The time approaches
Just as we are soon to “forget”
Why must everyday I morn like this
To speak about the unspoken
To possible open some wounds
To talk about things when I don’t have the mental for this to consume
Let this not be a goodbye but yet a celebration
My heart hurts at the thought of no reconciliation
To part forever ?
No they would never do
To say goodbye to someone so dear to you
We celebrate when we’re sad
No more cries but only laughs
Watching over us so dearly
I know I’m not alone
The only sadness is knowing I’ll never hear your voice over the phone
R.i.p :/
Apr 18
Apr 18, 2026 at 1:24 PM UTC
Dark clouds love to cloud
The most decadent of peace
Why must we suffer
With happiness at reach
Why does my mind ponder over things I’ve yet to let go
Why does the bitter grow oh so cold
To be let down but to never get obtain peace
The emptiness in my mind never seems to cease
With the new ahead sometimes I wonder
Did I come this far to fumble ?
Why must I feel down
When am I allowed to smile
With every good news
These bad that seems to surround
With every careful cry and every doubtful look
I rebuke all those pasty looks
This will be a celebration and not another sad line
No matter the odds I will obtain peace of mind
I’ve hoped for happiness
This kind of happiness for so long
To choose me after I’ve chose without for so long
Apr 9
Apr 9, 2026 at 11:09 AM UTC
Something about the fact that I’ve been patient
Keeping my thoughts and actions all to myself
Why do I hesitate so easily
Like I’m not proud of myself
Why do I give up so easily when I know deep down I can make it
So much self doubt within
Sometimes I hate it
Should I be who I’m destined to be
Or should I let this side rot
Building up on years of telling me I should stop
Breaking down every barrier
Cause this time it’s to late
Never will I hesitate at my own fate
Apr 10, 2025
Apr 10, 2025 at 9:52 AM UTC
Falling hearts, falling spirits, we’ve all become victims
If you ever fell in love, tell me are these the symptoms
To stuck on love? No I’m to **** on you
I call and call but I can’t get through
I can’t get past, something in my heart won’t let me leave
You have a hold on my love
So much discomfort has been bothering me
Bring me to the point, to the point you brought me
How could I look past when your image just seems to haunt me?
The mistakes, the mistakes, the mistakes
Grieving your love and I seem to cough up all my feelings
Tell me is this love or 2 years of healing
Me healing, yet your heart
None of this should’ve happened, I’m too dumb to gain you I don’t deserve
I don’t even deserve your words
No I don’t even deserve your presence
But the hurt I feel in my body only seems to be a lesson
Stuck on you, stuck on who? Yea I’m stuck on you
Tell me, tell me what am I supposed to do
What can I say, how can I sleep, I can’t even eat
The thought of you, and the thought of me, just makes me weak
It just makes me imagine all the things that could have been
If I would of considered your love and stayed true to the end
Your love to powerful, so many falling hearts
Everything I think to write you, my thoughts fall apart
Time will tell or will I tell time
To rewind back to the days when you were once mine
And I never lied… to you
I could never seem to be without you?
Where would I be?
Jul 28, 2024
Jul 28, 2024 at 2:15 PM UTC
This version of me, no more sad memories to follow
A heart that didn’t know how to love so bitter and hallow
This version of me more laughter and less pain
So many things that I endured will never feel the same
I’m letting go of all the bad things, they no longer have power
I spent hours and hours of being bitter and sour
Searching for love, searching through lust
So many broken promises, so many broken trusts
This version of me, I intend to keep the biggest smile
Im controller of my happiness
New editions tend to keep me at my best
To stay happy forever, you’ve brought me to my best
My best state I usually complain
Something about your soul just not the same
The only reason I’m not the same
The same, I could never be the same with you
I grow to be better once I obtained you
Filled with such peace, I never knew I could have peace
I hope you stay forever with me
, Please don’t ever hit release…
May 5, 2024
May 5, 2024 at 8:00 PM UTC
Some pain is unbearable a burden that never seems to rest
How could I be cursed yet so blessed
Memories in my head
Things I can never seem to make clear
Steering from sober
I don’t know where I’ll end
So much on my mind
I can’t even think steady
Will I go back to normal
I don’t know if I’ll ever be ready
I just know that I’m here and enduring this pain
A pain that has brought me so much shame
A pain felt deep within
Unlike anything I’ve ever felt
Worst than any burden I ever given or received
I just can’t cope with the thought of you not loving me
How can you think
How can you see anybody but me
So selfish to think I could have you all to me
Why does it hurt and make my mind run wild
I cannot control my thoughts I just wanna sit and pout
I thought I’d be stronger
I thought maybe it would hurt less
But the more I face my fears the more I realize
I realize things will never be the same
How could it?
How could it ever be the same
I just wish I could block out the intense feelings running through my brain
Thinking of intimacy not coming to me
So strange to say my love still never leaves
I don’t know if I deserve anything far from this
Everytime I look at you my mind instantly reminiscing
About all the good times of the past the pain that made us who we are now
5 years of blessings blessed to still be moving forward
I wish no pain like this on anyone cause now all I see is you
To be back in love
I don’t know what that would prove
I don’t know if we should unite I wish I knew what to actually do
Cause the truth is I’m still in love with you 😢
Oct 7, 2023
Oct 7, 2023 at 2:08 PM UTC
The day has come, that we must say goodbye
The time has come that everything must come to an end
Just as briefly as it began
No more dragging it along
No more trying to force it to work
No more wondering do you have to lurk
So goodbye to the best, and hello to the future
Hello to the new things
So the anger can stop and there won’t be no more whirlwinds
Show me the path and that way I will follow
A place where only a few can stand, because it seems so hollow
Look up and look out
Reach up and reach down
A new life I’ve seem to found
I’m trying to pick up what fell and be on my way
So everything will be ok
Just no the frost will never melt away
To you I’m a stranger, just like someone you’ve never met
A thing of the past
A heart I never kept
The end is surely coming
I just feel it within
There’s so many things to review before I can begin
You got that look in your eye
That look of uncertainty
The look that lets me know you’re not sure
A look that’s telling me you put everything in this choice
So how do I silence all of these noises?
I want to understand, I just love to listen
Your words were so cruel, but I couldn’t dip in
I just had to let it happen
I had to let you do it on your own
No more late night calls or being on the phone
So many things that flashed in front of me
Making it hard to decide
Whether I wanted to let go or stay by your side
So many reviews I had to go through
The long process of letting go of you
Deciding what memories I wanted to keep
What memories I wanted to remember
There’s no other way to tell me goodbye
Then saying “I no longer what to be with her”
Sep 14, 2023
Sep 14, 2023 at 12:45 PM UTC
The day has come, that we must say goodbye
The time has come that everything must come to an end
Just as briefly as it began
No more dragging it along
No more trying to force it to work
No more wondering do you have to lurk
So goodbye to the best, and hello to the future
Hello to the new things
So the anger can stop and there won’t be no more whirlwinds
Show me the path and that way I will follow
A place where only a few can stand, because it seems so hollow
Look up and look out
Reach up and reach down
A new life I’ve seem to found
I’m trying to pick up what fell and be on my way
So everything will be ok
Just no the frost will never melt away
To you I’m a stranger, just like someone you’ve never met
A thing of the past
A heart I never kept
The end is surely coming
I just feel it within
There’s so many things to review before I can begin
You got that look in your eye
That look of uncertainty
The look that lets me know you’re not sure
A look that’s telling me you put everything in this choice
So how do I silence all of these noises?
I want to understand, I just love to listen
Your words were so cruel, but I couldn’t dip in
I just had to let it happen
I had to let you do it on your own
No more late night calls or being on the phone
So many things that flashed in front of me
Making it hard to decide
Whether I wanted to let go or stay by your side
So many reviews I had to go through
The long process of letting go of you
Deciding what memories I wanted to keep
What memories I wanted to remember
There’s no other way to tell me goodbye
Then saying “I no longer what to be with her”
Jun 4, 2023
Jun 4, 2023 at 3:31 PM UTC
My thoughts, my head, everything seems to turn into a reality
To think such actions could turn into a tragedy
To think the things I said meant so much to you
To sit and think to you is who I owe my apology
Every bone in my body seems to be bothering me
Is it guilt, is it your words, maybe the dreams
Every temptation isn’t as good as it seems
It wasn’t good, it just took my mind off of the good things
Everything that had you in it was good
But things to me was never clear or understood
Complaints, complaints, complaints, is all I hear
My mind never seems to rest
It never seems to settle
All the thoughts in my head seem to be put in this message
So heaven sent, so perfect, but my mentality was never right
I love you, yet I made this big mistake
To distance myself and make you go away
To be gifted with such a cruel punishment that never took my feelings away
My punishment, my punishment, my punishment, good lord my punishment
Made me grow, but yet I feel weak
It took days, weeks, and years just to settle my heart
Loving you I never regret, not showing my love, not giving you my best
My unsure mentality lead to such a tragedy
To my future lady the thoughts of this might keep you mad at me
May 27, 2023
May 27, 2023 at 11:05 AM UTC
Betrayal comes in many forms
Many ways, different days
How can I act normal when deep down I’m not okay
How can your actions show something different with my presence
How could you dare deny me
Sometimes there’s no mask needed
When your actions are on display
Crazy how it seems so hidden
When it’s directly in my face
Such a burden to such a strong soul
How could they do you so bitter and cold
How do you fend for yourself
When you have yet learned from the past
A tender heart within your grasp
Show me more than you can tell
Words mean nothing when your actions show different
Tell me could you last if you was in my position
I hold no one to that standard
A standard of being all alone
Tell me how could you dare betray someone who’s been there all along
These masks seem to be half worn
Worn whenever you seek help
I show my complete self
Maybe I should mask up so you can get a taste of how it feel
One day you’re gonna suffer as much as I did
From a innocent child to a kid
I hold no remarks no shame and no lies
Til you feel what I feel you will always wear this disguise
Jul 27, 2021
Jul 27, 2021 at 1:53 PM UTC