#contented
i don't have the courage
to spill my feelings
or even fight for you
but i also don't have the guts
to finally, cowardly,
and undoubtedly give you up
tethering hopelessly,
i am contented to never be,
contented within an arm's length
for i am yours to hold
but you're not mine to own.
Sep 17, 2023
Sep 17, 2023 at 2:46 PM UTC
I have been given the boon of freedom
My feet were kicking placed
upon a journey
to discover the exhilarating arctic air
upon the mountain named Independence
It wasn't my idea
to forsake the traditions of my mothers
who each built homes and took the names of men in their youth
whose strength lay in raising strong
children and learning how to be formidably equal partners
It was not my first choice
me, who had from almost infanthood
idolized love
and longed to be rescued by a darling prince
I think perhaps I was my lineage's silliest daughter
my flights of fancy almost ruined me
the cliffs of my foothills more dangerous than the peak
I now eagerly climb toward
For now I see that glittering helm
that sun graced pyramid
that promises the reward
that self-love brings
Peace
the complete rest of contentment
the gift of eternal passion
that can never be stolen
or caused to be ****** inside a desperate pairing
There is no need for a marriage of convenience
Nor a tryst of loneliness
No shackles formed from crippling self-consciousness
But only deep, thrilling, ice-cold self-acceptance
I AM whole
Jan 27, 2021
Jan 27, 2021 at 8:38 PM UTC
I want for few, as you know:
be here with you and the snow.
Dec 14, 2020
Dec 14, 2020 at 7:49 PM UTC
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Among the constellations
sail upside-down
the vessels of old men who
have risen from their
earth bound material
keeping with them the footwear
they had on in that final moment
when each saw their remains
through The Divine Mirror:
two are embracing the masts
for unrenewable security
one grips the railing, convinced
he may fall back
still another holds tightly to the
chains of his anchor
But one lies face up on the deck,
content that his reflections will
never haunt him
he holds his hand out, extending
fingers into a celestial calm,
causing wakes
a destiny uncertain,
he flings his shoes
downward—
back into the sky...
"finding grace above the seas"
© 2020 by Seranaea Jones
all rights reserved
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Oct 3, 2020
Oct 3, 2020 at 8:22 AM UTC
If I had stoped doubting
And just kept myself contented
With what you were willing to offer
Would we have not
Lost it all?
If I did not try too hard
And cried as I yearned for you
In times we were apart
Would you have stayed
In my trembling arms?
May 27, 2020
May 27, 2020 at 7:10 AM UTC
Everything that kept me awake most nights no longer bother me, all the white noise I kept hearing was gone.
They were right, it is so much harder to write about things you cannot relate to - I can no longer write poems about longing and melancholy.
This is what it feels like to be a writer who has already been healed.
I am happy.
May 15, 2020
May 15, 2020 at 2:40 PM UTC
The reality is that there is a difference between love and need.
The understanding of both is only evident when true love is found and the contrasts revealed.
Only then are hearts, minds and souls contented as one.
Apr 2, 2019
Apr 2, 2019 at 8:41 PM UTC
Maybe we're supposed to be
each other's happily ever after;
for I was lost
and I found you.
Bit by bit, I became a part of you
and you, I feared you.
You washed away my tears;
my demons, you gladly welcomed,
then and there
all I wanted was to fall into you.
These feelings, I know
should be kept in a casket;
I am starting to need you too much,
I don't want to rely on you.
You make it so easy to love you
even in the absence of harmony,
like mosaics on display.
Prosaic, we talked way too much;
we're not soulmates, but loving soullessly.
Gladly, I found you
and I'm not hoping for anything more
but for us to stay like this forever.
Nov 23, 2018
Nov 23, 2018 at 8:16 AM UTC
your sunkissed skin is touching mine
your bronze hair is wrapped around my fingers
soft laughs filled the room.
i couldn't ask anything more than that, i am happy with you.
Oct 29, 2018
Oct 29, 2018 at 10:34 AM UTC
i wrote so many times
to put my feelings down on the line
to rewire my thoughts
and provide some calmness to the mess
but i still feel alone
like the only one in this world
i know that’s not possible
yet the feeling is so strong
along these lines i realised
i truly am alone
others are just influences
but the decisions are all mine
i have not figured it out yet
but someday i will understand
that being alone is not so bad
it means that i am contented,
with myself.
Aug 13, 2018
Aug 13, 2018 at 8:05 AM UTC
Moon and stars I see tonight.
Laying outside without a fright.
Crickets is all I can hear,
That plays like music in my ear.
Mar 21, 2018
Mar 21, 2018 at 8:41 AM UTC
Hello everyone,
I'm so very sorry … I feel horrible doing this, but I have no choice. You see, I have published my first book on Amazon/Kindle! This piece (and many others) had to be taken down because they do not allow published material to be available online for free. (Go figure) I wanted to leave the shell of the posts because I felt compelled to leave all your helpful and loving comments. (Silly sentimental, I know), but I also didn't want to just have the pieces disappear without an explanation. I feel bad enough as it is!
I owe ALL of you so, SO much for all of your reads, love, and support. It was YOU that gave me the gumption to FINALLY get off my **** and publish! Thank you all for the warm comments, camaraderie, and encouragement! I will still be here, reading, uploading and just being the Rascal that I am. How could I EVER leave you guys?
The book is called “The Way I See It – FictionPhilosophySoul Food” and it will be FREE for the first few days on Kindle Select, so watch for it, if you are interested. I hope that you go and grab it. If you do, I would also hope that you find it worthy, you would leave me a good review. That will help me get in the public eye! Soon afterward (2-3 days or so), it will be available in paperback.
Find the book(s) here: www.amazon.com/author/jeff.gaines
Or find the book(s), and all about me, here: www.JeffGaines.world
Soon after, I also hope to have my first novel (a supernatural thriller), called “Wanderer” available as well!
Wish me luck!
Big, Biggest Love,
Jeff Gaines
Mar 5, 2018
Mar 5, 2018 at 7:52 AM UTC
My entire body sways
And my feet don't feel solid beneath me
I own no property
Haven't a neighbor I can see
Perhaps I can just
Make friends with the fishes
Or perhaps I will just let them be
My houseboat will have
Everything that I need;
My guitars
My notebooks
Some games
And just me
Because no one's invited
On my houseboat
Unless
They truly believe
My houseboat's
The best
Feb 13, 2018
Feb 13, 2018 at 4:14 AM UTC
never have i felt such a contented bliss
than to feel the quiet in a world such as this
to pack my belongings within my mind
and travel the world with such wonders to find
to journey across both space and time
to live in a world that is simply mine
never has such a love unfurled
within the pages of another world
Jun 15, 2016
Jun 15, 2016 at 7:28 AM UTC
Drift off
Slower than the tide
And these hazy buttercups
On this Sunday morning
Drift off
And let your fears
Spill into the current
That passes you gently along.
Melodies take me
And light guitar strings murmur
Giving flow to my stiff bones
As they sigh in the sunlight
Staring lovingly into the bluest sky
Bluer than the green water
That sings its own harmony.
Hear the birds chant
Sparks into the air
Hear the water hush
The wind that will never come today
And the chug chug chug
Of that faithful riverboat
Keeping me steadily onwards
On its warm wooden deck.
Mar 1, 2016
Mar 1, 2016 at 4:12 PM UTC
*No words can explain
This emotion, is this joy or pain?
I'm not happy but not sad either
Maybe just because of the weather?
I might be playing with words
And strumming some piano chords
Or maybe lying to myself
Telling lies until I turn deaf.
Whatever it is, I treasure what is now
I think this is contentment so I'm taking a bow.*
Dec 29, 2015
Dec 29, 2015 at 7:45 AM UTC
Its been a week
Have we stop talking?
No, it just became less
I wonder why
We've talked again
Its exaggerating but
I felt relieved
Sighing heavily
It was the greatest sigh ever
We greeted like before
I smiled ear to ear
At that moment,
I wanted to write this feeling
Imaginative and motivated
Alas, I understand now
I did write, did I made sense?
But I'm happy
That's all there is to it.
Dec 8, 2015
Dec 8, 2015 at 10:16 AM UTC
You've been caressing this pain for almost a year
Up to how much could you bear?
I haven't seen it before for you were guarded
yet you let me take a peek
and now I know everything
I know your whole being
Till now, I'm still skeptic
to whether or not should I mend
those numerous holes on your heart
cause I could sense you falling apart
I refuse to do so
without knowing you'd want me to
Now I'm all puzzled as to
what I'm supposed to do
But I guess I'd still be here to accept you
and give you a hug
and a warm hot chocolate mug
while we sit on a rug
enjoying what life could offer
Sep 8, 2015
Sep 8, 2015 at 9:15 AM UTC
Just hearing your voice is fine
I feel like i'm on cloud nine
This is for sure
My feelings are pure
Pure happiness
If ever it was sadness
The cause is your frown
I don't want to see you down
I love to hear your laughter
Rather than to see you falter
Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 12:28 PM UTC
Not half but whole you!
You can truly be the person you want.
Want is when you accept everything in yourself
Yourself that you respect and love
Love the flaws and imperfection you have.
Have the confidence; you are beautiful.
Beautiful when you let those scars take you off
Off of these pain and suffers you just light up your day
Day begins in you
You are only one!
May 31, 2014
May 31, 2014 at 1:01 PM UTC
My God is a consuming fire
Who does meet my every need
He bounds my spirit in his pocket
As he quietly watches over me
Never again will I be alone
Or far from his eyes which see
For wherever it is I am in life
He will always be close to me
He never forsakes me a moment
Of his blessed bread to eat
For my Lord provides my supper
And the spiritual drink I need
Though around me sin abounds
Each day pulling at my senses
His spirit allows my heart to see
Through all of sin’s pretenses
For my loving God, is pure life to me
Surrounding me with angelic fences
Holding me closely each and everyday
While keeping my heart very contented.
Apr 15, 2014
Apr 15, 2014 at 11:01 PM UTC