9, 2015
Nov 9, 2015 at 1:07 AM UTC
It's saddening, right?
I'm afraid to be alone.
I don't know how to be.
But when I am surrounded.
I tend to grab my bags and flee.
I'm so tired.. of this war,
Inside of my distressed mind.
Don't tell me to love,
Then have me run.
I want a forever.
Despite the pain that I caused.
It makes me feel selfish.
I was wrong.
Jun 18, 2015
Jun 18, 2015 at 11:08 PM UTC
one minute you are normal
the next minute who are you?
i feel trapped
blood mixed with water
tear by tear
it is known now
who shall be the one
for it can’t be me
it has always been you
you tighten your hold
have you forgotten?
the memories
the smiles
the laughter
it is unknown to us now
who are we?
we will not be the same
strangers or friends
enemies or allies
i will stand up
but i can’t
weak and pathetic
i have to leave
but i can’t
lonely and lost
i should go
but i can’t
i want to leave
but i can’t
Jun 5, 2015
Jun 5, 2015 at 4:19 PM UTC
I’m so madly in love with you
I just want you to love me too
You say you do
Just please,
Render it true.
I can’t survive without you
When we fight I turn so blue
You don’t understand
No, you never do
Just the word
“Bye”
Makes me cry for hours over you
I know these are just words
Simply written in text
If you could just see the hurt and the tears
Running down my neck
The make-up smeared
In lines down my face
You’ll never hear my cries
You’re hundreds of miles away
You’re my knight in shining armor
Though you don’t believe this case
I care way too much
I cling to you
So there’s no space
No space between us
So we’re face-to-face
If only this were true
It’s just a matter of days
Until I take my life
With this pile of blades
I’m coming home my darling
Just please understand
I love you way too much
I can’t withstand
These days without you
Holding my hand
I’m coming home my love
This I have planned
I’m coming to see you
Just promise,
you’ll hold my hand.
I hate all this fighting
Because we’re apart
I’m coming home,
I’m coming home.
Together,
we can mend our hearts.
I’m sorry
For the days we fight
Just the thought of you leaving
Makes me cry in the night
My passion for you
Could never be for another
I will love you
Like no other
So even though
We have our ups and downs
We’ll work things out
And get around
The pain in our hearts
Don’t make a sound
Just think of me in the night,
then lie on the ground.
Look at the moon
And stare at the stars
Think of me
and know
That I’m not too far
I’ll love you forever
Just don’t forget me
Because even now
I’m still in need
Of your care and your touch
I forget
And I can’t see
If there’s any good left in me
Just don’t let go
If you still care
Cause my skin is thin
And I’m so scared
I don’t want to lose you
But I hate the air
I don’t deserve to live
And I can’t be there
I can’t be there and stay by your side
Even though I fantasize
About one day
Being your bride.
And even though you don’t want me
I just wish that you could see
What you really do to me
I try so hard to be happy
Because you said that you were
Proud of me
Proud of me for staying clean
When all I see is filth in me
And even as I hold these blades,
I think of you
and I feel ashamed.
You keep me strong
While I’m going insane
I really wish you felt this way
And I pour my heart out
day after day,
Hoping soon you’ll see the pain
Believing the tears rolling down my face
Knowing I love you
And that my heart breaks
Every moment that you’re away
I write these words
No matter what you say
I’ll love you the same
Either way
Even if
And when
You push me away
I’ll say,
“Okay.”
Cause I love you
And if that’s what will make you happy
Then okay.
I’ll still keep loving you
day after day.
And I just hope
you’ll feel the same
Just love the girl
That drove you away.
She didn't mean it.
She’s insane.
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 2:36 AM UTC
I don't want to lose my family,but am doing everything to lose them.
Jul 29, 2014
Jul 29, 2014 at 4:37 AM UTC