#depend
i lie awake in the crevice of emptiness
i’ve grown comfortable with it
the silence no longer bothers me
it hugs me silently
the darkness kisses me gently
i want to live like this forever
…
a small light has entered the crevice
it curiously bores its head through
like it already belongs
it’s been a while since i’ve seen light
i hesitate
but i can’t seem to hold myself back
…
the light has taken over part of the crevice
it’s so pretty
it hugs me warmly
it fills me up;
in ways the darkness never could
i feel fulfilled
i think i don’t want to be alone anymore
…
the light has breached the crevice
it has taken root in every corner
i don’t mind
it smiles sweetly as if a first kiss
its eyes hold me — almost practiced
i can’t sleep with the light
i can’t stop thinking with the light
something about it seems different lately
maybe it’s gotten comfortable
…
some of the light has left the crevice
i desperately try to grab it
but it seems the harder i try;
more seems to slip away
it only pauses after i feed it gemstones
pieces of me i can’t seem to grow back
i’ve figured out how to contain the leak
this should hold
i’m running out of gemstones but it’s alright
i’m happy with the light
…
the light is gone
i don’t understand
it was still smiling at me yesterday
i gave it gemstones
i gave it my warmth
i gave it my time
i gave it my love
i gave it my life
why has it left
the light needs me
it has to
…
the darkness whispers in my ear
the air is tight
i can’t breathe
where is the light
i can’t see anymore
the darkness disgusts me
the crevice is falling apart
.//@?
where is the light
where is it
where
i can’t see
i need it
give it back
give it back
WHERE ARE YOU
Apr 30
Apr 30, 2026 at 8:06 AM UTC
transcend instead of depend
depends of the turn of the wind
i won once upon a time
i believed in the making of things
now i am so scared to speak
scared to reveal the underneath
stay still and repeat
all that was already told to me
my love is rehashed and disgraced
my face is rehearsed and displaced
my body is repressed in distaste
my lungs crave a new way
to breathe, to see, to be seen
to believe, to be, to be relieved
Mar 15
Mar 15, 2026 at 4:34 PM UTC
Never did I intend
To depend
So heavily on this pen
And the hand it was able to lend
But if I didn't spend
The time I did attend
Like if I only spent the weekend
Workin' on me,
I wouldn't have been able to defend my heart
Or fend off the dark
Because I wouldn't have been able to comprehend
The in-between
Of the beginning and the end
©2024
Sep 5, 2024
Sep 5, 2024 at 11:15 AM UTC
What do i seek?
What more do I ask for?
What is it that's left?
To feel, to say, to listen and to bear.
To give is to take,
To trust is to wait,
To attach is to not depend
And to love is to not demand.
The only equations I understand.
But why is it
That I deviate
And I'm unable to take a stand?
But why is it
That my weakness
Makes you my need beforehand?
But why is it
That I want the mountains
And give in to the islands?
But why is it
That I always need time
And it slips away like sand?
But why is it
That I want to build a house
And still need my empty land?
But why is it
That I want to rewrite stories
And not give a second chance?
Oct 31, 2019
Oct 31, 2019 at 2:36 AM UTC
"Come to me," he said one night,
and I will make your world alright;
"I will fill your heart with love,
my precious, little, snow white Dove."
~
I will calm your weary soul,
never will you feel alone;
Protect you from all types of harm,
wrap you in my arms of warmth.
~
Cuddle you when you're afraid,
give you what you've always craved;
Dry the many tears you've cried,
give you comfort, give you pride.
~
I will do all this for you,
because my dear, I love you true;
And if you should e'er need a friend,
on me you can always depend.
Apr 22, 2019
Apr 22, 2019 at 2:21 PM UTC
Sun bursts into the sky
Leaping colors form under thigh
Bleed into the brush and let moments slip
Concrete your mind yet your thoughts still drip
Propose a masterpiece one of bright blues
For you my eyes speak of faded glues
Stuck in rewind I give you my hand
Lead me by collar to the promised land
Stationary in place frozen you gleam
Staring through reflection my pulse should beam
Strawberries and sunny nights I do watch
Nothing more to our likeness; a room for the klatch
Nov 11, 2018
Nov 11, 2018 at 11:55 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
Look here,
I'm not trying to gain your trust,
I'm not trying to be your friend,
I'm not trying be someone that you could
Lean on and depend,
I'm not looking for this crowd,
I'm not looking for a gf,
I'm not searching for my soul, yet,
And it's not even p.m,
I'm not trying to be your son,
I'm not trying to be your comfort,
I'm not trying to be the one,
I'm like lightning, your like thunder,
And I clearly hate the rain,
And I clearly hate your face,
I don't care who you know,
They could even be in outer space,
I don't care about your jewelery,
I don't care about your clothes,
I don't care about your goals,
That you reached when I was alone,
I could care less if you hate me boy I'll fight you and your buddy,
All the people that has ever doubted me has gotten lucky.
Mar 27, 2018
Mar 27, 2018 at 11:12 AM UTC
So much depends
Upon
A river always
Flowing
Drop by drop
Dripping
Drink by drink
Living
Mar 27, 2018
Mar 27, 2018 at 3:50 AM UTC
would I be depressed
if you were always by my side?
I know you are
there for me
but I need you to squeeze my arm
so I know that you are real
that I am
that everything is okay
but I know I can't really
depend my sanity
on another fragile being
together we are stronger
but what if we are
not
together
Aug 18, 2017
Aug 18, 2017 at 2:24 PM UTC
There is one I hold to,
One whose love is strong;
Strong enough to hold me
When he’s been deeply wronged.
For when I find I’m empty,
He fills me up with love,
And strength enough to carry on—
Much more than just enough.
He keeps me from despairing
For he’s never too busy for me;
His every waking hour,
He’s attentive as can be.
I know no other as righteous:
He’ll never do me wrong.
I wish I was more like him, but
The process will be long.
When no one makes me special,
When I’m selfish and want my way,
He’s patient, quiet, humbling:
He takes my breath away.
He’s not just something to hang on to
Because ‘nothing could heal this pain’:
He is the only solution,
The sun above the rain.
My faith isn’t blind, here—
It’s more than justified;
My Savior keeps me going.
To Him I owe my life.
Jun 21, 2015
Jun 21, 2015 at 10:12 PM UTC
the awkward part is
sleeping without your breathing leaves me lost in the dark.
close to weeping with slient heaving i shut my eyes hard.
the opposite of feeling, barely seeing i'm dependant on you.
no longer solitary, you're one with them and maybe,
thats the awkward part.
k.g.
Apr 19, 2015
Apr 19, 2015 at 6:56 PM UTC
To be the reason you breathe
Your every thought
Your every dream
Your purpose in life
Would be the reason I breathe
To be what makes you believe
Your reason for living
Your reason for smiling
Your motivation for existing
Would be what makes me believe
To be the one you depend on
Your rock when you need to lean
Your shoulder when you need to cry
Your soft place to land, when life's too hard
Would be the only thing I could depend on
To be the one who helps you feel strong
Your innocence when it doesn't belong
Your heart when yours breaks in two
Your soul when it's shattered too
Would be what makes me feel strong
***and of all these things
To breathe and believe
To depend on, to feel strong
I only need you
To feel that I belong***
Feb 3, 2015
Feb 3, 2015 at 12:12 PM UTC
All it takes is you believing
we could make this work,
but leaving
just to lurk
prompting grieving
just to perk
me up ascending on some chariot you broke
defending all the arson in the mirrors with the smoke
I cough, and choke
til I awoke
the words still stuck inside my throat
you swore you wrote this swollen note
Tell me then, pleading, revoke
to which you reply, I misspoke.
All it takes is you believing
faintly, even so
I'll pound pavement retrieving
anything we need to go.
All it takes is you believing
and I'll vicious fight our cause
til I'm buried or I'm ashes
consuming body by my mind
which precedence for you defined
to hush protests below mustaches
bristled veil the daily grind
and anyone leaves us behind
sees our reflections brightly shined
and they all crashes
and they all crashes
all it takes is you believing.
Jan 27, 2015
Jan 27, 2015 at 10:05 PM UTC
Let the darkness have a rest,
Give yourself a break;
Accept encouragement and respect,
And let go of the ache.
Feel the right outside the wrong,
Don’t do this on your own;
There’s more than dark to run from here,
Just realize you can be home.
Don’t chase yourself in circles—
Insight comes with the dawn;
And when no strength remains within,
Draw from the One you depend on.
Jan 12, 2015
Jan 12, 2015 at 5:38 PM UTC
Let's prance
Then dance
Let's run
And make fun
Let's cook
Then book
A flight
With a kite
Let's pick some flowers
And build some towers
Let's cry
Then try
To fix up
The mix-up
Let's be together
Forever and ever
Because you're my Best Friend
And on each other we can always depend
Oct 19, 2014
Oct 19, 2014 at 10:23 PM UTC
Sometimes I want to shut that drumming sound in my head
The pounding of bothering with everyone's problems
How easy it is to project your torment on others
But how difficult to hide it within and persevere
Like a loose cannon it shoots from your lips
Not concerned where it lands
In someone's bed or someone's hand
It blasts in their face and leave them anxious
Your worries have left your cushion
They've have now bedded in my mind's prison
I feel so ***** and robbed of my peace
Your problems you've cast on to me
Though I'd like to help
I've realized now it's getting a bit
It's become a habit for you
To send crytic clues in your worries
And wringing your hands in desperation
So for now I'll pretend my cup's full too
My mind's occupied and I need my space
I can't jump in for your every whim
Give my life to run around your din.
Then you'll get angry for not helping you
You label me as terrible and bad mouth me
But seriously I care a flying rat's ***
Your problems are your making
Your mind is a cesspool of worries
It's never going to end
Till on your internal reserves you learn to depend
Sep 11, 2014
Sep 11, 2014 at 3:43 AM UTC
What is left to do when the only way to get rid
of the salt at the bottom of my lungs
is by drowning myself in alkaline oceans.
May 28, 2014
May 28, 2014 at 12:00 AM UTC