#descions
Has my soul woundered around in many different time lines
Trying to escape a reality that I have never wanted to see.
Trying to predict a future with out you.
The bad descions have been coming back to bite me again.
Karma has finally made it's descion to hit me.
Asking my self the same questions over an over again,
Drowning my self in a bottle of Scotch.
Asking my self on replay
Would I jump to the past to change things?
Or should I stay an have another dance with the devil?
BY ERS
Nov 9, 2018
Nov 9, 2018 at 7:32 PM UTC
I have violent thoughts
I hate and hold grudges on you all
For not acknowledging me
And talking to me
Like my talk is cheap
But I can't let you all take control of me
I can only push myself to the brink
I can only break myself under pressure
You are just my psychological limitation
You are my negative motivation
But not why I positively persevere
I will not let you occupy a vacancy in my mind without paying an outrageous lease
I don't want to snap
Because control is the only thing i have this far
And if I do
I will give whoever is there everything
Every sarcastic remark thrown at me
Every unfair criticism
Every smug remark
Everything I didn't want to hear
And everything they didn't deserve
Beat me ****** with sticks and stones
Break every bone
Leave me conscious enough to tell me it's my fault
Then slander what I have left as a human being
What's a word without power
What's an idea without a motive
Watch the steps you tread
The steep path can lead you to what he or she said
While the truth discriminates
And the reality that we all search for doesn't exist
Freedom and unity can't be forced onto the same plane
Those with the power to send their malicious intent
You sully my docile side
So when tears form my rage and release my wrath on a stubborn mule of a man
By nature
I didn't really want to do it
Silently sobbing in the corner shackle as I have given the confession to the act I committed
Emotional distraught
Being taught
To never point the finger
Logically perplexed
Watching
These acts being committed
It angers me
So blame me
Dec 6, 2014
Dec 6, 2014 at 4:09 PM UTC