#breakingdown
a breaking point
everyone has one, right?
a place where they can't go on
without an explosion of emotion
or just quitting all together
but where is mine?
where is my stopping point?
where i can rest my eyes
and feel ease
a point where i do break
and get everything out
because to get better you have to break, right?
maybe that point has left out
forgotten by a god i dont believe in
leaving me in a constant hurt
a never ending cycle of being left
with no escape or coping
where is my breaking point?
it must be sad
to read about someone who wants to break down
who wants to feel all the pain he has experienced at once
just so one thing can maybe last
just so some other emotion
that isnt a deep depression
can be felt for more than an hour or so
maybe i need to make my own point
need to scrape some time out of my schedule
to let myself explode
let it out
get rid of the space it takes up
so i can leave some for anything else
but thats not how it works
it comes on its own time
like a bird to its feeder
or death to take a soul
maybe
my breaking point will take its time
so slow its taking parts of me
as i try to survive
maybe
my breaking point will be death
that when my blood pools out of my body
those deep dark emotions
will flow out with it
no longer carried by me
but the mortal body
that is left here
leaving my soul the lightest of them all
a breaking point
no one said
that it has to happen when youre alive
Jan 27, 2017
Jan 27, 2017 at 11:34 PM UTC
Breaking down in pools of water
which surround me, envelop me
I am immersed
In a world tinted blue
Underwater… Under pressure
Bubbles play around me
Tempting but untouchable
For fear of fingerprints that pop
Bubbles are unreliable
Hold my hand and hold me down
Let me go and let me rise
Up Up Up to the top
To the surface…. well, almost
Foot neatly caught
In weeds too strong to snap
But maybe thats good
Maybe the surface is too real… too tangible
Maybe it’s safer here
In my world tinted blue
Maybe it’s safer here…
Breaking down in pools of water
Mar 18, 2015
Mar 18, 2015 at 11:29 AM UTC
all of these memories
keep your feet on the ground
they stop you from running away
they keep you safe and sound
all of these memories
remind you of yesterday
they keep you safe
by keeping your demons away
all of these memories
hide your mistakes from the light
they stop all the whispers
they know how to hold you right
all of these memories
bring light into your life
they keep bad spirits in the shadows
they keep you away from strife
all of these memories
are good at lying to you
they're breaking down
because that's just what memories do.
Jul 14, 2014
Jul 14, 2014 at 4:50 AM UTC
i think i forgot my place in the universe
happiness is fleeting and i knew that once
so why do i chase after things that are finite?
why do i conquer and destroy everything in my path?
the world is supposed to be easy for the taking
but the world is taking me
i overdose on everything
i've never known when enough is enough
gluttony, lust, rage
the trifecta rule i always break
everyone is wrapped up in their own universe
struggling with their own problems
so why
do i
expect
someone
to
save
me
Feb 22, 2018
Feb 22, 2018 at 10:15 PM UTC