#commit
the apartment rearranges itself
while I make coffee
mugs migrate
like small countries with fragile borders
I find a receipt folded
into the shape of a promise
and it smells faintly of winter
there is a moth on the lampshade
with a passport and a stubborn itinerary
my tongue keeps rehearsing
sentences that never learn to land
a thermostat argues with the sun
and both of them are wrong about comfort
I press my ear to the radiator
to hear what heat remembers
a stray sock
has become a monument
to decisions I postponed
I count the minutes between breaths
as if they were loose coins
the hallway light blinks Morse code
for impatience
I imagine a ledger
where small betrayals are tallied in pencil
the pencil keeps breaking
and I keep sharpening the same regret
a neighbor's laugh
ricochets like a coin
down a stairwell
and I follow it out of habit
my reflection
in the kettle looks like someone
who has been practicing being careful
there is a bruise
on my calendar where a day used to be
I try to staple time
back together and the stapler refuses to cooperate
a playlist plays songs
that have never been written, only remembered
I fold my hands
into the shape of a question and they refuse to be polite
the window
holds a map of rain
that never quite decides to arrive
I tuck a thought into my pocket
and it grows impatient
the city hums
under its breath
a machine learning how to forgive
I misplace the word
that would make this honest
and find instead a crooked compass
it points toward a grocery store
and a childhood memory I did not order
I practice saying small truths
until they stop sounding like rehearsals
the lamp blinks once
like an apology and then keeps working
I set down a cup
and the table remembers
the weight of other hands
there is a quiet negotiation
between my ribs and the idea of moving on
I do not promise anything grand
only that I will keep noticing
the way light learns to be patient
and that tonight
I will let the moth keep its passport
and the receipts keep their winter
Jan 24
Jan 24, 2026 at 11:17 AM UTC
perfume samples at the airport
lukewarm bite-size samples at Costco
the first chapter of an ebook.
a whiff, a taste, a peek.
do you want more?
will you commit to buying the full product?
or will you keep searching?
chasing? craving?
it seems to be inexplicably conditional -
for some, you’ll stop dead in your tracks,
knowing to stock up.
for many, you’ll move on,
forgetting you ever halted to try it.
but maybe you’ll remember how it felt,
deep-down it resonated with you,
and it’ll affect your other future decisions.
what makes us fall in love?
what makes us tether,
souls tied,
minds aligned,
keep choosing to fall with each other?
Jul 14, 2024
Jul 14, 2024 at 5:41 AM UTC
When I utter commit, I mean to dedicate
First to Him, that gave my full birthright
And two to myself, the reason to create,
My commitment is my responsibility
I choose to commit, perhaps you may not admit
I want to melt my fears, thyself to acquit
Realize my valour, to knit again my grit
My commitment is my responsibility
I commit to trust my inner instinct,
Lest I stumble and be called extinct
I will teach me to always be prinked
My commitment is my responsibility
I commit my business to what is real
Perhaps people will get dull
Maybe I will find my answers in the baffle
And get busy making my now life blissful
For my commitment is my responsibility
Apr 3, 2021
Apr 3, 2021 at 2:44 PM UTC
it seems Prez Grinch, has a job to commit
it's that time of year, we have to admit
turkey pardoning is indeed a big thing
Prez Grinch just loves it as he thinks he's a king
the turkey is chosen and brought to the garden
it struts and it clucks and Prez says ”Your Pardoned”...
Brian Hill - 2020 # 322
Nov 24, 2020
Nov 24, 2020 at 10:37 AM UTC
Smiles and laughters, tears of joy
Companion, friendship, negatives destroy
Growth and challenges, positives rejoice
Memories and moments, time flies, enjoy
Taken for granted, un-noticed, un-seen
Always complaining, the best is not seen
Thankful, complete, un-heard off, extinct?
Open your eyes and use ur instinct
Live the now, its happening its legit
Remove the blinders, be happy, commit
Oct 30, 2020
Oct 30, 2020 at 4:48 AM UTC
Christmas is over
New year has begun
Not sure I'm ready for another one
Done all the things I resolved not to do
The lights blazing down
Time just flew
The world looks newer than before
Burning bright with colors galore
Feel it turn as I go through my day
Long years behind
Short ones on the way
Lighting life with the glow from ahead
Steps have went the wrong way instead
Branch is just too high to reach
Consumed in never-ending breach
The flame marks the proper route
Spells cast make it hard to get out
When my foot bravely goes to tread
Suddenly cells are made of lead
My fire drags me the opposite direction
Everglow remains in the darkest section
Memories of long ago linger in my head
Love I lost
Can't let go of
Remains in words unsaid
When asked my resolution I always respond
"Stop saying yes to things I am of rather not fond"
Of course I never commit and fail within a week
I try nonetheless though my attempt is too weak
Jun 16, 2020
Jun 16, 2020 at 11:14 AM UTC
We're afraid to live.
We're afraid to die.
We're afraid to try.
We're afraid of what happens if we don't try.
We're afraid to love.
We're afraid to commit.
We're afraid people think we're full of ****
We're afraid of the truth.
We're afraid to lie.
We're afraid people will think we're weak if they see us cry.
We're afraid to feel.
We're afraid of fear.
But knowledge is power.
So now that you know what you fear,
what are you going to do about it right now? Right here?
Apr 14, 2019
Apr 14, 2019 at 9:21 PM UTC
_i'm committed to you and only you. no one else matters._
Oct 10, 2019
Oct 10, 2019 at 1:15 PM UTC
We don’t put a label on it
Because we don’t want to fit
And commit.
We keep it fun and chill;
Nothing serious
No consequences
No future
Nothing romantic
Trying to keep it platonic.
Doesn’t it sound ironic?
Because I am frantic
About you, boy.
Trying to be ice cold
Pretending we are something,
when we’re nothing.
I am losing my mind.
You play these games
Trying to make me insecure
About all these other girls.
So I play along
Because it’s love,
Maybe not long lasting
But real.
But we’re just spiraling
No end; not infinite
I guess I can not pretend
For I don’t want to be this type of girl.
I want to us to burn;
Our hearts to yearn
Our souls to learn.
I want attachment,
Security and stability.
I want it to be long lasting
And not a temporary fling
Jul 24, 2019
Jul 24, 2019 at 10:27 AM UTC
Commitment.
Who says it’s going to be easy?
It’s not, and never be easy.
When you commit to someone, that means the world is not about you anymore. You’re no longer the main character. There will be him.
When you commit to someone, you don’t wake up to scroll Instagram, you will have someone to be updated.
When you commit to someone, you will arrange your schedules, there will be no time for you to be selfish for yourself, you will share what you have with him.
When you commit to someone, you will try hard to connect with him, and that means you need to adjust things, and maybe you lose yourself in it.
When you commit to someone, you will not jog by yourself, maybe he will accompany you or busy in your kitchen, making you a breakfast.
When you commit to someone, you will feel love, but you need to return the same amount of love to him, or even bigger.
And that hurts.
That’s not an easy job.
May 29, 2019
May 29, 2019 at 1:33 PM UTC
How I feel right now doesn’t matter.
‘Cause I’ll say I’m ok.
Yet still I’m wondering why do you love me?
It feels... I feel so out of place.
I know you’re looking for answers lovie
But I don’t know what to say to you.
I’m holding, dearly, my bad emotions.
Last night in the shore we killed that scene.
Whatever I was feeling it.
Now my alarm clock wakes from the dream
And reality’s back, I gotta deal with it.
All of these strangers became new friends.
New stories wrote with old pens.
Same picture seen with a new lens.
But that was only for the weekend.
Drunk nights get remembered more than sober ones.
I just can’t remember how the night begun.
Order up, I don’t know from where these drinks came,
But I know that I remember those strippers by their real names.
Jody? Maxine?
It’s all the same, they were pawns in my fantasy.
Damn….did I say that?
I’m just lost and I’m tryna find my way back.
But instead I found my way into your bed
Now I’m thinking about everything you whispered in my head like
“I been searching for you my whole life.”
“I think I wanna be your wife.”
And none of that even computes.
I can’t imagine me settling down, laying the roots.
I gotta slip out of here before
You wake up and read the note I left on your drawer.
‘Cause I know you’ll be full of questions
And I’ll have to be real and give you my confession
That I know you’re looking for answers lovie
But I don’t know what to say to you.
I’m holding, dearly, my bad emotions.
Oct 23, 2018
Oct 23, 2018 at 6:30 PM UTC
You are my forbidden fruit
- the sweetest sin
I repeatedly commit.
And I have no plans to stop
- because the heart that loves
will never go adrift.
Sep 4, 2018
Sep 4, 2018 at 9:25 PM UTC
Never good...
They're all heavy dreamers, spewing out promises like its a fvckin rap verse
and when it's time to pull through, excuses are their favourite hooks..
Struggling artists never wake up, they stay stuck and damage you with a glue gun in the process,
hard part is you always think that you're in love and you always go back, it's like abuse.
Jun 2, 2018
Jun 2, 2018 at 4:19 PM UTC
was it worth it?
to feel something? just for ten ******* minutes,
to feel something?
i can't look at you, Conchúr,
you repulse me.
every crocodile tear and shark-fucking-smile,
with your smug little laugh,
and your meaningless words -
you weave them together,
constructing vast fantasies and empty promises -
how many people have you trapped,
in your wide and selfish net?
oh! but you've always been so good with words.
and may that be the death of you,
because you deserve hell for your sins:
one eternity is not black enough for creatures like you.
lies, lust, pain - that's your bread and butter.
you never were good at much else,
but ****** you are good at hurting
those around you, the ones who care.
she was right to get rid of you,
especially when she did,
because look how far you've come!
when was it... only last night you tried again,
didn't you? you thought no one was looking,
but they all have eyes, and someone will find out.
they'll see your scars (remember to keep it below the belt next time, buddy, okay?),
or they'll see the blood (god, how it gushed after all that dancing - i thought you were a goner),
or they'll find your pathetic little poems,
gathering dust on some forgotten corner of the internet,
where your heart is too bare,
and its blackness is plain to see.
what then? will it be worth it then?
to express something? just to try and put your life in words,
to express something?
"oh look at you, you poor thing,
you've been so hard done by..."
********
this is your fault,
and you deserve every last ounce of hurt.
Mar 14, 2018
Mar 14, 2018 at 10:14 PM UTC
Let me be a little kinder
Let me be a little blinder
To the faults of those about me
Let me praise a little more
Let me be when I am weary
Just a bit more cheery
Let me serve a little better
Those that I am striving for.
Let me be a little braver
When temptation bids me waver
Let me strive a little harder
To be a little smarter
To ensure others of commitment
Let me be a little meeker
With the other who is weaker
Thinking more of others feelings
Than all my own dealings
To be the Foundation that one can rest on.
Feb 24, 2018
Feb 24, 2018 at 10:40 AM UTC
what to do when you committed yourself to someone who won’t commit themselves to you?
they never loved you the way you loved them
maybe they don’t even deserve the way you loved them
saying that makes your heart hurt though,
how to look right at the face of the one who crushed your heart
and not want the entire world for them
how to stop wishing they’d be okay
that they would be happy again
how to stop wishing for the past
when they giggled and smiled and said “it’s because of you”
how to forget the tone in their voice when they said “i love you too”
How
if you figure it out write it down on a paper and send it to me too
words i need to know more than i need her to be true
Dec 29, 2017
Dec 29, 2017 at 2:13 AM UTC
Here it is my letter for you;
I promise to be caring...
I promise to be loyal...
I promise to be honest...
I promise to be considerate...
I promise to guide you...
I promise to hairs your heart...
I promise to laugh at you...
And I promise to tell you everything...
But I can't sign this for you...
It can't be official...
The things that have been done
Make me not able to commit
I can't promise I'll tell you everything
I would only see you fall if I did
So this letter has to remain...
unsigned.
Nov 11, 2017
Nov 11, 2017 at 12:02 AM UTC
I'll give her all the room she needs
and not pressure or complain
let her flowers bloom each day
she won't have to tell me why
or otherwise, explain
I'll give up greater distance
to sooth and protect, her smile
all her feminine and sultry ways
no reason, does she have to give
as she maintains, her **** style
Distance only made of space
near or far, a matter of degrees
wandering in periphery, upon the edge
I'll keep myself in silent check
no questions, petitions, and/or pleas
I'll not forget my promise
I'll hold tight, the words I've said
until my days are come and gone
I'll be ever bound and confined
past the day, that I, am dead
Oct 24, 2017
Oct 24, 2017 at 3:05 PM UTC
i wanted to learn your thoughts. like an astrologer studying the stars. seeking answers in the mystic. the unknown. to observe in pure adoration. i wanted to tattoo my name across your skin. a mark with a meaning. and memory. but you are tattoo shy. and you do not believe in the power of the universe. you do not commit. and so, i left. full of too many unanswered prayers. wishes gone un-granted. i left. maybe you were not supposed to be my next adventure.
Apr 17, 2017
Apr 17, 2017 at 2:28 PM UTC
People don't really remember, all the words
just the bits and pieces
Ya can't really memorize a book
with all it's bends, and creases
Snippets, fragments, and shards
in memory committed
Awakened by a chance listened word
and mentally, admitted
Who really keeps every line
of every story ever read
but, bring it to front each time
a certain word, is said
Keys for the locks
ones that, may trigger dreams
like a skull with ticking clocks
and what, that really means
Mar 20, 2017
Mar 20, 2017 at 1:58 PM UTC
You **** lady
I'm sweating
And feeling butterflies
Inside those thighs
The things that I feel
Ain't inside these guys
I seek to earn
They learn to buy
So in that moment
I can look you in the eye
Know what I know
Let these things by
Nov 26, 2016
Nov 26, 2016 at 2:57 AM UTC
Committed isn't for everyone,
is commitment for you?
Because you might
just be my forever;
Under your spell,
I'm hyptonized,
but hyptonized
never meant blind.
Sep 10, 2016
Sep 10, 2016 at 11:49 PM UTC