#dissapear
D-rowned in the ocean her body, could never be found
I-gnited by the fire her ashes could never be found
S-trangeled by your hands her pulse could never be found
A-ccidents happened unnamed the reasons could never be found
P-oisens struck her throat,The cause could never be found
E-xecuted and severed,Her head could never be found
A-bducted and lost,Her existance could never be found
R-otted to Death,Her dear Life could never be found...
_____tsuki no ume~
Oct 12, 2025
Oct 12, 2025 at 6:47 AM UTC
If they really knew what's good for me
They'd turn away and leave me be
It's for the better.
Feb 18, 2021
Feb 18, 2021 at 9:25 AM UTC
Drowning in tears
Sinkin in pills
I wonder how great happiness feel
I use to get the feeling
The feeling that i may not make it
Smiling what a fake grin
How is it that you live with yourself knowing what you did
How is it that i have to take my life just to get peace
While you live on and I feel deceased
How dare you take everything i hold close
Then act like you right
When no one knows
To unlock secrets and began my life
I let you go off the chain
Knowing i still suffer
Knowing i still cant get past
I let you dog me out and still pass
I let you strip me down in every way
****** my mind and take my soul out of my chest
I wanna hurt you like you did me
But im not that heartless
I have every reason but i let you go cause i need peace
I hope you happy that deep down inside you destroyed me
I still wonder why I let you slide
The damages i have inside can never die
I hope they never ressurect
Cause i dont know how much life I got left
Jun 26, 2020
Jun 26, 2020 at 10:24 PM UTC
Off the top of my head
When ever I think back all I see is dread
Mindlessly roaming the days
Passing the time as i slowly fade
Away
Into the night I dissapear
Never seen to been seen
As if I was ever seen in the first place
May 19, 2020
May 19, 2020 at 8:27 AM UTC
I used to be someone
whose life goal
was to do something
that would impact
the world.
Soon I found solace
in disappearing as a whole
and realized
the biggest impact
I will ever make
is
leaving.
Apr 28, 2020
Apr 28, 2020 at 5:09 PM UTC
youthful years, now reduced
when right angles were obtuse
find my path of lost tracks
feathered freight in the caboose
falling sand, hour glass
shades the moon from the cracks
'neath the back porch lies the dog
who howls when sand runs out
whispered winds
don't you lie
and try to save my sins
whispered winds
don't you lie
don't you die
dreary days, losing weight
i call out but cannot say
what is wrong, i'm ok
let's talk the ******** fake
fever chills, alone to face
california king's embrace
i stretch out, all my regrets
and dream of an escape
whispered winds
don't you lie
and try to save my sins
whispered winds
don't you lie
don't you die
Jul 1, 2018
Jul 1, 2018 at 11:41 PM UTC
If this is a safe space, then let me speak honestly for a moment
Because I’ve been wanting to disappear, and I’m trying to decide if I should vanish all at once or if I could let myself slowly start to fade away.
Taking my time with the goodbyes, as I’m hugging family members I’m watching my finger tips regress to their first knuckle joints behind their backs.
Going to shake an old friends hand and realizing I’m only able to offer them a short section of my forearm. They try not to be rude about it, exchanging nice to see you’s and hope you’ve been wells.
Once I couldn’t see my arms anymore and my legs began to fade I finally felt fearful and maybe even regret..
I wanted to come see you before it happened for good, before there was nothing left to see. I can feel you looking for the parts of me that should be there, no hands to hold, no arms to hug you, my torso was starting to slim and slip away like grains of sand through an hour glass.
I felt my breath tighten, you don’t expect to feel your last pieces fading but this was hurting much more than I ever thought it would and I couldn’t let you see me like that so I ran, and I ran far.
Just as I feel like I’m drifting off I hear you call for me and I realize this was a mistake and that I never was meant to disappear or fade away, I was never meant to say good byes, at least not so soon, maybe not now and maybe not ever.
Turns out vanishing all at once always was an acquired taste and I had no pallet for it, there are no second thoughts. At least I’ve began to be okay with the process, the gradual fading has brought me comfort, but I could never leave here.. At least not without saying, goodbye.
Mar 7, 2018
Mar 7, 2018 at 3:21 PM UTC
The light goes out
And we disappear
I can cry crystal tears
I can have a hundred fears
I can stand up for what I'm
But control my mind no way
I can break without notice
I can struggle everyday
I can search for the help
But I don't ever think
That this girl will ever help
She can rip my heart
As it was a piece of art
And I let her do it every day
Just go on, I say it's okay
Feb 9, 2016
Feb 9, 2016 at 1:55 AM UTC
We used to laugh the whole time
I was your friend and you were mine
But slowly the laughs dissapeared
Untill they no longer appeared
We went in different directions
Found a new place and made new connections
And though I miss you all the time
I'm fine as long as you still smile.
Oct 3, 2015
Oct 3, 2015 at 8:40 AM UTC
Midnight on my mind, midnight on my mind. I followed my foot as it slipped into the dust leaving a haunted pirate ship that was going way too fast for casual conversation. The wind was relentless and yelled in my ears as I wondered why I don't own any wigs, and also, why would anyone own any wigs? I feel for my pulse and find it happily nestled behind barely there skin and a few shaky bones. My hunger never asked to be acknowledged, it just whimpered and begged behind my heels like a stray dog I've never met before. The dawn was coming, the ghosts scattered down the cat walk like spiders with flies on their mind. Spiders covered their eyes as a bruised purple sky made love to an orange blossom.
May 22, 2014
May 22, 2014 at 4:01 PM UTC