#delulu
three days three nights
just to be with you
the second day we said hey duke Dennis hug right?
it broke me to even say goodbye to you
we hung out -ate together-vibed together-laughed and cried
together-
the last day I broke down
already knowing what was to come
you said "don't be down- wear your smile!"
I listened for a couple of hours
then I cried again and fell down..
just for you to pick me up again without even making a sound
I told you
we'd split and never talk again
you said otherwise
you said just "friends"
we kissed one last time then I left
I wept in the car and so forget it
couple days go by by all so good
then weeks no talking
now were in April
it was December then
and now nothing...
its fine but I still look back and rewind in my mind.
I'm sorry for being attached.
but you were someone I could never get back.
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 6:23 PM UTC
I hate the way you ignore me.
I hate the way you talk.
I hate your stupid smile.
I hate your stupid gray jacket
you always leave hanging there.
I hate how addictive you are.
I hate how I wait for your text like a fool.
I hate your stupid jokes.
I hate the way you brag.
I hate the way I feel about you.
I hate how much I love you.
The truth is,
I don’t hate you enough.
I never will.
You’re my only thought,
my only real problem,
my fatal flaw.
I don’t need to pretend anymore.
What’s there is there now.
You know I can’t resist
your gaze,
your breath,
the quiet sound of your sigh.
And that’s what ruins me.
Jan 13
Jan 13, 2026 at 2:59 PM UTC
Delulu. This kingdom that surrounds me is built upon walls of mistakes and lies, shaped in love’s name. Haunted by the echoes of what ifs and maybes that linger through the night. As much as it hurts, my feet keep dancing on the shards of truth beneath what once was. I loved you far too easily, yet I still hear the silence behind those eyes. You were never really here, yet your shadow still leaves its imprint in my mind. Your absence was stitched into my heart, altering its rhythm, and I called it devotion, swore it was mine. Often, when I stare into the distance, I see the ghost of something that never truly existed. I dream of your touch against mine, knowing it was never meant to be real. Maybe that’s what Delulu really is, a love so full of itself it can’t tell the difference between dreaming and decay, terrified of waking from its own illusion. So I’ll dive headfirst into the deep, let the false memories flood me entirely, and scream into the dark, hoping somehow the madness will turn to beauty.
Oct 11, 2025
Oct 11, 2025 at 9:46 PM UTC
Hi
You’re new here
I definitely didn’t expect you
I wish I had more time to prepare
As this is the first time I laid eyes on you
But somehow, now
You are everywhere
I’m not gonna take this too seriously
Because my heart just cannot bare
Another loss
Another another unforgettable loss
It just hurts
Way too ******* much
To care
Mar 29, 2025
Mar 29, 2025 at 2:07 AM UTC
Love, the word I used to hate
Bitterness was sweet
Not until dozen of candies
Tasty bounds becomes great
Mind becomes imaginative
Fantasizing everywhere.
As I turn stranger to my lover.
Nov 24, 2024
Nov 24, 2024 at 9:15 AM UTC
Your eyes, were like the coast of the sea
I chased after them till I fell on my knee
You were humble, and I fell in love with thee
As I lay on my back, you were all I that I see.
Your lips moved, and my heart skipped a beat
The cherry on top; her sassiness was neat
As you laugh, I tingled to the base of my feet
My body is at peace utop of a green sheet.
Your custard skin, dulled with a bracelet
As you danced to the tunes, I dared to duet
As feelings went, contentness was rarely felt
I unconsciously wondered under my blanket.
How I wish that this dream came true
Or to not awake from such a winter flu.
Oct 5, 2024
Oct 5, 2024 at 2:18 AM UTC
it's as if he's looking at me
but I know he's looking past me
so I just try my best
to ignore his presence
it's as if he's staring into my eyes
but I know he's staring at my insecurities
so I break our eye contact
knowing it'll break my heart
it's as if he's observing me
but I know he's copying my homework
so I continue doing my work
even though it hurts
it's just a one sided crush,
after all </3
Sep 16, 2024
Sep 16, 2024 at 7:26 AM UTC
fingers harming hair
hot fillers gently *********
open horizontal pair
hurried blonde slipping
down her narrow stairs
drop steady fixed stare
hips soaring, widespread
sloppy fall on my rear end
big finale all set, i see red
set in stone that bled
set and sound correct
i paraglided dead
Crack o'clock linger
cranked foreign giver
converting reign- leader
ground control to major
tons of delusion, ships
boarding delusionships
in diluted fusion
never co-depending
neither co-developing
deeply delving, daunting
open- ended forming
TRANS
CULTIVATING
EVADING
RURAL
rotating out of orbit
falling prey to rotting,
bits of gums soaring,
bites of arms Taste -ing
Test sting
Test stink
Test sink-ing
Test sink in
Test sin king
Tes singing:
La lal lala la la lla
Apr 22, 2023
Apr 22, 2023 at 6:03 AM UTC