you started off as a young
strappy soldier
filled with life
fresh meat on the battlefield
you start fighting
and continue
the battle.
but the injuries you suffer begin to drag you down
it hurts
but you don't have time to heal.
you grip your rifle and aim
you hold onto a helmet for protection
and you keep going,
and going.
the war finally ends
and maybe you won,
maybe you lost.
you look around
at the bodies littered on the ground
of people you killed
of comrades you loved
at the once beautiful terrain
now rugged with trenches and craters
at the cities you couldn't protect
that stand as piles of rubble.
and then a deadly calm just settles over you
and you just
continue to exist,
but nothing seems to matter anymore
and you're just waiting
waiting for something that will never come
maybe it's for your body to heal
maybe for the friends you lost
maybe for the earth to stop smelling like gunpowder and blood
for it to grow back into the forests and cities you remember
and you're just
waiting.
Feb 6, 2019
Feb 6, 2019 at 2:03 AM UTC
"i wanna be in the company of people i love
and just like chill
playing smash
or just sleeping and napping
laughing together
watching movies together
something that doesn't involve too much movement"
- a text from a friend
Jan 28, 2019
Jan 28, 2019 at 1:35 AM UTC
dear life,
please stop giving me lemons.
i'm spending all my days
squeezing, mixing, chugging
this lemonade.
please, let me try some sweet apple juice for a chance.
im tired of the sourness.
respectfully,
me
Jan 28, 2019
Jan 28, 2019 at 1:32 AM UTC
i look so good
on paper
every fiber
every inkling
tells a story
my story.
i look again
hoping i'm okay
on paper
as i write
and write
my stories
whose stories
again?
i look again
at the paper
and sigh.
nothing.
Jan 20, 2019
Jan 20, 2019 at 1:54 PM UTC
i fell in love today.
with a brush of the hand,
and a glance,
i fell.
my heart flutters-
sputtering,
murmuring,
remembering.
i pick myself up.
Jan 20, 2019
Jan 20, 2019 at 1:52 PM UTC
all i have is gentle sadness
to ease my pain
singing songs and
watching rain
wish i had you
to hold
but i’m alone
and i'm
so
cold
Jan 20, 2019
Jan 20, 2019 at 1:51 PM UTC
is just a goodbye
before the dreams come
reality fades
and the world
you know
is swept
away
Jan 20, 2019
Jan 20, 2019 at 1:50 PM UTC