#claustrophobia
August, the Red Line,
connected tanks
of bolted plastic vertebrae.
Every seat gone except
five rows up, where a sea lion
sprawls across two,
stuffed backpack, yellow jacket
spread out like caution tape.
His grunt a wet bark
at the glow of his screen.
Middle-school deer slip into the aisle,
chatter clipped when the sheriff drifts past,
their ears flicking, smiles bitten shut.
Not a predator- just a gelded ox,
chest puffed, badge sagging, glass-eyed,
chest rig clattering with blanks.
Two lemur-children cling to their tortoise elder,
her shell steady against the sway of the car.
She shepherds them from the surge of riders:
loud Dodger blue parrots in cholo socks,
moth-women with plumed lashes beating the stale air,
a stray dog, gutter musk dragging at its haunches.
And one gray bear
muttering alone,
arguing with her reflection.
Between Koreatown and MacArthur Park,
somewhere the sea begins to breathe again,
then, feathers forcing through my skin-
an alley gull knifing into this clamour,
scavenging inside its exhaust.
The car rattles, its ribs plated with blistered posters:
museum wings open to no one,
‘register to vote’ fading into graffiti script,
flu shots promised by smiling ghosts.
A bruised hatchling staring out beside the words
See something, say something.
The warning lights glow
like eyes hunting in the dark.
From its flanks the train
unfurls iron claws.
They rake
the tunnel walls,
the city’s bones,
the dark itself.
Sep 29, 2025
Sep 29, 2025 at 10:00 PM UTC
A closed room - tight, binding
Hard to breathe, the air was sickening
The sticky stench, atmosphere thickening
Struggling to escape, fear was quickening.
Oct 29, 2022
Oct 29, 2022 at 5:19 AM UTC
the meeting room inflates mushroomed by vocal lashing
nauseous and ugly welling
everyone's timely except the crucial host
top pockets and pens
stuffing of warmth
crucible of body gases and personal perfumes
no windows / low ceiling
the vents clogged with dust and barnacles
one stifling roost
over the new mode room a dominant black screen is vigilant
clocking the details
scrapbooking the gloom
(each rebel breath of mine rivals the last)
there's an odd gap in the chitter-natter
dumbed silent punction to the point of audible body function
everybody is knocked from their element
plead broken this nervous moment...
..and someone does
patricia hats a laugh
and the flow re-bleats its motor revived
mike from c8 south
whinnies in my face
breath bad and bad coffee
he gaffles my energy
head bloods flood
and i can't hack it
this is where i get off
the worldly stutters me off the page
hot signal habits bunch
i am dudded
my distant avatar takes over
can it handle an idea of what i ought present ?
i am a kite operating the grounded pilot
i see him beam and nod dummy to conversation
representing ; i'll endure with this method
i am only a member here
no sass of authority
my expected contribution need only be trivial
but then
distant others look darkly through my reservoir
the gig is up they know somethings contorted
i am drawing attention
what did my puppet say on my behalf ?
am i crooked and pale and wincing ?
am i laying out insult ?
these could be things
they concentrate through distorted waters
start chopping gestures
it is not liked and my auto options have failed
why can't we wash over this whole thing ?
we are dressed so nicely and it is only work
and breath and beating words
to replace peckerpits in the system
t h a t i s i t !
the body crumples and exhibits
i whelm over it all
taking off as an apparition
moting higher still above the scene
i raise the ceiling some
but represented i lie on the floor
a rat ring of colleagues forms about me
some with baldness showing
some dyed colours
one wears a fedora indoors
hunching over my mass
rodent strife
Aug 25, 2022
Aug 25, 2022 at 10:04 PM UTC
constantly
corrupting
correcting
correctness
combining
comparing
contrasting
canning
catastrophe
creating cages
claustrophobia
can't control
can't counter
can't contest
can't clean
can't cry,
can cry
cancel culture.
Dec 2, 2021
Dec 2, 2021 at 2:53 AM UTC
ring ring (A Facetime call)
Mom: “Hey *** what’s up?”
Me: “Well, let’s see..
“We have an armed law enforcement that’s scared of the civilians they police.
One political party so corrupt it’s no longer interested in serving the people.
Half the population ignores the one real power mankind has - science.
Hackers shutting down pipelines, schools, hospitals and companies.
News networks that are allowed to just make up lies as “news”.
Half the population that’s determined to be uninformed.
Social media is destroying the minds of our children.
A political party that encourages its followers to die.
A world that’s quickly poisoning itself to extinction.
Religions that endorse obvious liars and guns.
An economy that depends on our self doubt.
Foreign enemies manipulating our elections.
A supply system on the verge of collapse.
A party encouraging resurgent racism.
A badly neglected infrastructure.
Inflation starting to heat up.
A near endless pandemic.
And a **** culture.”
Mom: after a moment of silence
“Have you been reading the news again? You KNOW you tend to obsess.”
Oct 28, 2021
Oct 28, 2021 at 9:10 PM UTC
Open spaces
Make me
Claustrophobic
The void
You opened up is
Smothering me
There is too much
Nothingness
And it is
Squeezing me tightly
Choking me
With emptiness
Stuffing it
Down my throat
I'm filled with it
The Empty.
Oct 8, 2021
Oct 8, 2021 at 3:01 PM UTC
i received a hug from an invisible force
it felt amazing
until i realized i couldn't move
Aug 8, 2020
Aug 8, 2020 at 11:38 PM UTC
Breathless, dizzying. A pain there. Ouch ! Why do my feet hurt? Pebbles ! This climbing to the top. Narrow, could it be any worse? Oxygen, so abruptly scarce. Darkness, pierces the gleaming light. What's that sound? Shussh, merry people alight. Laughter? But a scared child cries. Melancholy? This ascent to the top. The views? Absurd and surreal torpor. The top. Finally, I have arrived. Yet, Desolate. Fearful. Impending doom. Sandals, where are my sandals? I feel unclad. This outrageous wind, cutting me up. Dissected, operated. An angst is born. Go away, not today. An escape ensues. Haste, a quick descent. As my sandals call. And I beckon, and I beckon. 👣
Apr 30, 2020
Apr 30, 2020 at 4:28 AM UTC
Only four walls
They all drown me inside
The fear of no escape
My head begins to break
The walls trap my thoughts inside
I'm completely unable to hide
My anxiety strangles me
What if my claustrophobia finds me?
My legs begin to tremble as I'm stuck in this space
My heart begins to pound as my eyes see the crowd
I wish I could run but I can't find an escape
Now my fears holding me hostage with tape
I can't seem to move
I've become paralysed
My body starts to shake
My eyes see weird shapes
I'm trembling with fear
I feel my cheek wet with tears
Now I'm laying on the floor
My claustrophobia found me with it's claws
Feb 18, 2019
Feb 18, 2019 at 8:13 PM UTC
for seventeen hours
or one thousand
and twenty minutes
i counted
i made sure
the bottommost right one flickered
unsatisfied with death
fighting with air
stuck in time
the fireman’s lock
aptly named
oh how it teased
a wonder release
the brilliant doors
that showed me myself
yet showed no way
till i ceased to see
for i fail to remember
which I selected
where I wished to be
as i’m frozen in my puddle
and the glaze grows upon my legs
until i fall to the ceiling
and count no more
Feb 6, 2019
Feb 6, 2019 at 12:00 AM UTC
Too many people,
Too many faces, and not
Enough time to breathe.
Oct 2, 2018
Oct 2, 2018 at 8:49 PM UTC
vacuum within
claustrophobic universe
I just cannot BREATHE.
Sep 17, 2018
Sep 17, 2018 at 11:06 AM UTC
all alone in a crowded room
claustrophobia consumes
as i'm uncomfortably surrounded
by strangers
with friendly faces,
ultimately unfamiliar
yet seemingly displaced
from this blur of insanity
they pass as our reality
where are we?
i am searching for familiarity
in an unfamiliar place
trying to find
a familiar face
Apr 5, 2018
Apr 5, 2018 at 3:15 PM UTC
Let me just stay here for a while,
a place where I can barely stand,
shoulders gave in long before
one could blame gravity;
the sands of time fall,
grain by grain
a desert remains,
and a dream of oasis;
give me some time
and I'll learn how to breathe.
Let me just stay here for a while,
a room with no windows,
a door that barely opens,
and echoes that sounded like me
for they're white noise now,
I can barely make out,
the sound of my own voice,
give me some time,
while I learn how to speak.
I think I'll stay here for a while,
spellbound by this familiarity,
have I been here before?
I see myself,
gazing distantly, begging apathy
"Levitate!", I hear.
the noise clears, its me
the door opens, Im found
give me some time,
and I'll try to break free.
Feb 24, 2018
Feb 24, 2018 at 2:36 AM UTC
here comes the pile
walking down the hall
shuffles, pauses
one pushes a button
door opens
eight stepped in
door closes
five pushed buttons
breathe in
count to ten
breathe out
long silence
ding
door opens
step out
sigh.
Jan 28, 2018
Jan 28, 2018 at 9:45 AM UTC
A furious 'thud-thud, thud-thud' hammers my bones
as I whip shirt sleeves and scarves across my room
and into the small latch-lock box.
The one with the brown leather handle that smells
like things-so-old-they've-turned-to-air.
Long ago I lost the key but the shape of its missingness
is the most familiar thing left in this place.
Latch-key box latch-key house latch-key life.
My footsteps ricochet off the walls to the toc-toc of the witching hour.
I hail a cab and lament the bouncy back seat and pop tunes of the humming driver,
pay with an app so I don’t have to say goodbye.
Not to cab, not to town, not to room.
The high-pitched wails of the most popular human carting system
grates my melancholy between the tracks.
Claustrophobic, crammed into more boxes
I.
Hate!
Boxes.
I…
Can’t remember how I got here from there.
I sit at the airport waiting for a canceled seat so I can get the next flight to:
Anywhere, Extra Cheap.
I look at a clock and I shouldn’t have.
Footsteps haunting, tracks grating, bumping, wailing, mouth humming slow to a blur.
The family next to me carefully removing themselves from the smell of my suitcase.
“Latch-key box latch-key house latch-key life,” I tell them.
Dec 2, 2017
Dec 2, 2017 at 4:39 PM UTC
The Bell’s ringing again
Another day of torture
Another walk of shame
And another crowd to follow
I’m standing in line
Everybody is laughing
Everybody is smiling
But I’m not
I’m covering my ears
I’m starting to cry
The words they say
Are echoing again
It’s another long day
My classmates say
They understand my pain
That they’ll stay quiet for me
then why am I having a meltdown
In the middle of corridor chaos
My heart is pumping
I’m humming loudly
But nothing can block out the noise
I’m being pushed and shoved
In the long narrow room
I C A N ‘ T T A K E IT
Stay SILENT For Me
What hidden meaning does it have?
Rearrange the letters in Silent
Here is my message
LISTEN to me
Oct 1, 2017
Oct 1, 2017 at 3:39 AM UTC
A cube exists around me.
A cube of darkness closing in,
A cube of walls unknown;
Walls that are endless and confining.
A cube isolated and alone.
A cube of turbulent motionlessness,
Intertwining in my veins,
A cube of perpetual poisoning,
A cube of living death.
Light does not enter it,
Nor does it escape.
Rather, it is ****** in,
And implodes at sanity's end.
Sep 26, 2017
Sep 26, 2017 at 5:29 AM UTC
Imagine a new world
With brilliant colors everywhere
The light, blinding
You cover your eyes
It is too much, you want to disappear
Imagine you've been caught
You are trapped under a net
Rusty stakes dominate each corner
There is no where to go
Imagine you are stuck
Between invisible walls
You become frantic
You pound on the walls
Imagine
People go through this every day
This fear
Claustrophobia
Aug 16, 2017
Aug 16, 2017 at 9:02 PM UTC