#disapproval
My cat is very angry with me.
I didn't buy the golden collar, just the silver one.
Stupid me.
I thought it wouldn't notice.
Silly me again.
Never get it right with Royalty.
Jul 23, 2025
Jul 23, 2025 at 5:53 AM UTC
she’s a friend
i met her at a coffee shop
where i planned to stop
and where my heart dropped
she’s a friend
she has a beautiful smile
lovely style and a great mind
her cheeks tastes like chamomile
she’s truly worthwile
she’s a friend
we started seeing each other more often
with her my aggressive mind softens
and my pain are forgotten
it always feels like autumn
i know i have fallen
she’s a friend
i can feel her warmth in my clothes
the one she wore while i was in control
i want to feel her close
i want to be wherever she goes
she has stolen my soul
it’s not something we chose
she’s a friend
you’ll love her
i don’t call her a friend
but she must remain one
or else you’ll hate her
Aug 20, 2020
Aug 20, 2020 at 11:07 AM UTC
"I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT SHE DOESN'T LIKE YOU."
i know she doesn't like me.
i see it every time,
the way she talks,
the way her smile doesn't reach her eyes,
the way she avoids me, only me.
you've said it already,
again and again.
"SHE THINKS YOU ARE A TOXIC FRIEND."
i tell myself it's not your fault,
you still like me, it's just her opinion.
but why don't you try defending me,
i’ve been with you through thick and thin.
how many times do i have to be there for you
until you tell her you disagree?
"SHE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW YOU'RE WITH ME”
i get it she doesn’t like me,
but why do you say that to me,
i know all you are trying to be is honest
but sometimes it can't hurt to be ignorant of judgement.
Mar 8, 2020
Mar 8, 2020 at 12:07 PM UTC
My grandma has always known
That I like girls in a way
She knows I have dated girls
I remember when I finally came out to her
She looked at me disappointed
And said " I thought you were just going through a phase... I thought you would just grow out of it..."
This broke my heart into a million pieces
All I wanted was her approval
And all I got was her disapproval
To this day my grandma has treated me different
I feel like the ugly duckling
I feel like the odd one out
And to this day she still tries to set me up with guys
And to this day it is still breaking my heart
She doesn't want me to be gay
She doesn't want me to be me
Feb 10, 2020
Feb 10, 2020 at 2:38 PM UTC
my friends all think
that it happened too fast
they keep trying to tell me
that we'll never last
but when I'm with you
it just feels right
and never has someone
made me smile this bright
Dec 14, 2019
Dec 14, 2019 at 12:32 PM UTC
Since I was in 7th grade
I had a thing for girls
That is when I knew..
I was gay
Oh it was such a day
One day I told my mom
But in the end it was like a bomb
That just wouldn't go away
Then I told my dad
He denied it
Then he said to me
The bible says Adam and Eve
Not Adam and Steve
-I am proud to be gay/lesbian, because I am me.
Nov 24, 2019
Nov 24, 2019 at 8:17 PM UTC
Every passing day
And night,
It becomes harder,
To stay away from you.
Expectations and religious views weigh
us down with their might.
They drive us further
apart; our hearts blue.
Religion and Race
Should have no place
in life and love.
Our hearts bleeding
and breaking.
Forced apart
Out of each other's sight.
Begging and pleading,
Our hearts aching,
Parents, Please take heart
Understand our plight.
Apr 9, 2019
Apr 9, 2019 at 5:26 AM UTC
Tell me how
I only break
to be strong and still,
how I only
take from me
to give to others,
how I get disapprovals
on my own pain,
how I wake up as
early as 6 am,
yet can't get up
until the regrets of
time gone to waste
hit at 2 pm,
Tell me how
to stop.
Mar 17, 2019
Mar 17, 2019 at 1:57 PM UTC
Sometimes Darkness whispers to me.
It tells me it is a place of comfort,
A place of escape.
No one can find you here, it insists,
You are alone, finally,
Just what you wanted,
Screamed for,
Cried for,
Alone, with me, it looks up
With a smirk
Don’t be scared,
I don’t judge,
Stay for as long as you wish.
When I leave, it whispers to me,
Come back, I miss you,
Escape the chaos,
Be with us...
Sometimes Darkness yells at me.
It questions who I am,
Why I am here,
I don’t belong...
I’m too intense...
I’m not good enough...
What I want is impossible...
It yells at me, until I yell back.
Sometimes Darkness stares at me,
When my eyes are shut,
I see it’s gaze,
It’s lure,
It’s disapproval and longing for my return.
It stares... and glares... until I open my eyes,
And find the light again.
Oct 14, 2018
Oct 14, 2018 at 9:31 PM UTC
to do everything to your liking
because the feeling of your disapproval...
it shatters me.
excelling in every aspect
of my life.
to be able to get close to you,
having to do every one of your desires
to belong in your arms.
letting everything go
to make you proud of me.
putting my problems in silence
to help your own.
Feb 13, 2018
Feb 13, 2018 at 4:38 PM UTC
Some will call you names
Let them call you what they want
It doesn’t make them right to shame
It doesn’t make them strong to taunt.
It just makes them bigger fools,
And for that we all grieve.
That they don’t play by the rules
That they profess to believe
Some days bring us rain
Other days will brightly shine.
Sometimes the cookies burn
And others will come out fine.
We all know people who cry
If other people get more than they
Who find fault with almost anything
Some other people have to say.
It seems to be a lifelong thing
Said by overgrown adolescents
Crying because someone else got
What they wanted as a present,
If we never learn to count the ways
That we have had good fortune
How can anyone ever clearly tell
The butterfly from the cocoon?
How can we not look at the moon
And then enjoy a starry night
If we spend our time in tears
That somebody else isn’t right?
Some days bring us rain
Other days will brightly shine.
Sometimes the cookies burn
And others will come out fine.
Dec 25, 2016
Dec 25, 2016 at 2:01 AM UTC
people left me with a need for a new place
where touching skin no longer felt like a fear
i wanted to stay and get past my broken feelings but there's fear even in happy moments
voices of disapproval followed me
slowly and quickly
day in and day out
on land
and not even the sea could cast away those demons
warmth quickly became a burden
my scars i tried to return but faces came forward to form more
Dec 4, 2016
Dec 4, 2016 at 1:42 PM UTC
so the gods shook their heads
and said
"play with fire if you want to."
Nov 18, 2016
Nov 18, 2016 at 12:20 AM UTC
The way you can't look at me,
'cos I'm not the little girl I used to be;
your tired recollection
of each gene in recession;
your knife heart, sad heart,
raised by a bad heart--
but I decided it’s worth battling your
droopy-eyed disapproval;
but I want to run into this fog
with my arms open wide;
but I always thought I’d rather burn in the fire
than die in my sleep.
Apr 15, 2015
Apr 15, 2015 at 10:52 PM UTC
When I think of you it’s cosmos, the worlds in perfect harmony
Then I think what’s the point if you don’t think of me?
The sun shines through your eyes I swear they’re made of gold
Blue stained with crystal, leading to stories of the soul
I think of you almost every hour, nothings really changed
I get scared sometimes though that we will stay the same
The story in the dark, untouched and left untold
Letting our feelings drown, frozen and shattered in the cold
My father doesn't approve, but it seems he never will
If you’re going to run I’ll run as long as we don’t stand still
Seems most of this is terrifying, using words in a mine field
I seize to understand, what’s the big deal?
I’m 17 now, I am not young a naive
Some things I speak you must trust but still you don’t believe
I prove an I cry, and hopelessly wonder
Why am I in a low, with such rain and thunder?
He’s the one I want don’t you get it, can’t you see?
I’m not such a child, let me be free
Seeing you will never change, I’ll wait for him you’ll see
And if it’s truly love, what’s meant to be will be
Feb 18, 2015
Feb 18, 2015 at 9:55 PM UTC
I didn't understand
because I thought it didn't apply
to
me
The disapproval that comes
subtly but surely
from the woman
who raised you
And in so many ways
Because of the person
I have grown to
be
Because I didnt become a replica
Because I didnt fall a slave
to every
silly idea or claim that bled
From her fangs.
I'm not sorry
however
for setting my own morals
For finding a part of myself
That I could not
change
I am not sorry
For growing to be the Hercules
to your
Hades
I am not
Sorry
For being the one to find and point out
the wrong
the wrong
In ever claim of your
"Right"
Dec 7, 2014
Dec 7, 2014 at 6:32 PM UTC