#blocked
untitled
he passioned his face
into the winter desk
through night window
down shards and the impact
cracked through the frozen lake
firing out rounds of hurt
dampened drum ice water dumbed
un permitted to be bridled
by work
Apr 9
Apr 9, 2026 at 12:46 PM UTC
"THRESHOLDS" — A CYCLE IN TWELVE PARTS
The app delivers a notification
like a fortune cookie
stuffed with malware –
a tiny prophecy
wrapped in a cheerful chime.
“Someone viewed your profile.”
“Someone blocked you.”
“Someone unblocked you
for reasons the system
refuses to disclose.”
It feels like living
in a digital village
where the town crier
is a crow
dropping spoilers
from a power line.
A greyed‑out circle appears –
not a profile picture,
but an eclipse
of my social self‑esteem.
A shadow where a face should be,
a doorway where the light
forgot to show up.
A deleted comment
flutters past
like a bureaucratic ghost
filing paperwork
in the Ministry
of Vanishing Things.
And somewhere between
“seen” and “not delivered,”
my humanity is queued
behind system updates
and a spinning wheel
that never quite decides
what I deserve.
Still, I refresh the page –
not out of longing,
but out of ritual,
the way one checks
whether a ghost
has remembered
its manners.
Apr 8
Apr 8, 2026 at 12:16 PM UTC
"THRESHOLDS" — A CYCLE IN TWELVE PARTS
A notification flickers –
not hers,
but close enough
to cast a thin blade of light
across the room.
Her name appears
in a place she didn’t lock,
a doorway left half‑shadowed,
half‑open,
as if someone stepped through
and forgot to close it fully.
I tap the screen.
Nothing shifts.
No message.
Only the dim glow
of a room where words once lived,
now emptied,
like dust floating
in a beam of light.
Elsewhere, I’m shut out –
a greyed‑out profile
that feels less like a wall
and more like a corridor
where the lights flicker
but never go dark.
Ambivalence hides in these thresholds:
a like she notices,
a silence she keeps,
a window she closes
only halfway.
And I stand in the pause
between her gestures,
reading the static,
the half‑signals,
the candle‑thin meanings
that waver but never settle.
Learning to breathe
in the shimmer
between presence and absence,
between what is shown
and what is withheld.
Because sometimes
the truest part of a story
is not the message sent,
but the space
where words dissolve
like light through
a half‑closed door.
Apr 7
Apr 7, 2026 at 5:43 PM UTC
"THRESHOLDS" — A CYCLE IN TWELVE PARTS
I. Thresholds: “Blocked”
(Revised version of a poem first published on March 15, now part of the cycle “Thresholds”.)
Once we spoke
in the open air of words.
Questions travelled freely,
laughter crossed the room
like light moving
without hesitation.
Then a small door closed
somewhere I could not see.
No argument,
no farewell –
only silence,
carefully arranged,
as if someone folded it
and placed it
between us.
Strange,
how a single click
can exile a voice,
and stranger still
how easily the world
continues to speak
without it.
Yet somewhere beyond
that narrow little gate
conversation goes on –
and the air
is wider there,
as if the light
found another way
through.
Apr 7
Apr 7, 2026 at 5:41 PM UTC
Once we spoke
in the open air of words.
Questions travelled freely,
laughter crossed the room.
Then a small door closed
somewhere I could not see.
No argument,
no farewell –
only silence
carefully arranged.
Strange,
how a single click
can exile a voice,
and stranger still
how easily the world
continues to speak
without it.
Yet somewhere beyond
that narrow little gate
conversation goes on –
and the air
is wider there.
Mar 15
Mar 15, 2026 at 5:42 PM UTC
You made me feel
A world of hope
Life seemed brighter
When you gave me
Butterflies.
I gathered my courage
just to seem
like some "Sweet Girl"
To you
After all
Our conversations meant nothing
You blocked me. No Reason!
Just to avoid the awkwardness
Building up my hope
Just to disappear without a trace
Now all tears fall down the face
As I'm deeply confused of what I did
To make you block out my existence.
I understand rejection
It's so normal
yet so painful
I'm not mad you rejected me
But why did you blocked me?
I don't get it
I'm exactly your type too!
Abyssal black hair
A face as pale as paper
But I guess Something about me
Must've pushed you away
Weather it's because
I'm in Marching Band
Or that I religiously listen to Slipknot
Or both
I don't get what's wrong with me.
But why should I care
maybe because you left me confused
Yet I'm so sick that I refuse
To stop wondering
Why you blocked me out
When all I said was
"Sorry for making this awkward".
I've never got rejected
So this really
Hurts
But I will get over it
soon.
Apr 30, 2025
Apr 30, 2025 at 1:37 AM UTC
Blocked. And just like that, the world falls silent. But silence is never truly empty, something must fill the void. Teardrops splatter against the ground, streaming from weary eyes like rain on a metal rooftop. A rhythmic, sorrowful percussion. Ears ring, drowning out everything, even the hush of solitude. The quiet sobs of defeat escape, reluctant but unstoppable. I can’t bear it. Each passing minute winds me tighter into the spiral, every breath shallower than the last, as if a crushing weight is pressing down on my chest. My fingers claw at my face, pleading for the tears to stop, but they refuse, relentless, unyielding reminders. My hands curl into fists, nails digging deep into my palms, desperate to grasp a rope that is no longer there. I should get up, find something, anything, to anchor my restless mind. But no matter how hard I try, I am forced to listen. Forced to endure the consequences of my own undoing.
Mar 13, 2025
Mar 13, 2025 at 6:00 AM UTC
Blocked. In that moment, it felt like the world was crashing down around me. I wondered if our paths would ever cross again, praying that maybe, just maybe, you might change your mind. Every connection to you vanished, leaving only the pictures behind. I’m not angry, not even a little. I understand that you feel this is the only way to find space. It’s your instinct to run, and it’s mine to chase, even if every path leads to a dead end. The silence of the room feels deafening now, no notifications, no sound of your voice, just my thoughts, growing louder by the second. Being without you is like gazing at a night sky lit only by the moon, the stars nowhere to fill the void. It’s like hearing your favorite song with missing lyrics, wanting to sing along, but it doesn’t feel right. I know you don’t need me here, but I want to be. I wanted to be your anchor in the fiercest storms, the ears that listened to every worry, the heart that healed with yours. Push me away, shut me out as many times as you need, just as long as you come back. My love for you transcends every wall, every barrier, every goodbye. Even if this truly is the last one, you’ll always have a place deep within my heart and soul. I’ve grown with you. And while I may not be the best version of myself, you’ve made me better. Your touch has healed pieces of me that I thought were irreparable, fragments broken by years of hurt and trauma. You deserve peace, happiness, and pride in who you are. Even if we never speak again, I hope one day you’ll see yourself the way I see you: extraordinary, strong, beautiful, and irreplaceable. I hope this isn’t the end as my love for you is eternal. Even when the candle burns out, its remnants can be molded into something lasting, something strong. And so will my love for you remain, shaping itself into eternity.
Dec 3, 2024
Dec 3, 2024 at 1:49 AM UTC
Cant ban me
Page wont load
All my views gone
You must be democrat
Cant even view my art
Silent voices
So important
Posts blocked
Posts regulated
Typical from dumb
I cant even move locations
What did i do to you
I been faithful
Thanks for your time
But like
Where the boss at
Fix my ****
Im a viral poet
Sep 13, 2024
Sep 13, 2024 at 4:39 PM UTC
We lock things
to keep them safe
We lock them
as plan B
because at that time
we feel unsafe
around them
Aug 17, 2024
Aug 17, 2024 at 5:15 AM UTC
A block in the mind
A wall blocking all creativity
A blockage interfering one's thoughts
A writer of soul and passion
A holder of the pen that creates
A person with a unique way of combining words
A blocked writer...
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Oct 17, 2022
Oct 17, 2022 at 10:25 PM UTC
You're literally a psychopath
For making me feel like that
And thinking that it's ok
And that I'm gonna forgive you
I'm amazed at the audacity
For thinking you'd do that to me
And not feeling bad at all
And thinking I'd still give you
The time of day
And not send you on your way
Like you deserve
Because consequences don't exist
And in your head I know you're sick
And maybe I feel bad for you
And everything that we've been through
But I'm telling you this is it
You're gone, deleted, with one click
Jul 5, 2022
Jul 5, 2022 at 12:04 AM UTC
Out of dust we are,
Which answers the question
Of why I love the rain,
Skin run along like sandpaper,
Scratching and mostly unpleasant
I have been made in the rough
And the rough I have become
But when the scent of rain comes
I can’t help but let myself
Become soft to its touch.
Run along to make the feeling
Of my skin more pleasant
But why does it stop so suddenly?
A month straight of rain
And no sun
Then all gone in an instant
Letting the skin I let get soft
Crack and bleed
From the lack of your touch.
Where did it go?
Who thought it was okay
To tell someone you loved them the day before,
So they woke up the next
Blocked.
Jun 10, 2021
Jun 10, 2021 at 8:47 PM UTC
Did you have to
Block me
From achieving
My only dream
May 13, 2021
May 13, 2021 at 4:18 AM UTC
hmmm hm hmmm
you've left again,
and truth be told it's best
so don't tell me that you love me still
that you just need to get some things in your head straight
hmm hm hmm
because you had your head on the entire time
you just wanted to rest it for a while
and I was your soft pillow
a punching bag if you must
you flipped me around when I was too hot
you seem to always like me better when I'm cool
my silence will always be reassuring
the heat will make you nervous.
hmm hm hmm
I cope by talking
so let me talk to people that are like you
my ex
exes.
girls that have wanted me from the beginning, am I really
that charming?
I have three, four if you're counting the girl i sent nudes to last night
i'm disgusting
I should have kissed her in that bathroom, you know.
i should have took advantage of the situation
I don't like that you're the last person my lips tasted
hmm hm hmmm
running my fingers across the keyboard
they dance in a rhythm only I can figure out
I've got plans, a future, and a pack of cigarettes waiting for me at home
I should have listened when people said to stay away from you
I'm mad because you let me believe you when you said
i love you
because i always meant it
i love you more, most, forever and always, that was the promise, the deal.
I was supposed to be loved by you and you alone.
and you for me.
maybe you left
hmm hm hmmm hm
because you have other people that you want.
but you'll never in your life find someone like me
but maybe that's good because
hell I know that i'm actually very toxic.
manipulative.
dramatic.
draining
i've heard it all before
i'm too sensitive.
these are truths
i'll fix it.
i'll get better.
and you will too
hmm hm hmmm
i shouldn't still be writing about you. i've been broken for a while
but it feels easier now.
i can just pretend that you don't exist, that's easier for me
that is how i have to cope now.
after Justin, i thought i wouldn't love
i should have focused on getting hurt again.
i know that it's possible now.
well sorta.
after him, i went numb.
hell. what am i ever talking about
i guess what i'm meaning to say is
we'll be a lot happier without each other
at least we were long distance.
you don't have to see me or hear me everyday.
I have you blocked on social media for that reason.
but i can't block your number
i like knowing that you'll come back eventually.
and if not knowing, then hoping
when you find out what you've ****** up don't be textin' my phone
i like you better when you leave me alone.
hmm mhm hm
Feb 1, 2021
Feb 1, 2021 at 4:02 PM UTC
Don't be shocked when
A scornful mock
Results in a block
Dec 26, 2020
Dec 26, 2020 at 11:40 PM UTC
so. so what?
it's like every ******* time that i need you you're desperate to leave.
but god forbid i think of my own emotions once in a time of crisis.
because ****** lord knows that whatever the **** i am doesn't ******* matter
oh but you do J
you're such a beautiful person
you're so smart
i love you.
******* ******** ********
what the **** nah.
nah what the **** is wrong with you.
you've had it happen before.
so i ask for help, i tell you that i don't want to be here.
so you leave me on opened and then the next day you're telling me
telling me what? that you got MAD?
you got MAD at me for it? tell me where that makes sense.
you're mad because i wanted to die?
are you ******** me? I WANTED TO DIE!
I wanted to die! i wanted to die!
and you're MAD?
"it's not directed at you."
I'm ******* mad.
I'm ******* ****** I'm beyond hurt what the ****
I'm so ******* tired of feeling alone. I'm so tired of being alone.
I'm so tired of feeling this way.
why do you keep leaving me alone
why do you keep leaving me alone.
please don't leave me alone.
please answer
why won't you ******* answer oh my god
I'm not safe.
why couldn't i have just succeeded?
i can't even **** myself right
I'm so tired of feeling like this.
i wish it was more than just some extra time to sleep in.
i wish it was forever.
i could rest forever.
i could sleep forever.
forever forever forever.
please answer the phone
it's the feelings he gave me,
i can do it
i
I CAN'T
I JUST I
just can't i just
can't.
god it
it feels so good to cry.
i don't want to stop.
this ******* ***** yknow.
the way this feels.
i just want to scream.
I'm blocking you. everywhere. you can't get me now.
alone again.
naturally.
Nov 22, 2020
Nov 22, 2020 at 3:37 PM UTC
you blocked me on social media
i blocked you in my heart.
Oct 27, 2020
Oct 27, 2020 at 8:22 AM UTC
I am not in contact with my emotions
they're distant to me and far away
it's been centuries since we've met again
ever since the night I let them be torn away
I found out early that love holds you back
so I cut off all association
And now my faux emotions sparkle
without any questioning
Because everyone only sees my smile
And it's not a cry out for help
But instead, all that I sprout it for
Is to display my independent self
So there's no reason for me to have anyone
Because I couldn't hold commitment.
I can watch from afar easily
As I decimate the shipments
Because my heart yearns to travel to my mind
and I painstakingly won't let it
I did this one to myself and now I am secluded
Apr 3, 2020
Apr 3, 2020 at 11:19 AM UTC
The words mean nothing
As I try to fill my writing full of emotion
And nothing can lift me up
Let alone drag me down
There is nothing I can do
To describe the meaningless words
But write down some more
Nothing has any meaning
Not a single word
It hurts me to say
To bring myself to this grim truth
But it hurts me to be here sitting next to you
My meaningless words
Are not just on paper
But the garbled speech coming out of my mouth
And I couldn't say anything to you
Nothing at all
But I was hoping to say just one thing
I'm sorry for my meaningless words
I'm sorry for everything I've done
I wish that I never done anything at all
Mar 5, 2020
Mar 5, 2020 at 1:27 PM UTC
the days I feel
my brain is blocked,
I take a step back
go for a walk.
no phone needed
through the neighborhood.
searching for peace
a quiet state of mind,
finding ways
to leave it behind.
Sep 22, 2019
Sep 22, 2019 at 11:45 PM UTC
Blocked.
Blocking the hope of a text message.
A chance to even get in my head more.
Closed.
Closing the sheets in my room so I don’t get a glimpse of you.
Down.
Keeping my head down as I walk into the room.
So that my eyes don’t “ironically” find you.
Cold.
The chills I get when I walk past you.
Lies.
The foundation of our “relationship”.
Jul 26, 2019
Jul 26, 2019 at 8:43 AM UTC