why can't I be perfect?
why must I be flawed?
all I wish is to be exactly like you
people tell me to be myself
but to be myself is not enough
I am weak
I am nothing
I am hopeless
I cannot be myself
to be myself will end in tragedy
sadness
grief
I look up to you
I aspire to be you
but then my mind gets twisted
I become
jealous
envious
bitter
hateful
why must you be so perfect?
why must you be the "better" one?
why must you be so flawless?
why can't it be me?
what is so wrong with me?
i hate it so much
Sep 26, 2015
Sep 26, 2015 at 9:16 PM UTC
it is not enough
you may give me everything
shoes
clothes
electronics
a n y t h i n g
i won't be content
i won't be happy
i won't be satisfied
i won't be fulfilled
i won't!
all i want is your love
which i have not received
but
will that be enough?
Jun 10, 2015
Jun 10, 2015 at 4:38 PM UTC
done with high school now
fulfilled and content at last
out in the world soon
Jun 7, 2015
Jun 7, 2015 at 10:28 AM UTC
one minute you are normal
the next minute who are you?
i feel trapped
blood mixed with water
tear by tear
it is known now
who shall be the one
for it can’t be me
it has always been you
you tighten your hold
have you forgotten?
the memories
the smiles
the laughter
it is unknown to us now
who are we?
we will not be the same
strangers or friends
enemies or allies
i will stand up
but i can’t
weak and pathetic
i have to leave
but i can’t
lonely and lost
i should go
but i can’t
i want to leave
but i can’t
Jun 5, 2015
Jun 5, 2015 at 4:19 PM UTC
i am consumed with feelings
anger takes over
things are flying
uncontrollable
stormy
violent
how does one control this?
are feelings meant to be controlled?
breathe in
breathe out
breathe in
breathe out
c o n t r o l
i cannot
i feel weak
i can’t breathe
help
Jun 4, 2015
Jun 4, 2015 at 5:49 PM UTC
these memories
each one sharp as a thorn
yet so supple
a new chapter of life has now begun
do I leave my past behind?
closing my eyes
remembering every single one
pricking and prodding
trying to find my happiness
but that is something that I have left behind
Jun 3, 2015
Jun 3, 2015 at 4:24 PM UTC
The pain I feel is something no one endures
Each passing second I do not know what to feel
One thing is for sure
With time, I shall reveal
Lovingly, I tell you
How will I say this?
My love is something that cannot push through
But when I am with you, I feel bliss
However, you break this heart every time
"Why do you do this?", I say
As sour as a lime
You will always play
Your love has gone bone dry
Yet when will the time come to say goodbye?
Jun 2, 2015
Jun 2, 2015 at 11:50 PM UTC
I shouldn’t listen to you
but I am not deaf
I shouldn’t remember you
but you are still here
I shouldn’t look for you
but you are everywhere
I shouldn’t help you
but I am weak
I shouldn’t fall for you
but I have fallen
I shouldn’t see you
but I am not blind
I shouldn’t think about you
but you’re all that’s on my mind
I shouldn’t
I shouldn’t
I shouldn’t
I shouldn’t
I shall
Jun 2, 2015
Jun 2, 2015 at 10:26 AM UTC
looking down while I hear shouting
“It’s all your fault”
I want to cry
I want to shout back
I want to scream
do I not have feelings?
can I not speak?
frustrated and angry
my lungs are filled
the burning sensitivity in my throat
I can sense the sobbing
I run to my room
the only comfort that was given to me
I can’t cry
I can’t shout back
I can’t scream
the throbbing of my heart against my chest
the clenching of my fists
the waterfall running down my face
the ripping of my hair
these human sensations
yet the pain inside will not go
is my soul shattering
broken
cracked
I feel nothing
Jun 1, 2015
Jun 1, 2015 at 11:27 PM UTC
your words escape me
the whispers untamed forever
yet you do not evade
Jun 1, 2015
Jun 1, 2015 at 9:43 PM UTC