Since I was in 7th grade
I had a thing for girls
That is when I knew..
I was gay
Oh it was such a day
One day I told my mom
But in the end it was like a bomb
That just wouldn't go away
Then I told my dad
He denied it
Then he said to me
The bible says Adam and Eve
Not Adam and Steve
-I am proud to be gay/lesbian, because I am me.
Nov 24, 2019
Nov 24, 2019 at 8:17 PM UTC
Home is somewhere safe
Somewhere you can go to
When you’re sad
When you need help
When you need anything
When at home
You shouldn’t feel misery
Not the want to leave
Not where you should feel..
Unloved
Home is the only thing
You can depend on forever
Until the floor falls out from you..
Until the walls cave in..
With nobody there to save you
You'd think if you're at home
Your family would save you
Not in this case
In this case they're the reason..
The reason everything caved and crashed
The reason you're scared to go home
The reason you trust nobody,
But most importantly
The reason you push people away
Because your own family hurt you
You push others away because you..
You don't want to get attached
Have to go through a new loss
or, just the exact opposite..
Cling
You try to hold on to something so tight
show your love so hard
Confide in somebody that you think is trustworthy
All just to fill a void.
All just to feel the love that isn’t provided at home.
Nov 23, 2019
Nov 23, 2019 at 10:33 PM UTC
To me
You are the moon
You know me better
Than anybody
You know me inside
And out
Yet you still stay
I tell you anything
And everything
You are one i won’t
Lie to
You see me
For me
I have grown attached
Not on purpose
I know it's wrong
I try to change
My feelings
You are one i can't lose
You understand
But most importantly
You help me
When i feel nobody can
Nov 22, 2019
Nov 22, 2019 at 7:22 PM UTC
When you hear about death
You assume accidents
Especially as young as i am
You never consider ******
Or even suicide
Inside me there is a silent killer
I call it depression
I may smile and laugh with friends
But at night suicide is all i think about
I am my own enemy
My thoughts are my own enemy
I take showers because that
Is my safe place to cry
I take baths at the hottest temperature
To numb my body, make physical pain go away
Mental and emotional pain, always finds a way to stay
Feels like i can never get away
If you read my name in the paper for death
It would be suicide
You would be shocked
You’d never imagine, if you didn’t know my life
I have fundraised for cancer patients
I have met with mayors
I am known in Amarillo
I have done so much for the community
My problem is
I worry about helping others before myself
I always put myself last
Never ever first
To my parents i'm only concerned with myself
I never think about others
They never change their perspective
Only criticise
I have my own silent killer, and it will come soon.
Nov 22, 2019
Nov 22, 2019 at 4:03 PM UTC