#deceiving
Herself:
Hollow
Eyes dim, no smile
Reflection unchanged, though spirit taken away
Little to no words
But thoughts, thoughts race, tears flow, this isn't a place to stay, time to go.
To others:
Full
Eyes bright, wide smile
Reflection unchanged, happy spirit
Words a plenty
But thoughts, thoughts race, but with them, tears don't flow. This still isn't a place to stay, time to go.
Final move:
Empty
Eyes dim, but this time a smile
Reflection unchanged, but an excited spirit
Words written, the "I love yous" flow
Thoughts? None. A sense of calm. This isn't a place to stay, now it really is time to go.
And she was gone. Free. Dead or alive? You decide.
Jan 19
Jan 19, 2026 at 12:03 PM UTC
anxiety attack
sweat down my back
sleepless nights
and walking nightmares
I am being followed everywhere,
my own shadows are ahead of me
they lead the way,
and have me doubt
each step, each word, each thought
they crawl from underneath my skin
they mock, they push, they scream
“not good enough “
-again, they bluff
Feb 2, 2025
Feb 2, 2025 at 12:30 AM UTC
The sea is full of secrets;
undiscovered lies and deceiving waves--
with an odd lay.
Like a fathomless man which
conceals the most heart-rending tales
And only a few could sense the depth it owns.
A great consolation--it may seem.
But do not let it's allurement outwit you.
Mar 24, 2021
Mar 24, 2021 at 10:51 AM UTC
You can have everything and still want more
You can be a ****** and be called a *****
You can win the battle but lose the war
Forgetting what you were fighting for
You can receive praise but still want first place
You can have the present moment and want yesterday
You can go to church to lose your faith
Because the God of love created people who hate
You can have everything and still want more
You can do evil and be adored
You can lose the battle and win the war
Knowing what you were fighting for
Dec 27, 2020
Dec 27, 2020 at 12:15 PM UTC
Tame thy wicked heart or be tamed by it!
The very reason for man's greatest fall.
The sweetest nectar that one would submit,
Savoring the sour sense of a sad squall.
Thy heart is within the depths of one's chest,
Set in a cage of bones where it resides.
T'is purposely confined without a jest,
In order for man to solely decide.
But it's whistling whisper is whimsical,
Using sweet temptation as its lure.
T'is both enticing but satirical,
Deceiving man's mind, so bold and so pure.
Oh heart, the one man should greatly subdue,
But the fruit is what one wants to pursue.
Oct 26, 2020
Oct 26, 2020 at 7:53 PM UTC
He looks decieving
I didn't saw that coming
He looked at me
Wearing a high class outfit
He's too naive
Have a self-esteem
But it's just a little bit showy
So that he'll be recognized and praised
Jesters are in a crowd
Clowns are spreading all around
Spontaneously making crimes
Inside the party of royalties
He came to me
Convinced me to be like him
To be a partner of him
But do I really like to be like him?
If you want me to be a villain
Well, sorry dear
I'm worried about me
Being exposed in public
Jan 3, 2020
Jan 3, 2020 at 4:51 PM UTC
To think.. I cannot say anything. After all, I lying to my self.
This feeling is.. Yeah..
No one know what I feel.
No one ever understand me.
My fears. My tears. Is everything no one can ever understand.
The reason why my fears is appeared is unknow.
The reason my tears drop is unknow too.
Lets just DIE. When I die, no one ever care.
I should tell them that I will die. Die from running out of tears.
Open a new book and start a new story. If there is no happy ending, let's write it again.
Sep 26, 2019
Sep 26, 2019 at 8:17 AM UTC
Your mouth must be just another *******
Because all I hear is **** coming out of it!
People like you like to **** in the wind,
But get upset when your clothes get wet!
You have come to reap what we've sown!
Typical of you to take what others have grown!
The people you stand with mean nothing to you,
Just something for you to sink your teeth into!
You blood ******* parasitic vampire!
You're a disease! A growth! A cancer!
But you can't help it,
It is in your nature!
Mindkiller!
Deceiver!
Vampire!
It is in your nature!
Sep 24, 2019
Sep 24, 2019 at 7:24 PM UTC
The concept of being deceivingly perfect.
For you were the someone who I wanted to stay.
I‘d constantly remind myself not to expect
cause you were a race car in a speeding highway.
I thought that I’d actually be getting somewhere.
We were going in full speed but never stopping.
With the familiar cool breeze running through my hair,
You were just speeding past while I was still walking.
Sep 15, 2019
Sep 15, 2019 at 7:30 AM UTC
What were we?
A huge mess tied in a bow?
But I loved you so much it hurt
When I had to let you go.
Apr 20, 2019
Apr 20, 2019 at 10:11 PM UTC
I looked into your eyes,
Hoping these to be true,
What I didn't see were lies.
I dreamt about you, please,
Holy Love of mine were you,
Who new loves you better than me?
Innocent they look as pure as ice,
Hopping without any rue,
When did I not see the lies?
I hoped for it to sustain long,
Hell, I didn't know they'd rust,
Where should I sing my swansong?
I trusted your romantic promise,
How you broke my trust,
Why these deceiving eyes?
I now suspect that you lie,
Hey, you can't cheat on me,
Whom new did you learn to love?
Feb 8, 2019
Feb 8, 2019 at 5:24 AM UTC
I feel so nauseated
I hate the smell
that consumes me,
but I yearn to breathe
I feel trapped and sick
when thinking about them
My desire for happiness is so strong,
my weakness is used against me
I feel poisoned,
heart against mind
I'll die of a broken heart
Jan 6, 2019
Jan 6, 2019 at 11:25 PM UTC
You'll be okay,
Take my hand and follow me into the water
Swim with me into the depths
Feel your body become the waves
Pretend to be the light that
Shimmers from above
Everything will be alright
Until you forget how to breathe
Suffocate and drown
- SkullsNBones
Dec 31, 2018
Dec 31, 2018 at 1:27 AM UTC
When she spoke
I watched her eyes
Her lips expounded love
But her eyes revealed disappointment
I resented her more
With every kind remark
Softly spoken
Behind a deceiving smile
Jun 7, 2018
Jun 7, 2018 at 2:07 AM UTC
she walked and wailed for miles, she screamed for help, but no one seems to be around.
what did she do wrong, she is always nice, always wanted to make them happy but it seems like nothing's being reciprocated.
the clouds above her head circles around,and the crows gawk at her.
what is wrong, no, what did she do wrong.
Jun 2, 2018
Jun 2, 2018 at 3:11 PM UTC
Hidden in the ultraviolet,
Unseen by most yet to be forgotten by both heaven and hell,
Memories from the futures dawn, luxury of darkness,
Spin the wool and weave the fate, this world end's by my own hand,
Break loose of the lies and get lost within legendary illusions
A world so dark, the stars so blind an alluring form refuses to fall,
Rise, from the fire hell can't hold and is afraid of,
Spread the wings and soar beyond the scene, the art of demonicy
The holiest war is waged of what our hearts are made,
Do you nest in what you feel or have felt in this realm of devilry ?
After the mirror shows you all the truths you desire,
Deceived by your eyes, who do you want to trust ?
The last judgement ends with a long journey,
The nights luxury relies within my own hand, take it!
And maybe then, I will lead you to the light your heart cries out for.
After all, the love for it is for all to engage in.
~ Umi
May 5, 2018
May 5, 2018 at 11:39 AM UTC
Our book of love is written in braille
I can read into our love story
But I am too scared to open my eyes to see it
Because one can daydream a story up in a minute
But we never want to face and see the reality of what it will be
We all want to look into that persons best attributes
But looks can be deceiving
So go with what you know
And stick to the story that is slowing being written
Because skipping a chapter will only leave the reader lost
And once lost it will be hard to be found again
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 12:07 PM UTC
As a child
You always taught me
Family was important
Regardless the situation
I can always count on family
I believed that
However
Growing up
We weren't the perfect family
I was allowed to spend time with her during the weekends
And you, well mostly grandma
The weekdays
She wasn't perfect either
But at least
Before she died
She made me felt loved
I can't believe after all these years
You made me turn my back on her
Yes she could've ****** up
Or maybe you ****** up
Well I wouldn't know would I
Cause I'm always the last one to know about something in this family
But anyhow
She still gave me that love
Even til this day
I could feel it
Always wondered if she took me with her
If we left together
If I moved away from you
How would things turn out to be
You always said that she was this
And she was that
And I wasn't even able to defend her
But now that I'm older
And I'm figuring things out
I'm figuring you out
I'm finally able to realize all the faulty measures in this family
Why they both left
Yes
You may be right one out of three
But I'm going to prove you so wrong
I thought I got my heartbroken enough by my past lover
And now that it's healed
And I'm finally able to believe and trust someone
I'm content
And then there you go
The feeling of my heart breaking
Because of you
Just saddens me
I've never said you're a bad person
I've never said you've never carried your duties and responsibilities
Yes you have and for that I thank you
But besides all that
Just because of it
You think I'm going to stick around
To tolerate the mess you created
The person you are
Years I kept in inside me
Years you put me down
Never believed in the things I do
Always assuming the worst of me
Believing the lies people feed you
Over me
And you call yourself a -
It breaks my heart to even say it
I kept it in me for years
Never said anything to anyone
Thought that maybe one day
You'd realize
But as the years go by
You're becoming worse
Bad to worse as a matter of fact
Your favourite line that you love to use on me
I finally found the person that I am able to tell my deepest secrets
Not because I want him to judge you
Even then
I'm afraid because I don't want him to create this image of what an individual you are
Because you're still that person to me
However I'm a goner
I need to let **** out
If I keep this in any longer
Trust me
I might lose my ******* head
In this whole loop
I can't trust anyone
Not you
Not them
Not anyone
I don't know what the future may hold
Yes I may be with him for the rest of my life
Or I won't
That's for Him to judge
But it's alright
Because at this exact moment
He's the person I believe in
He's the person I love
And willing to make sacrifices for
He's the person you said that's not right for me
Well you're wrong
Dead ******* wrong
He's the person, the only person
I'm able to be my complete self
Without being looked down on
I may be foolish at times
Make stupid decisions
But that doesn't perceive me as an idiot
Am I right
Or nevermind
Who am I kidding
You'd say I'm wrong
So nah
I'm leaving
Could be now
Or tomorrow
And whenever
However
When that happens
I promise you
You don't have to see my face anymore
And unlike her, she came back
Oh, how sweet
But no
I'm not her
I'm not anyone you're trying to make me be
I'm a cold-hearted, selfless *****
Only to you though
So don't worry
I treat the people I love with gentle and care
And I found my family
And that's me
Him
Friends
Some may disagree with my doing
But I make my decision
I am living this life
I get to do this
At least this
For my sake
I'm done
Good riddance
Apr 14, 2018
Apr 14, 2018 at 4:41 PM UTC
***spawning promises
deep in the pond with goldfish
the final breakdown***
Jan 31, 2018
Jan 31, 2018 at 10:34 AM UTC
Wish i could find the words without saying another bad word
to explain all the voices that my soul and brain have heard
some are a lie that caused me to cry
dealing with my problems, oh i sigh.
Built my walls too high, for no one can enter
that even i can’t reach in and fly in my main center
dealing with my demons, either if i am awake or dreamin’
i shouldn’t have believe them for they were very deceivin’
people think i’m flying through my life without feeling dying
they were all wrong for i have been trying
i see mirror here, mirror there, which one can i look at and stare
they’ve been my enemy lately, that i can’t love myself completely
i look at her, and it’s such a blur
i know it’s just a reflection but my mind sees all imperfection. compliments of perfection doesn’t help me find my direction.
in my eyes i see my true complexion
but i choose to believe my beauty is base on perception.
i still have to learn that i am worth
every living cell on this earth
that outside appearance doesn’t matter
but what’s inside is so much better.
Sep 17, 2017
Sep 17, 2017 at 1:45 PM UTC
Loudly and constantly it rings,
Drumming through my ears,
Holding me by the throat,
Slashing through my tears,
Morning it awakes me,
yet Night introduces its death,
Waking me up is its job,
Nothing holds its wrath.
Conscience, it always leads me,
Never lets me go,
Tells me all their stories,
And brings me silver and gold.
When I am ill, it cures me,
Stating my medicine and time,
Bugs me every morning,
Sour like a lime.
My heart is the biggest reminder,
Yet it cheats and lies and steals,
It goes away and comes back here,
In pieces, never still.
My heart it keeps on saying,
On and on and on,
That somethings are just not worth it,
Not worth for me to hang on.
Sep 15, 2017
Sep 15, 2017 at 6:04 AM UTC
I'll deceive you with a smile,
I'll make you stay a while.
With a superficial charm,
That can bring mighty harm.
You've only reached the surface,
My remains remain a maze.
Am I too dark for you?
A simple face, hypnotic gaze.
With twinkles in my eyes,
I wear "Innocence" as a disguise,
Secretly bitter, better yet sweet,
master manipulator to my simple conceit.
Mar 24, 2017
Mar 24, 2017 at 2:20 AM UTC