#brokenpromise
I'm mentally torn apart
Take a step in my heart
Go ahead! peel off all the skin
Look at what lies within
Behind cute the little sweet things
Is an ugly reality
tugging at my sanity.
Life knows about me
It will cover up the ugly
So I don't end up in the ward
I smile at my life's gifts gleefully
Clutching life's sweet rewards
Deep into my palm.
This is my life
A Sugar Coat
The more I mask
The less I ask
Masking up the ugly, makes it so sweet
Save your tears, just not this week
Another day rolls along
She been sick for too long
Do my prayers ever get answered?
It hurts to watch her struggle through.
This is my little life
It cuts me like a knife
I might've won my little awards
But I'm one step closer to the wards
Where is he at
The one who told me that
I am his number one
It felt like he wasn't here
When the pang of stress was there.
This is my life
A Sugar Coat
The more I mask
The less I ask
Masking up the ugly, makes it so sweet
Save your tears, just not this week
Another day rolls along
Another broken promise
Will he ever care to compromise?
It pains me to see him
Not care about his and our future.
Feb 25, 2025
Feb 25, 2025 at 8:36 PM UTC
Each breath
is a reminder of the regrets
living in her body like a cancer…
Breathe in…
One, Two, Three…
Breathe out…
Now my mom’s free,
Or so she thought.
The smoke sends an illusion of peace.
The smell of ember burning,
getting closer and closer to death’s door
as it eats away the cigarettes,
While the time ticks slowly.
Each moment she lights the lighter,
The fire dances,
sending chills down her spine…
She knows it’s bad—
She said to me that she will get better,
but she gets bitter each minute
she holds the box of cigarettes
With the regrets she won’t let go.
Breathe in…
One, Two, Three…
Breathe out…
I don’t recognize my mom anymore.
I miss the old her.
The one who smiles and laughs,
Like a kid at a park.
Or whenever I cry with the fear of her dying
And disappearing,
she would hug me close and told me this;
“Don’t worry, baby…
Mama won’t let go of you.”
Now, she clutches a box of cigarettes.
Each breath she breathes
is a broken promise.
The mom I knew is fading in the smoke.
The mom I knew is in this photo,
But I want the real her.
Breathe in…
One, Two, Three…
Breathe out…
Now my mom’s gone from my life.
Oct 24, 2024
Oct 24, 2024 at 5:22 PM UTC
You swore you'd love me until the end of time
But now the end is getting nearer
And I still don't even see your face
When I look into the mirror
What now I see is shadows
Cast from shaky lights above
Where your little voice cries out
"What once was here was love"
Sep 15, 2024
Sep 15, 2024 at 11:40 PM UTC
You said we'd spend tomorrow
together
but you never told me your
name
I waited a lifetime
Tomorrow,
never came
Apr 20, 2023
Apr 20, 2023 at 7:57 AM UTC
I have made promises to myself and broke them.
How then do expect to have another being make promises to me and keep them?
I know the pain,
And I've broke the chain.
And there is no way to fix it.
Aug 31, 2021
Aug 31, 2021 at 12:18 PM UTC
You promised to stay,
Woke up not feeling okay.
You left far away.
Jun 21, 2020
Jun 21, 2020 at 12:42 PM UTC
You promised not to break it
The promise that you made
Now the shattered pieces
are embedded in my hands
I held on way too tightly
to your promises to me
you said you wouldn't break it
I guess that must mean
that I broke your promise
the pieces made me bleed
Mar 4, 2020
Mar 4, 2020 at 3:33 PM UTC
Why do you think I'll be quiet this time?
All that you said were filthy old lies.
I've written a letter, it's addressed to her,
The truth that she maybe needs to know?
Before making a choice to spend her whole life with you,
A person who wished that I was his only truth,
How do you guys just turn off all your love?
And chose someone who clearly wasn't enough.
I'm sick of your lies, you broke your promise,
To stay as a friend, you treat me like nonsense.
You've made your choice, I want to make mine,
To set the truth free, so that I can fly.
You had your chance to make the things right,
But made it all worse by staying aside,
I'm not some trash and you need a lesson,
Promises broken can turn really messy.
You'll make my life hell, I know that for sure,
When that all happens I'll be living no more.
Oct 27, 2019
Oct 27, 2019 at 6:48 PM UTC
I sat there
waiting for you to get home
you came in and grabbed the beer
I ran upstairs and locked my door
you broke the promise
"I will never drink again"
I hear you drop the dumb can
tears start running down my face
I scrambled around my room
something that could hold the door closed
"a chair!That's it!"
I grabbed it and say it in front of the door
I looked at the window
"Open up"
I smashed the window opened
and tried letting go
I tried to take the step back
but then I stepped forward
I opened my eyes
and there you were by my side
I looked at the window
still attached
not broken
just a dumb dream
you then opened your eyes
I smiled and said
"hold me"
I then realized you I can never let go
you are my home
<3
Jan 24, 2018
Jan 24, 2018 at 2:39 PM UTC
You don’t deserve these poems
You deserve the silence you enforced upon me
I write these for me and me only
My private refuge. Just me and pain
I can’t pinpoint the exact moment it happened
The silence. The cold
Like a train wreck so mangled it’s impossible to know where it begins and ends
I can remember the exact moment I realised
Realised you’d gone... again
Gone and broken every promise we’d ever made
Flung me into darkness
May 8, 2019
May 8, 2019 at 6:59 AM UTC
A promise is like a sweet wine
like a nectar by the ancient Gods,
the sweetness to hold on,
that warms your heart
and lifts you up.
A promise to be there for you,
a promise you will never walk alone,
a promise to stay in touch with you,
and yet such promises are like a breeze,
said today but gone tomorrow.
What once lifted you up
is pulling you down,
what warmed your heart
rips it apart.
Nov 8, 2017
Nov 8, 2017 at 8:15 AM UTC
I'm staring
at the moon
and it reminds
me of you.
because you said,
you love me
to the moon
and back
but what happened?
why did you leave?
did you honestly,
mean those words?
or it was just
one of your
stupid
little white lie?
Mar 29, 2014
Mar 29, 2014 at 3:31 AM UTC
Hell, isn't it?
Your insides yearning to flee.
Don't give me that look, you ****
You deluded yourself, not me.
Didn't I warn you?
Didn't I tell you to stop?
But you said you could handle it.
You said you'll never tap.
But why is this house now empty?
Where did the warmth go?
I told you it will never be easy.
But you opted to start the show.
Now you left me with nothing.
As you ran yourself to hide.
You just proved again what a fool I am.
For trusting you sublime.
Nov 9, 2015
Nov 9, 2015 at 4:19 PM UTC
Giving you my heart was the dumbest move I've made.
Jul 24, 2015
Jul 24, 2015 at 9:13 PM UTC
Please don't say you'll love me forever,
only to console,
only to make me smile,
We'll only make it linger,
and I'll only be naive to believe...
and make all my decisions around that premise...
And you'll only break my heart,
and you'll seem to break your words,
because to you it wasn't a promise...
only a statement,
a spur of the moment...
But by all means, please do so in the quietest to your own heart,
when I'm not there,
where I'm not there
Because I don't ever need to hear it,
all that matters is that IF, you'll stay...
or you'll stray...
Aug 23, 2014
Aug 23, 2014 at 9:08 PM UTC