#committed
What I would do for you knows no bounds. I’m not the biggest fan of tea, and soup’s not my favorite, but I’d learn to make both, for you, because you are my everything. Whether you’re feeling under the weather or full of life, whether the skies are stormy or clear, I’d brew you a *** of warmth, whatever you need. I’d read your favorite book, no matter how many times it takes to understand why it moves you, and I’d create new stories for you to explore. Even when words fail us, and communication feels strained, I’ll be there with quiet patience, never raising my voice, always holding space for us. I’d buy your favorite candles, their soft glow a reflection of your beauty, and make sure they’re extinguished as you drift into peaceful sleep. I’d take you to your comfort place, whether it’s miles away or simply the comfort of our bedroom on a heavy, wintry day. I’d pore over endless instruction manuals, though probably only after trying and failing without them, just to figure out what you need. If I were lucky enough to see you walk down the aisle toward me one day, tears would fall, knowing my dream came true. I’d teach your daughter that no obstacle is too great, that challenges can be conquered, whether it’s as small as learning to ride a bike or as vast as navigating life itself. I’d spend hours mastering how to drive a manual car just in case I ever get the chance to teach your son. You inspire me to chase my dreams, to grow, to become the very best version of myself. For you, I’d do it all and then some.
Dec 3, 2024
Dec 3, 2024 at 7:05 AM UTC
she asked for
a birthday calendar
simplistic in design
quite endearing
nonetheless
to collate
each and every
important date
mark them down
in her neatest
clearest handwriting
she thought that
if she hung it
in pride of place
on the wall
by the kitchen door
her eye would
be drawn to it
each time
she left the room
she would not
forget to send
the appropriate message
of congratulations
and many happy returns
when needed
or expected;
yet although
the calendar may
coincidentally
be showing
the correct month
it has remained
on that page
untouched
ignored or
unheeded
for the past
eleven months
Jan 30, 2023
Jan 30, 2023 at 10:02 AM UTC
Emotions tend to turn the tide
Our thoughts and dreams are magnified
Into just a single life
Priorities are often rushed
Once committed hard to stop
Foresight is incongruous
As the route to pass multiplies
Such pressures placed upon our kind
Consumed inside collective minds
Nov 19, 2020
Nov 19, 2020 at 7:44 AM UTC
Twitterpated,
never sated,
forever fated-
It's all true.
Starry eyes,
tearful goodbyes,
loving sighs-
All for you.
And in the middle,
Pleasant dreams
Passion's screams
Strange and silly things-
A love as deep as the ocean blues.
So till tomorrow,
And thru the days
Your lips I'll crave,
Your name I'll praise-
Never a single day I'll rue-
For true love's pairing
Is no red herring,
And deeply caring-
I live for you.
May 19, 2020
May 19, 2020 at 10:49 AM UTC
I am Heaven
I am Peace
Life Love
Fear
Hurt
Pain
Sadness
I am Sadistically Committed to Being Peacefully Happy
Dec 12, 2019
Dec 12, 2019 at 4:52 PM UTC
You’re drowning yourself,
In fear and doubt,
But too scared to sink,
So you held out one arm,
Waiting for someone to reach it,
To pull you up,
And it hurts to feel,
No touch on your cold skin.
A tragedy indeed,
Ocean of tears,
With no boat around,
Only your feet,
To keep you afloat,
A death wish,
Partially committed.
Oct 6, 2019
Oct 6, 2019 at 11:47 PM UTC
You told me,
You can't love me because you've lost your commitment.
But that's a lie
Because you've always been committed
Not with me,
But to your past lover.
Jul 8, 2019
Jul 8, 2019 at 2:53 PM UTC
you,
and me,
we are,
unified souls,
simply, united,
an unbreakable set,
underway, sailing,
like ship and sea,
this two-way street,
you,
and me,
we are,
us. [one].
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 10:02 AM UTC
I've been searching for the source of these emotions
Because jealousy and other things
Are typically a result of your own perceptions
And it took me awhile to figure it out
I lost some blood along this unknown path
But then I came upon the answers
Because of something my best friend said
And now it all makes sense
I have always had a problem
With investing too much of myself into love
I begin identifying too strongly with the relationship
And any roadblocks feel as though
My entire universe is crashing before me
And looking at this one here
I've done the exact same thing
When we were first together
I told you I needed to continue working on myself
In order to avoid giving you all of my energy
And as soon as I stopped doing that
I fell into old habits
So it makes sense why I feel entirely crazy these days
Why I can consciously recognize that
You having another partner isn't the end of my world
Because you still love me
And I love you undyingly
Yet I still had overwhelming negative cognitions
That made me feel like dying
And now I realize that
In order to deal with these feelings
I have to focus on me again
Recognize that I need to improve myself
For myself
And then this will get easier
Thankfully it already has
Because I love you so much more
When I'm taking care of myself
Because instead of feeling like I have
No real choice but to stay
It now feels like a beautiful privilege
And it truly is
Mar 17, 2018
Mar 17, 2018 at 5:58 AM UTC
I have a hard time with differentiation
Between getting coffee
And let's demolish 3 bottles of wine!
Between getting inspired
And let's spend holidays seeing the country in a van!
Between getting butterflies
And let's kiss on the face right now!
Surely,
There must be spectrums I can bisect
Splitting
Platonic Love from Romantic
Sensory from Sensual
And Casual from Committed
But they are not immediately apparent to me.
Regardless of type
All ships must be properly cared for,
So I will patch the holes
Man the sails,
And try not to rock the boats
Too terribly hard.
Nov 3, 2017
Nov 3, 2017 at 8:32 PM UTC
Teeth bit more than they could chew
Hands grabbed more than they could hold
Shoulders lifted more than they could carry
Words mean more than they could've told
Legs travelled more than they could run
Mind thought more than it could fathom
Body gave more than it could afford
Heart paid more than it could ransom
Nov 2, 2016
Nov 2, 2016 at 10:10 AM UTC
Those who aren't scared of fear
Can protect everything dear
Hence the reason you hold them near
Call 'em dear or baby
The picture of a man
Or a photo of the perfect lady
It's you I choose
I accept the concequence of win or lose
Putting all my eggs in the basket
My nervousness
I wish I could mask it
Now I laugh at it
It's just proof
Of the truth of my words
So if your a little bit scared
It means you are prepared
To take that journey
To seek that fact
You stepped over the line
Of no turning back
Mar 16, 2016
Mar 16, 2016 at 2:07 AM UTC
To Taste it
Feel It
embrace it
has set my
life to another level
you are exotic
I am addicted
I am committed
I am so high
head is to the sky
I want an apple pie
after we done
making love
I am a dove
I fly high
above the sky
I cannot lie
you are my favorite guy
By: ZainaMusic
Aug 25, 2015
Aug 25, 2015 at 9:30 PM UTC
I washed her
from my pillow-slips.
In a white plastic bucket
I soaked away her body's breath,
and with bleach removed
the evidence she had left.
We snatched the time
to make our marks
with sweat and
firm commitments.
The stains on stolen sheets
proved easier to erase
than those she ground into
the fabric of my room,
I watched as
traces of our time
together
turned the water dark.
May 25, 2015
May 25, 2015 at 3:55 PM UTC
I'm a player, I'm the best.
I've played you, her and the rest.
That's what you thought.
I proved you wrong when I opened my chest.
You saw me with depth, an open heart.
You gave me yours.
It was open from the start.
A heart hurt too many times.
You told me you can't take another.
A heart held together with vines.
This was the tricky part.
The first time in my life.
I saw a future of treasure.
A glimpse of this lady, my wife.
I felt safe like I was where I needed to be.
I promised my self I'd do you no harm.
To cause you pain would be to cut off my own limb.
I've been waiting all my life to find someone worthy to commit my life to.
So I committed myself to you and you threw me away.
You told me honestly what you wanted and needed.
I gave it to you and more.
But you were after what you had before.
Cling to him with guilt.
Cling to him till you rott.
Cling to him lifelessly.
Cling to him lovelessly.
Cling to him endlessly.
Until one day it all falls apart.
You've proven untrustworthy.
You've proven betrayal.
You've proven sly words.
You've used tears to get your way.
You've promoted falses so fake.
Gemini construct you might break.
You've cheated.
Me, him and your self from happiness.
Mar 17, 2015
Mar 17, 2015 at 9:07 PM UTC
Softness of her nervous slim hands,
Ostensibly glad meeting me she was.
For so many happy days yet to come,
Again not letting differences pop-up,
Rosy blush dropping in her cheeks.
Yes that makes her look even cuter,
Exceptionally cute she is so beautiful,
Tomorrow our baby will be even cuter.
Ship of combined life we sail in together,
On time we'll make it to the destination.
Casting bright shadows of ours we tread,
Looping circle of happiness we rejoice,
Of our feelings we are worshippers,
Setting the same destination from different roads,
Earning trust, respect, love, sensuality & care as we go on.
Mar 19, 2015
Mar 19, 2015 at 9:59 AM UTC
When we’re truly betrothed to Him,
we can’t help, but divinely succeed;
Christ’s not a Man that He should lie
and He’s promised to meet our needs.
Are we, not more important than birds
found about the land, trees and air?
Are we better clothed than flowers?
Are we committed to Him and His care?
Are we not made after God’s image?
As His Children, are we responsible,
for applying The Word to our lives?
Are we spiritually irresponsible?
We’re accountable for understanding
how to divinely develop and grow.
Spiritual progression doesn’t allow
us to blindly accept the status quo!
The Day of Judgment is still coming.
Will you be seen as a goat or sheep?
Are you joined to the True Vine or
will your soul burn on Hell’s heap?
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Author Notes
Inspired by:
Num 23:19; Prov 16:3; Matt 6:25-34, 25:31-46
Learn more about me and my poetry at:
http://amzn.to/1ffo9YZ
By Joseph J. Breunig 3rd, © 2014, All rights reserved.
Dec 18, 2014
Dec 18, 2014 at 9:21 AM UTC
Welcome to my Sunday Night.
12:50 AM
Wide awake from the adderall
I swallowed to chase my need
for achievement
1:03
After Achieving approximately
zero
of my work
I find myself fully indulging
In the little
teenaged
demon
on my shoulder.
As she encourages
The Rapid Fire
of
Clicks
That lead to your
Facebook Page
1:04
I'm paging through photos of your
lovers past
I
Stop
and
Stare
at Her
And So begins
The Laundry List
of comparisons
She has a better jawline than mine.
Her eyes are browner than mine?
Her gaze is Piercing
She's so edgy
She's so original
She's basically
Perfect
1:35
At this point
I've
Paced
Approximately 205 Circles
Around My Room
Listed
About 80 Reasons
Why she's Better than me
Crawled
Into a Fetal Position
Of Panic
Concluded
That I could
Never
Make You as Happy as She Did
Wondered
How I could have been so
Foolish
Concocted
37 Schemes for Finding
A Way Out
Imagined
You calling her
"Baby"
Over
and
Over
and
Over
and
Over
Cried
Searching for the emotions I'd gambled
Like Poker Chips
Throwing them all in,
as a Sentiment to my
Commitment
1:40
I'm Asking Myself
1:41
How would I ever give him what he needed?
1:42
How could I be the Girl he'd end up with?
1:43
Why would I believe that I was right for him?
Each minute delivering haymaker Questions,
Each more crushing than the last.
And as my mind prepared for its Nightly Death
I Pause.
1:45
Checking the date that these photos found Origin
1:46
Approximately
3 Years
Since it was all over.
3 Years since the last
I
Love
You
Post
More than 2 Years since
The last photo that his eyes
Sang
Genuine Love Songs.
3 Years that
Their hearts had not been
beating each others names.
1:47
My Brain drags back
The Questions of Before
Torturing Me.
1:48
But Suddenly
There's a **** inside me
My heart is playing
defense
1:49
How Could I give him what he wanted?
Because my heart beats for the seconds in which your smile resides.
Because I'll accept nothing less than what you deserve, sun and stars alike.
1:52
How could I be the girl he'd end up with?
Because 3 Years is enough time to refine your tastes.
Because I'm in love with you today, and today you kissed me
With your eyes closed.
Because that smile doesn't belong to her anymore.
1:55
Why would I believe that I was right for him?
Because you deserve someone to love you like only I can.
Because I am a fighter.
I fight for what's right.
And every part of me is fighting for us.
Because I will not be driven away by shadows that
leave
as Darkness Descends.
I am there in the nights when
goosebumps
chill.
I am there when
I can only be
felt.
I am there
to create a smile that
can only be
heard.
Who are you to believe so strongly in a pipe dream?
2:00
I am the hopeless romantic.
2:05
I am the one whose got nothing left to lose.
2:10
I am the one who wears that title as a Badge of Honor.
2:15
I am the one who will fight the world in protection of that tribute.
2:20
With every swipe of my pen in a
love letter
2:30
With every kiss
fueled like a
right hook
2:40
With every second
shoving toward making
You Happy
2:50
Who are you to claim him
"yours"?
I'm the one who refuses to get lazy with time.
I'm the one who will never say things out of spite.
I'm the one who has committed to their joy.
3:00
Who am I?
I'm the girl who will show him how to be loved.
That's ******* who.
Sep 29, 2014
Sep 29, 2014 at 3:52 AM UTC
He's never there
she doesnt care.
ashamed they both are
it could leave a scar.
this made me feel so low
so i thought i should just go.
like they say in rome
there's no place like home.
i tried to off myself i felt so responsible
but sadly i just ended up in the ******* hospital.
crazy place i went where the time well spent
went home where nothing changed not even a dent.
a year later i had an anniversary
ha.. got me needing a nursery.
but here i am
not giving a ****
but still thinking of ways
to spent most days.
and still thinking of plans
to end my demands.
Jun 28, 2014
Jun 28, 2014 at 5:08 AM UTC
he found her with a bottle of pills clutched tightly in white knuckled fingers
her eyes were fallen shut and he was so tempted to leave her resting peacefully, she looked so beautiful
but after a moment
(m o m e n t .)
he realized that the girl who ran though his mind, chasing butterflies each day
h a d c o m m i t t e d s u i c i d e .
she always spoke about how she wanted to stroke an angel's wings
to see if they were truly as soft as they merely appeared.
her limp body lay, spread out, her hair spilling over her pillow,
anyone else might have believed she was just a sleeping beauty
but he knew.
a wretched, throat-bleeding scream filled his ears, one so full of agony and heartbreak that he fell to his knees
it took him a second of agony to realize the teeth grinding screech was coming from h i s lips.
Jun 19, 2014
Jun 19, 2014 at 6:22 PM UTC
Fear screams for my attention as I walk away
Her bitter heart broken by an ex lover
She took the time to dress up
Just to be put down in a hurry
She gets the seat farthest form my heart because Fear can not afford front row
All she wants is to be looked into her eyes
To be told those beautiful words that hold unconditional truths
She guides me places I could not go alone and fulfills my greatest dreams
But Fear is the ***** of my appreciation
The first to greet me into her home and the last to say goodbye
However I am too scared to commit
…because Fear just wants to be loved.
Fear’s soul mate is Love but he is in lust with Infatuation
Jun 17, 2014
Jun 17, 2014 at 6:12 PM UTC
I wrote a poem for my biography to a special person about Adam, I thought you would like to read it.
Blue Heart
You were 18, so many years in front of you.
It felt like a dark eternity, you didn’t want to go.
I saw it in your sunken eyes.
The vacant stare and sad dark eyes.
I saw when you were sitting around the table prom night.
So much going around but you were too calm
too collected.
too inside your mind for us.
I knew that blank expression from experience
All too well.
You screamed for help
silent and loud
I reached for your hand
but you
f
e
l
l
You were poised and calm
Broken but full of love.
All I wanted to do was help you.
you were standing still when the world went on
and it did go on, it did, without you.
When you were standing there at the edge
I wondered about you, all in my head.
We were short lived, a friendship that was fast.
You came, changed me, then you left.
it came and went in a flash.
I knew when no one else could guess.
you put it all on me, didn’t you.
but I was not cross with you.
Heartbroken, yes
scared, yes
alone, yes
mad, no
Your color was blue
Blue heart, blue veins
Blue is the color of our planet
from far far away
we wore it proud it was all for you,
a blue solemn silence.
and the world spun fast and
all the people hurried fast, real fast
and no one ever smiled.
You weren’t all there, in that head of yours.
dark and empty
you were sad but you lived like you would die
tomorrow
tomorrow came too soon and it was up to you.
it was always up to you.
Meeting you was bitter
you put me through stress, anxiety and heartache
you put me through shame and shock
All I wanted was you by my side,
and you there was not.
Meeting you was sweet
you gave me smiles and laughs,
good music and thoughts
you gave me a feeling of friendship and care.
All I wanted was you by my side,
but you were not there.
You were poised and calm,
you rubbed off on me.
I was hyped and excited
you called me “ADHD”
You drove an old red beater with water bottles everywhere,
with **** in the glove compartment.
but you didn’t care.
Your drove with sunglasses and the FM radio loud.
You drove in silence, thinking no doubt.
You loved the sun but you would hike for the shade
when we were together you took me away.
I didn’t think, I didn’t have nerves.
We talked about the world
We talked about life
You had a life you thought you didn’t deserve.
Whoever planted that seed
had some **** nerve
you wrote like me but I wrote for myself
you wrote for us when there’d be nothing else.
I knew when no one else could guess.
you put it all on me, didn’t you.
but I was not mad.
Heartbroken, yes
scared, yes
alone, yes
mad, no
When you were gone
I read
and
I read
i wanted to know exactly when
you felt what you felt.
You called me your jav friend
you called me your angel
You are up there watching over me
I yelled and screamed
I couldn’t breathe.
I shut them out,
I cursed at you.
I hated you
I cried for you
I only see you in my head
Dreaming once and a while of your smile,
of your eyes
but they are never dark
they are never sad
they are never empty
The vacant stare is not there.
your hair is a giant mess
and I freeze that moment right there.
You said you were alone
you said it was a secret
you asked me about my darkest
and you told me all your secrets
I have never been in that much peace knowing I kept you there
It felt like moments when it was hours and you were gone too **** soon.
tomorrow came too fast and it was up to you.
it was always up to you.
Now I wear a band on my wrist
and pray for your peace
that is all I have left,
but you mean so much to me.
I hope you are happy,
I hope your journey has ended
and you found what you wanted
My heart was once broken
but soon if all this is true
it will be mended.
May 27, 2014
May 27, 2014 at 1:27 PM UTC
I'm an *** of a friend, and I sowwy.
Waking you up for my problems, I know.
Always bugging you about my insecurities.
I swear, wrecking you life's not my goal.
I get mad at you when I have dog days.
And I'm too shy, to pummel those who talk ****
But I swear to you, this is not what I'm trying to do.
This is not what you deserve.
This is not what you should get.
You never whine to me.
I don't know how you keep things confined,
but ya know, maybe im wrong.
Maybe there is no sorrow inside.
What I'm trying to say is..
thank you for being there.
For holding me up ALLL the time.
Thank you and you're the best,
I would always offer up,
and break you out,
if you committed crime
Apr 27, 2014
Apr 27, 2014 at 6:30 PM UTC