#betryal
You left your typewriter in my apartment,
Straight from The Tortured Poets Department.
Your antics made you look so classic,
Lost in the world of your semantics.
My veins of pitch black ink at a chokehold,
As I yearn to begin again with a new fold.
At your worst, I was here first.
As I enter into evidence, the story of us.
I had to recall why I made such a fuss.
The allure of you had me drawn to you,
Pulled by a siren’s call.
Rising from the waves, at the brink of night
I left it all.
I wonder how you ended up with me,
Hatred spread like roots from a twisted tree.
I know you inside and out,
I don’t know how I survived all those sweet nothings
right out your tainted mouth.
Remember when you pushed me over a stout?
The first cracks in this happy-ever-after,
The silence that swallowed my laughter.
They say,
What’s not broken, don’t fix it.
Kintsugi finds beauty in the broken,
But the crimson-laced pieces,
The caricature of our faces,
Bolted into the typewriter’s fresh white pages.
Shattered and broken,
were left as my only token.
Feb 16, 2025
Feb 16, 2025 at 12:30 AM UTC
I wasn't this bad
Once a saint
Nonetheless, I prefer insolence
The ones I fed
Sabotaged, betrayed
Killed innocence
The worst kind of hurt is betrayal
I shall watch you thrive on streets
Worship most high for mercy
You'll be ignored
Wish come true
Prayers answered
Not a punishment
It's freedom desired
The next time
Might be lenient
The goodness I possess
Never allows evil to thrive
Today's moonlight
When it gets tough
Never reminiscence
Live
Gates are closed
Jan 17, 2025
Jan 17, 2025 at 2:42 PM UTC
Beneath my grey boots the
reflection in the ripples
Conveyed a image of a familiar
Turmoil and saddening.
With the landscape implausible
And the fate unenviable
it beckoned with its wittering wail the
empty promise of a better life.
Dec 20, 2020
Dec 20, 2020 at 8:25 PM UTC
You are the reason can't you see?
I am begging you please stop crushing me
I am so tired of this
I can't remember the last time I woke up feeling ready for the day
I must let you go
you don't even want to stay
This is unhealthy and I know it so why am I always coming back?
I thought I was stronger than this but I guess I was wrong I am just a hopeless wreck
I think I fell for the idea of you and I find it hard to believe that the things I thought about you were just a beautiful lie, my deepest wishes projecting onto you
Now all that's left for me is to cry
Mar 7, 2018
Mar 7, 2018 at 1:04 AM UTC
Years ago,
You filled Me
with nothing
But love
Years later,
You left me
With nothing
But hatred.. Yet,
I remember you.
Even in Hatred,
I remember you..
Dec 21, 2016
Dec 21, 2016 at 3:24 AM UTC
Am I? Am I
good enough? Looking at my reflection through this broken mirror. Maybe it's just showing me what I really am on the inside.
I don't know... I never did. Slowly sliding down this brick wall, the coldness cooling down my heated flesh, Curling up into a ball wrapping my arms around me like its a life line.
I mumble to myself "am I? Am I good enough?" for you to hurt and betray me then I must not be.
But that's ok, I can never say no to you no matter how hard I try. Your touch, your breath, your words... are like poison that runs through my veins.
But its alright because for a moment I felt alive, not anymore, no those days are over. I'm dead inside. It's just an endless void of darkness swirling all around me that I can't seem to get out of.
It's all right, I take last glance at my bleeding wrist and say to myself "I was never good enough anyways" slowly my vision fades I'm starting to feel free, then...it goes black.
Jun 25, 2015
Jun 25, 2015 at 12:15 AM UTC
A product of peace and propaganda
God of nothing
Hope, but don't expect too much
Chewed up and spit out
Like a favoured gum
Acknowledgment is lacking the knowledge if passion
Binded by free chains
Silently screaming
I hope there is a lesson learned in all this *******
A vision of greatness
Despite arousing statements
We man hear then our trouser snake lifts
My heart beats fierce when I see your face or hear your name
I try not to let it, it just happens,
My brain has forgotten
But the memory or stored in my loving apparatus
Ever picture and caption
I remember what happened
The better I make you feel the more you ignore me
The **** is annoying
Patients is a virtue it won't hurt you a little bit
Practice the preaching
It's still all simple ignorance
You just want the reassurance
That you're beautiful
That you're smart
That you're awesome
Or that
Things aren't that bad
Then you ignore us and that
Isn't really a heavenly match
Say hi to the sunrise
And For mercies' sake
Let it die if you knows it's bleeding
Aug 4, 2014
Aug 4, 2014 at 2:48 AM UTC