#comedown
Pretext, reason — short wire season,
Coke cans, cigarettes — lollipop wraps,
Numbers, thoughts — sour cola rots,
Tailspin, axe — GoPro mount tracks,
Sweaty, tight — the frame is in sight!
Rag, hat — chilly slippers where I'm at,
Almost, take note — reread what I wrote,
Struggling, take on, shooting, comedown.
Chaos, cheap rug — total arthouse.
7d ago
May 27, 2026 at 9:34 AM UTC
my mouth hung like an overwhelmed option
i swivel at the window facing
and stay out the entire day in this one gawked position
amazing heat and an ugg shy of thought
withdrawn in a mut of mental paralysis
by an alcoholic system
on a day off
the day dunks into the eve before i shift any movement
having sifted the ull
i mix a jar of *** and orange juice
in the open fridge door
Mar 13, 2024
Mar 13, 2024 at 5:58 PM UTC
it was early, really early on that cliff.
cool air, blue light
our new friend had to go (a busy woman in no rush).
we rolled a joint for her journey home.
our minds were cheeks flushed red and rosy but that was fading now. the sun that had risen just for us
swept slowly over the rest of this place.
began to wonder if she ever cared at all for her private audience. maybe.
but, probably not?
get in the car.
drive.
watch morning commuters swarm the PCH.
it all felt a little funny;
how this was the world, and the people here are so sad.
we giggled. a satirical sort of clarity began to settle.
this isn’t really it.
is it?
no.
maybe?
well, coffee should help.
music was still so beautiful but
now i knew that we could be the only ones hearing it this way.
i hoped that was not true.
pupils shrinking,
the world still rolling slowly but, with a sudden edge.
oh no.
i hope not.
maybe?
i turned towards the driver’s seat.
there, with thick-rimmed sunglasses,
those hands holding a freshly lit cigarette out the window,
you were; exactly the same.
Jan 1, 2022
Jan 1, 2022 at 10:38 PM UTC
a portrait painted in my mind
watching you in the living room with another living being
i've had ******* comedowns which killed me a bit more,
but this comedown off of you in my expectations
this room suddenly doesn't make me feel like living anymore
:')))
Mar 18, 2021
Mar 18, 2021 at 1:09 AM UTC
I woke up on the floor
From a party the night before
Feeling like a train wreck, looking like a mess
Trying to piece together last night’s events
But my memory’s **** & my fishnet tee is missing
So I roll up a cig, grab my coat and leave
I’m losing count on how many times I do this routine
Walking down the street
Going through the texts I sent when you were asleep
Telling you what drugs I’ve been on
What I genuinely think, I know I’m a nihilist
But I know I can also change in your company
It’s funny how the heart speaks
When ******* & MDMA is in the bloodstreams
Finally, I’m home
My mental state is melting like a Dali painting
So I crawl into bed for a good rest
Letting my body dissociate at the sight of 2PM
Some people say this is a waste of a day
But I didn’t think about that yesterday
Now I scream **** MY LIFE” loudly from the inside
Nov 18, 2020
Nov 18, 2020 at 4:17 PM UTC
Swimming with stars, a cosmic stream
Saturn’s no longer a distant dream
Titan in one hand, the other waving to Ganymede
Ideas are rushing and fluttering
Like dandelion seeds in the wind, they’re slippering
Melodic strings then crashing drums
A chaotic orchestra, now here they come...
Melting shadowy figures from the dead
Delusions from the collapsed parts of my head
Aug 26, 2020
Aug 26, 2020 at 11:54 PM UTC
I know that I don’t matter,
Live life like I’m unfazed,
I hear the constant chatter,
Echoing and I am crazed,
Invisibility has been my shelter,
But now it pulls me away,
These feelings begin to swelter,
This time I wanted to stay.
Jan 29, 2020
Jan 29, 2020 at 6:51 PM UTC
I sit here and wonder if you're reading this-
If curiousity overcame you again recently, or not.
Its that time
Where im too exhausted to sleep
And all there is, is the music
And I wonder if you're reading this-
Will you have been part of this moment?
Whenever for you this moment might be.
Connected now, I feel it through-
You infinitely odd ball - creature
Thank you for all you normally do- I acknowledge it through this poem's feature:
So of my art unto,
I will become the teacher
to share with you creations new
as haines floats from the speaker.
Aug 19, 2018
Aug 19, 2018 at 6:58 AM UTC
Loud noises. Bright colours.
Rush and gush of comers and goers.
The western world is a bit
too much for me today.
Because last night,
I saw the stars through shaky eyes,
felt the cold air against my numb face
and told a stranger what you mean to me.
I sat on the water’s edge for hours,
my bare feet hanging off the side.
I saw the stars. I saw your eyes.
And felt ******* great.
May 23, 2017
May 23, 2017 at 9:19 AM UTC
I crave a different state of mind,
Make me more honest, make me connect with people make me more open, smart and kind.
I don't crave the come down,
Make me feel tired, make me sleep but have bad dreams, make me feel distant, make my body ache and head pound.
So when the money comes around like it always does I'm constantly torn between up and down, a battle of is, isn't and was.
Jul 13, 2016
Jul 13, 2016 at 4:30 PM UTC
They called it the shallow graves, the place where death plays
Spin the broken needle. it snows in July under here.
Under the bridge they huddle in their cardboard palaces ,
psychedelic moments followed by the falling in to oblivions grasp.
They slept in their depthless tombs, blankets hiding that moment
Of alone time where that last hit was the one that hit home.
I watch as so many lives that once were, are now gone, this
Place of broken syringes and dreams. Sleeping in hollow mounds.
Dec 20, 2015
Dec 20, 2015 at 7:14 AM UTC
It was a sensation like no other
Wide eyes and a beating heart
I felt complete, faultless
Although I was cold
This feeling kept me warm
Sister took a nail full
Of the white rough powder
And laid it upon a book
The familiar bitter taste
Infused my mouth
As I licked the pulverulent
I was full of conversation
But there wasn't much talking
For the voices in my head
Were very loud
As they were reminding me of reality
I tried to push it away
The feeling that was anticipated
But it was strong
And my content feeling
Slowly began to fade away
My stomach dropped
As my mouth ran dry
Lips chapped and hands shaking
Reality had caught me
I pulled on my hair
And covered my face
"Everyone ***** I want to die"
The only words I could speak
As I scratched at my arms
I growled and kicked
Like a cat in a brawl
Irritation filled my body
Anxiety engulfed my mind
A world of agony
I spoke aloud
But to myself
About hate and hostility
Concerned and panicked
When would this hell end?
Sister offered me more
So this misery could stop
But only to began again
When I would remember reality
When I would remember this suffering
I told her I couldn't
This unpleasant feeling was torment
I needed desistance
But that was impossible
This discomfort took time
For it seemed everlasting
At the peak of irritation
I just couldn't take it
In need of something to abolish
This feeling of affliction
Only one thing could help
It's pure white consistency
Glimmered in the light
I reached for the straw
As sister laid the powder
Atop a book
It really carries it's name well
For this heroine saved me
From the long excruciating trip
That laid before me
I praise this beautiful drug
And all of its glory
It has cured my suffering
For I feel indebted to it
Although me and heroine
May only stay friends
Considering anything more
Would keep me stuck at her side
Forever
Feb 22, 2015
Feb 22, 2015 at 8:13 AM UTC
You're the drug that I can't have enough off
The drug that it never seems to be enough time
And the comedown hurts so bad,
Like its the same as having a thousand knives
Yeah, yeah. I'll get through. I always do.
I only hope I can forget I ever met you.
Jan 19, 2015
Jan 19, 2015 at 10:54 PM UTC
I feel my heart caved into my chest
My stomach empty and rumbling
My cheeks sunken into my teeth
Chapped lips
Tired eyes
The feeling of needles into my spine
I can feel the blood rush through my veins to my finger tips
It was the worst comedown ever
Nov 17, 2014
Nov 17, 2014 at 1:51 AM UTC