I remember you some days.
Both the laughter,
and the way that it wasn't even real.
The way you never reached out again,
and the way that it was all made up in my head.
Jan 15
Jan 15, 2026 at 11:02 PM UTC
I think there's been a tear in the fabric
of my existence.
I find myself lost and pondering what comes next,
as if it's not just the death of innocence,
but the edge of a cliff.
Something is coming.
I can feel it.
Jan 15
Jan 15, 2026 at 10:56 PM UTC
It's a dream, really
to be alive.
You think you'd die
from happiness.
Jan 15
Jan 15, 2026 at 10:53 PM UTC
When it's time,
let me know.
I'll be there,
whether it's now,
or in 24.
We're all fools in love,
'till we're actually fools.
But life just goes on for me,
and for you too,
despite the way you,
break,
break,
break,
my heart.
Like it's yours,
to have and to hold...
because it is yours,
to break and to take,
I'm yours.
May 22, 2025
May 22, 2025 at 9:44 PM UTC
Wandering a world of traps and likes,
sometimes I stare into the abyss of the blue sky,
and the sun illuminating the garden through the birch trees,
and I wonder if this is happiness.
I wonder how many things I will change in my life,
and I wonder if I'll look back one day and think it was happiness.
I wonder if I will wound up regretting it,
regretting changing myself or my life,
regretting changing my path to fit others' expectations,
or are they my own?
What's left after a person wanders,
wanders and wonders?
Jun 11, 2024
Jun 11, 2024 at 10:37 PM UTC
somewhere in the distance, I see myself in the light
what's in the dark, is whether I'm still alive when illuminated.
May 15, 2024
May 15, 2024 at 1:37 PM UTC
rolling hills
buildings of stone
rainy days
peaceful nights
a dark hallway
leading to a candlelit room
books from ceiling to floor
overlooking the countryside
squared windows
and hands over rough pages
warm blankets
sleep.
Dec 7, 2023
Dec 7, 2023 at 1:07 PM UTC
The wind keeps flailing a leaf in the grass outside my window,
it moves from side to side,
lightly and violently, back and forth,
but it stays in the same spot on the ground.
This leaf is so grounded I begin to feel jealous,
it withstands any gust.
Then, I remember this leaf fell from a tree,
it already lost its battle.
And now it's fighting yet another one.
A never-ending war,
the life after leaving home.
Oct 18, 2023
Oct 18, 2023 at 2:41 PM UTC
you can't escape your own loneliness
it surrounds you when you walk outside,
around people or alone,
that doesn't particularly matter to you.
you rise, you fall
it doesn't change how you feel inside,
depression doesn't go away no matter how hard you try to get a grip,
it always returns,
no matter how hard you're trying,
the voice in your head is always lying.
don't cry, my dear
it is no use,
and yet tears still flow
and when you stare yourself dead in the eye
pleading yourself to stop
the person in the mirror replies
with a simple shake of the head from left to right
and again, and again
till that same head
falls gently to your hands.
you wipe the tears away,
and look to the sky in the reflection,
but it's empty.
Oct 17, 2023
Oct 17, 2023 at 4:30 PM UTC
I hate the way she says my name,
it sounds like an apology,
or a chore,
and every time I hear it,
I die a little more.
Sep 27, 2023
Sep 27, 2023 at 10:55 PM UTC