#commitmentissues
Some of my thoughts feel like an arranged marriage— yeah,
I never really signed up for that. But that’s the signature of it,
where they only love to leave their mark.
Where gospel gets mixed with gossip— Matthew, Luke, John,
and Mark, not in the right order, so much like the words in my
thoughts.
And not everyone takes a word of advice well, when the language
sounds foreign to their ears. I talk to myself in tongues of fear,
translating silence into sermons no one hears.
Doomed to hope— a hopeful romantic still searching for
a stranger’s thirst to share in; two dry hearts, small talk and static.
How intimate, how sensuous, the touch of mastering fingers
with no questions left unanswered— or maybe no answers left
to questions. Being that direct: an arrow for a heart,
a bow pulled taut by friction. It takes pressure to apply
the brakes, but lately, it’s the breaks that pull me apart.
The peril of possession is the thrill of it, divided by whatever
title we’re giving it— _situationship, relationship, companionship_—
each one feels like a subscription that’s bound to expire.
And marriage in my head is split in two,
Like every vow I never quite meant.
Perhaps this was never a poem on love— just a confession from
a man whose thoughts and feelings still have commitment issues.
Oct 17, 2025
Oct 17, 2025 at 2:29 AM UTC
my heart soars in the clouds
but i fear it is icarus
and it’s beating will cease
before it melts and falls to the ground
for it only soared because of her
and any flight my heart had before
ended in a crash
never before has my heart hit the clouds
maybe the tops of trees
but any fall leaves marks
and a fall for her
would end in death
Apr 30, 2024
Apr 30, 2024 at 5:18 AM UTC
I am passion, fire and willpower personified. The tongue inside my mouth try to swallow words that don’t agree with my brain. It fails.
They are calmness, earth, and control personified. Able to trust their brain and heart, they know when to take shelter. When the fire gets too hot.
They thought they had me figured out. That they were my opposite and the perfect element to balance me out without smothering me like water or adding fuel like air.
I always found a way to escape
Jun 9, 2021
Jun 9, 2021 at 12:04 AM UTC
Quit the "if only"s
Say that you want me
Baby we ain't got the time
No more excuses
Baby let's choose us
It could be the time of our lives
I'd rather regret you than regret my alibi
May 6, 2020
May 6, 2020 at 1:31 PM UTC
I fear living for someone
centring someone in my universe
I fear not not wanting to be alone
constant noise in my silence
I fear wasting my time on someone
putting my life on hold for them to leave
I fear a lifetime of small talk
being a product of their routines and races
I fear not finding belonging
not being in control
I fear the prison of my mind
never finding the person I don't fear with
I fear not being special in the insignificance
never being not afraid to be vulnerable
I fear only existing
Nov 10, 2018
Nov 10, 2018 at 4:44 PM UTC
look
the thing is
i'm not a sociopath
i don't hate you
i'm not angry
no
i'm not a lesbian
or asexual
or something
i just
can't commit
my parents never taught me
what a healthy relationship
should look like
because they don't know
and so i've only ever been
wronged
and i need you to understand
that i like you
i think you're cute
and the way your hair
perfectly
complements your face
is beautiful
and oh my goodness
your laugh is
like
a tune
i could play for hours
and not get annoyed
or tired
but i know
that because i'm hurt
i might hurt you
by not
loving you
the way i should
and not
committing
to you
like you deserve
Dec 3, 2017
Dec 3, 2017 at 7:37 PM UTC
You're the smartest person I know
Also the dumbest, because you keep making stupid decisions and take stupid actions
The biggest one being falling in love with me
This inevitably makes you not only dumb, but an idiot
Since I'm a selfish person, I can't help but take advantage
So with every passionate kiss we share, I'll take a little more of your soul till one day you'll end up a dried out shell on some unknown beach.
Simply because I wanted a little more than you should ever give.
You're also an idiot for not realizing what you do to me.
What having your love does to me. I’m obsessed and I’m no longer functioning properly because all I want to do is be with you.
Want to feel your caress on my hands, your timid kisses. I want everything
So I’ll give you my all. Give you all of me.
Afraid of one day leaving you for a new adventure, leaving you only with false hope
As soon as the wind blows and the leaves turn I- I got to go
You made me realize: All I do is leave people
Beautiful, sweet people that don’t deserve to be left
And I never want to leave you, but I’m not sure if I can help it.
It’s not like a fairytale where you as the knight comes and rescues the damsel in distress.
I’m neither a distressed damsel nor a fair lady who needs to be saved and crowned princess, and will never be.
I destroyed my tower and ran away all on my own.
When you found me in the forest of the ****** I needed love, and I needed hope.
You gave that to me.
I hope I can return it.
Jan 21, 2017
Jan 21, 2017 at 12:44 PM UTC
On one hand,
You're seeping in
To the most delicate
And untouched parts of my soul,
On the other,
My organs inside
Are like dry rough bark
Anyone who comes near
Is sent away with scratches on their heart,
I want to feel my whole insides become wet,
capable of unconditional love,
But I fear myself.
Many men have tried
to roll like sweet honey into my heart
Once my drunkeness has worn off
Or the initial thrill has dimmed
I scrape them off like a bug from my shoe.
When you look at me it is different,
When you look,
I can feel you seeing inside my soul in a way I can't hide,
Still I try.
I have no abandonment issues,
Or low self esteem,
I am just truly and simply a bird
When I see a cage
I become concerned.
Mar 11, 2016
Mar 11, 2016 at 11:19 AM UTC
i let
my lips
get chapped on purpose
so i wont
be tempted
to kiss you
on our date tonight
i let my hands get dry and cracked
so i will have no problem in keeping them folded on my lap
i took some heavy blows to the knees
so if i dont want to walk very far with you there will be no rational reason to be angry at me
and i would show and tell you all of these things to drive you away
but i know that you dont care
youre the first boy thats ever been in love with my mind
(beautiful, right?)
and im not scared to the point that i would be willing to self-destruct
(i am a little bit more logical than that, i value my thoughts more than that
they're the only thing i have power over, anyway)
youre the first one that has ever encouraged me to do what i love
(and maybe i love you for that)
Sep 4, 2014
Sep 4, 2014 at 12:25 PM UTC
Don't try to hold my hand (because I'm a jellyfish)
Love is like lightning,
Beautiful from a distance,
But just wait till you're struck by it
Don't try to hold my hand (because I'm a jellyfish)
Sep 3, 2014
Sep 3, 2014 at 3:57 AM UTC