#chilling
The drizzling has stopped
Temporarily, maybe to take a gap
The winds are catching up
A lone hooting owl
A dog that howls afar
A little thunder far away
The winds chilling now
The rumblings can be heard
Rumblings of a distant rain.
Jul 22, 2025
Jul 22, 2025 at 3:33 AM UTC
Your cold body drifts away
Far from the hapless shore
Far from my wretched hope
I once held so close
Your blood still stained my hand
No matter, how fast I ran--
Your ghost haunted my dreams, my reality
And warped it into a spectral entity.
Aug 27, 2024
Aug 27, 2024 at 1:57 PM UTC
There was a certain comfort in the time I spent
Sitting against a wall outside in the cold
They don’t tell you what its like to freeze to death
But here’s what wishing you would is like
The trees sway with another chilling breeze
There’s a little stinging pain in my toes
Its been about 20 minutes out here
My feet are the only things cold
I'm thinking
Way too much about how the frost feels
My hands become red
a little icy itch not quite numbing my fingers
Another 20 minutes go by and I can feel the cold travel
I have no intention of leaving
I don’t want to
Maybe i’ll stay all night
An hour in my feet are cold on the outsides
My ankle is freezing
I adjust my earbud and look up to the sky
My breath can be seen in the air
I think about my mother finding my body
Bitten blue with winter
2 hours in and my feet are starting to ache
Its an interesting feeling
Almost like I’ve broken a bone but can’t quite feel it
I don’t want to be here anymore
Not outside, id love to stay in the icy air all night
But here, in front of my so called home
Filled with my so-called family
I’d like to be staying somewhere else
Somewhere where they aren’t
Somewhere where the people who care about me
Are all far far away
And if I die, they know in a few days
Not right away
If I’m sick they’ll send a gift card
And call so many times I’ll have to turn off the phone
So maybe I’ll just sit here
And let nature have its way with me
Because I'm not ready to go back in
And live in a “family”
Apr 26, 2022
Apr 26, 2022 at 12:46 PM UTC
The lakeside cabin was as old as history.
The lake itself was ancient.
The cabin was in our family for years.
None of us knows who built it,
all we know is we always have fun there.
Playing in the lake all day,
staying up late telling ghost stories around a campfire.
Many years ago I went back.
I couldn't find it.
Recently I went with my family and it was back.
Maybe it wasn't where I thought it was at first.
Maybe it was never there.
All I know is we had fun.
That's all that mattered,
We had fun.
May 26, 2021
May 26, 2021 at 9:27 PM UTC
looking up at the sky,
wishing to be a part of is
what we all dream of—
then come those
who stitch up their feathers to fly;
to prove that you can own that sky
with your efforts
rather than chillin'
if we really desired for the sky,
we had been one of those
but sadly, we can't make a difference
though it's not late
Mar 15, 2021
Mar 15, 2021 at 7:39 PM UTC
The darkness awakens you,
Your thoughts fall apart like dry glue.
All you want is to be okay,
But you accept you may never see that day.
One foot in front of the other,
Open your eyes, it's no bother.
All you want is to be okay,
But you accept you may never see that day.
Draw back your curtain,
Life will be good, I'm certain.
All you want is to be okay,
But you accept you may never see that day
You drag yourself downstairs,
There have been no answer to your prayers.
All you want is to be okay,
But you may never see that day.
Oct 29, 2020
Oct 29, 2020 at 5:21 PM UTC
Sleep seeps from my finger tips
With chilling thoughts, my mind amiss
No matter how much heat I ingest
I digress, and fade into cold extremities
Only a few times, have I know
The name of tired as well as this
Nov 15, 2019
Nov 15, 2019 at 4:08 PM UTC
"i wanna be in the company of people i love
and just like chill
playing smash
or just sleeping and napping
laughing together
watching movies together
something that doesn't involve too much movement"
- a text from a friend
Jan 28, 2019
Jan 28, 2019 at 1:35 AM UTC
Chilling, like a cold
Winter breeze, as it rustles
Sound through pine trees
Circling in repeated motions
Swaying and reflecting
Different angles, and
Different emotions
Gradually moving from side to side
Not faltering, but continuing stride
Against the current
Against the waves
Against the runner
Pushing him back
Almost forcing him to fall
And beckon in the tracks of another
But wait...
How will he get back up?
That's the question we always
Ask ourselves, looking at
Others from a third person
View, but from the eyes
Of wind, nothing else exists
Think about that for a moment
Invisible, yet so strong
Something to put our lives
In full perspective
The thought of a force
That can break us down
In a moment's notice
And just like that
Suddenly, it's gone
Nowhere to be
Found...
Nov 11, 2018
Nov 11, 2018 at 2:33 PM UTC
I had never seen so much blood.
Just blood, blood, blood.
It was so red and so dark
and so pure that I feared
one simple touch from my unclean
hands would contaminate it.
I had never seen so much blood.
Just blood, blood, blood.
It was the richest thing I had
ever seen and if I could've
I would've ****** it up
and kept in a locket.
I had never seen so much blood.
Just blood, blood, blood.
It ran from your bald head
out onto the cement floor
and I cried over your body
laying there cold and dead.
I had never seen so much blood.
Just blood, blood, blood.
I cried over you while I
watched you die but my
tears were not from your loss
of life but from the fact that I was
not the one to cause it.
Oct 31, 2018
Oct 31, 2018 at 2:01 AM UTC
Counting off regret’s,
And crossing off dreams,
As I sit and rot away in this prison of the past.
Just a spec of light shines in through the bars,
As I keep myself hidden in the darkest corner of my cage.
A smile appears once and a while,
On my dull express less face,
And some day’s I’m too tired to try.
As I have isolated myself once again,
I feel incomplete but I will always feel this way,
Because even when I surround myself with good and bad people, I always still feel incomplete.
So I sit in my empty, hollow cell,
And wait for the day when I feel somewhat complete.
Sep 10, 2016
Sep 10, 2016 at 3:43 PM UTC
We sat in deck chairs, our feet entrenched in the sand,
as the water crept up the shore
and splashed gently on our toy sailboats.
The fire pit roared and rose with flames
under the moonlight. Our friendship was anchored
in the beach for years, since second grade.
I kept watch on your sailboat,
knowing it would soon cast out into the sea of adulthood.
We spent hours talking about our dreams,
as though the sandman truly existed
apart from
our imagination.
Remember when we dropped our textbooks in the trash compactor?
Because we believed in the Lost Generation and The Beats, and not some phonies from academia.
We even sprinted away from the security guards after we used our slingshots and shot rocks at the The Verizon Center's Marquee.
Smoke and drink.
Smoke and drink.
Smoke and drink.
We lounged in the dugout while the sky poured buckets of rain on the baseball diamond, as our lighters ran out of fluid.
***
By accident, you shot me in the mouth with an air-soft gun. The beady plastic pellet zinged through the air, and sawed off half of my front tooth. Frantically, you sprinted inside and came back out with a glass of whole milk. You snagged the chipped up tooth from the lush lawn, and dropped it into glass. The tooth got swallowed up by the milk, leaving a trace of ripples.
But you had pure intentions, only lukewarm aim. On a porch chair, I sat bent over with my upper lip bundled with wet paper towels. There was no blood, no flesh wound; just a clean shot. I dabbed my tender gum gently with the damp towel.
You walked up to me and slapped me on the back. I shook my head, rolled the towel into a paper *** and chucked it at your nose.
You caught the projectile in mid-air and threw the afternoon’s remnants over the pointy picket fence. You turned around and saw my back, as I walked on the neighborhood sidewalk away from your house.
Ten years later, in the summer of 2007, we stretched out our limbs on Rehoboth beach and smoked headies out of a papier-mâché-looking piece; we called her Old Glory. As we toked and held in the gray coughs, we took in the view. Small waves barreled over and flattened out onto the fine sand shore. Our toes were tangled in the snare of the ivy green seaweed.
We didn’t want to let go of this.
This picture frame memory, the wooden frame lacquered with fresh pine comb.
A peace pipe shared between each other to rekindle their friendship. I stared at the bright fire of the lighter, watching as red sparks turn into violent black. Light gray debris collected on my swim trunks. We both looked up at the starless sky, as if we were searching for twilight. The moon glow shrunk the longer an eyeball looks, you said.
I nodded, got up, and walked right into a tall wave. I took the full force of the water, standing my ground with a bird’s nest chest. You laughed and lolled your head back off; you were exhausted.
I walked back up the hilly shore, and treaded my finger along the ridges of my ceramic tooth. A replica embedded in my mouth. I felt the jagged edges, the flaws, and grinned a little.
Just enough, to feel like I was on the verge of epiphany, on the beginning of seeking out the correct approach of life.
We hit the piece again. And the sun began to rise.
Our eyes closed, breaths quiet, and our memories entwined
for days to come.
May 25, 2016
May 25, 2016 at 12:25 PM UTC
For some reason, the wind today feels unpleasantly cold.
Perhaps it is the by-product of my imagination but then again,
Perhaps the elements are trying to send me a message.
With the chilling winds piercing through my bones,
I can’t stop the aching from my old wounds.
Oct 27, 2015
Oct 27, 2015 at 9:47 PM UTC
chilling, careless smile,
your eyes perambulate the
caverns of my soul
Jun 1, 2015
Jun 1, 2015 at 12:36 PM UTC
I can see the sun
Shining with a gleam on its face
Its wonderful brightness
Glowing on our faces
I say that its a sunny day
For me to have a funny day
And for a big scoop of icecream
I say that its a chilling day
The sun's rays can reach over me
Telling me always to glow and shine
He will never loose his shimmering beauty
And for me.it will always
Be an infinite creativity.
Mar 23, 2015
Mar 23, 2015 at 6:23 AM UTC
You are glancing out of the window
Taking a look at nature's creation
Wisps of your hair gently stroking your face
Feeling a cold wave against you
Walking slowly amidst the misty clouds
The endless curves of the mighty mountain
Spinning your head around
Deep down there lies deathly valleys
Defining life beyond explanation
All you can see is plush green colour
Ranging from warm to tender
While I travel,I try not to grasp at people
By their devotion towards work
An independent river flows curvily to reach its destination
Given much ore of its freedom
Captivating nature in just one go isn't enough
You have to soak in as much as possible
Sure one becomes perplexed at the first sight of the beautiful sunrise
And I bet the day couldn't get that better otherwise
The air had its own charm,its own charisma
While the chants and prayers of monks completed the atmosphere
I smile as I currently jot this poem down
Words fail to express my happiness crown
I say to myself-" This isn't imagination,This is reality"
Confused, are you reader?
My heart beats and quenches for the aroma of green tea leaves
Hmm,I'll miss this heaven on earth,
This place,these people,their lives,their struggles
Their homeland.
Their Birthplace.
So this is my travelogue
And currently you were into my experience
My "Darjeeling Experience"
And not a dream,or a part of paper
Cause its far more than your mere imagination.
Mar 13, 2015
Mar 13, 2015 at 5:36 AM UTC