#depresses
My voice breaks
and tears begin to fall
and for your own sake
I will build this wall
And when the night sets in
these walls break down
I can feel it under my skin
when no ones around
I want to be high
so I don't need to think
dissolve into the sky
please hand me the drink
Aug 20, 2020
Aug 20, 2020 at 1:19 AM UTC
Happiness is blue and round
Happiness lives in a bottle
Happiness fits in the palm of my hand
Happiness is taken with water
Happiness lasts from seven to six
Happiness tastes like chalk
I take my happiness every day
So why can’t I notice a difference?
Apr 4, 2019
Apr 4, 2019 at 11:53 AM UTC
i could tell you what you want to hear
but instead i want to lie
i haven’t had a spine for a very long time
but no nerves have been severed at the base of my skull
i should think just about now
but the creaking of locked doors are all that will sound
i could lie to you now
i could stand up to you now
i could have a will against you
except i am no longer sure of my capabilities
except i am so far away from consistency
except i my life is no longer available to me
Sep 28, 2016
Sep 28, 2016 at 9:40 AM UTC
I wanted to numb myself.
Read the panic in my eyes
You should be pleased.
"Please speak to me"
The walls tumbling down.
I nodded goodbye.
I didn't matter.
I wasn't going to hang around.
I headed for the door.
"Wait"
Jun 30, 2016
Jun 30, 2016 at 10:51 AM UTC
Too tired I am to do anything,
I've lost everyone , I've lost everything,
Exhausted I am yet playing my role,
I can stand up but what about my soul ?
I walk everyday smiling wide,
A smile to fool , a smile to hide,
For me to hide the joy that died,
For me to hide the eyes that cried,
Alone I sit , alone all the time,
The sweet life I had turned as sour as lime,
Coffee in hand thinking of words to rhyme,
I'm trying to get up, I'm trying to climb,
I can feel my heart's broken pieces,
I do I wait but my sadness increases,
It's as if my happiness, the sadness ceases,
Sitting and hoping sorrow releases,
And I hope and hope and hope,
And perhaps with hope I'm alive!!!
Sep 26, 2015
Sep 26, 2015 at 2:16 PM UTC
Sleeping in open
Looking at stars
Everything is fine
But can't hide my scars
Neither I feel the breeze
Nor the mosquitoes bite
The only feeling is i feel so dead
And so without you is this site
The silence prevails
And the darkness rule
The poison spreads
And my breath gets cool
Don't know what it is
Whether the night is passing by
Or a worthless guy
Is about to die
The eeyelids getting heavy
And so are my breath
Mind is flooding with your memories
And I'm choking to death
Even death seems disappointing
Because it is confusing
Whether to see me dead
You'll be coming!!!
Jul 29, 2015
Jul 29, 2015 at 10:47 PM UTC
Some people love the cloudy days
Rain and storms
Rain makes me sad
Storms set me on edge
The gloom outside puts gloom in my mood
Give me the sun
Warmth and comfort are these things
Rain just makes me think
I have such a tendency to over think everything
Rain brings life
Helps things to grow
So please explain
Why it depresses my soul
May 25, 2015
May 25, 2015 at 12:24 PM UTC
I never feared the monsters under the bed.
What I really had to fear
Were the monsters in my head.
Every year
They told me to just
“Let them free.”
When the cold hard truth
Was that the monster
Was me.
I never feared the monsters under the bed.
What I really had to fear
Were the monsters in my head.
Slowly killing
Slicing my heart
Breaking my soul
Tearing me apart
And maybe someday
When I go crazy
I’ll slit my throat
You’ll miss me
Maybe.
I never feared the monsters under the bed.
What I really had to fear
Were the monsters in my head.
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 3:44 AM UTC
Everything turned so dark,
So black
I began to turn my wrists red,
To see some color
Sep 3, 2014
Sep 3, 2014 at 3:04 AM UTC
Why do I do this
To myself? Every time
I see you, I feel
Depressed. Why do I do things
That tear me up? Leave me 'lone.
Apr 26, 2014
Apr 26, 2014 at 12:59 PM UTC