#avoid
Reading magazines and books
listening to music and singing
painting to my heart's content
Avoiding thinking about
what I hear on the news
that is how we all should
pass their days
Indulge in pursuits
which make you happy
and strengthen you
to face the ugly reality
Apr 22, 2025
Apr 22, 2025 at 2:17 PM UTC
I can always say,
If I leave,
I can ignore it.
But thats not how it works,
Does it?
I already know,
It’ll haunt me,
Until the end.
Oct 2, 2024
Oct 2, 2024 at 12:44 PM UTC
We bought a new painting. It looks like…it looks. The little girl. The dog. They appear dripped on but look out with life — at my life. Sherry bought it. I nodded. That’s all I do. I don’t go into that room because the girl might cry. The dog might bark.
Aug 13, 2024
Aug 13, 2024 at 4:21 PM UTC
Come and visit us,
or do you prefer to wait --
until I am sick?
Dec 28, 2022
Dec 28, 2022 at 3:21 AM UTC
You live on "borrowed time"
At least that is the story you say
If that actually is true
Can you explain the delay?
Knowing how fake you are
Sure it's just a lie
Many of your words are ********
Surprised you are not covered in flies
Uncertain how you got to this point
Was a time where you once stood tall
What I mean;
You had a reason to
Still do with no reason at all
I guess along journey you changed
The person that I see
Became a perfect example
Example of who NOT to be
You tread upon backs of others
In order to get what you want
Even if that means inflicting pain
You do not mind being a ****
Not thinking about future
Solely focused on present thrill
Feeding on people's energy
Seem to never get your fill
I suspect you are miserable inside
That's why you tear others in two
Only way to ease your suffering
Make everyone as unhappy as you
But never seem to shed a tear
Wear a permanent grin
I believe it's because you are striving so hard
Concealing the agony within
Broken so many ways
Have a house but it's not home
Without family to return to
Probably easier to roam
A steady rotation of bodies
Little boys avidly chasing your tail
Your company isn't free
Because pussy's for sale
Thrown like a football
Highest bidder gets the pass
You get bored-no problem
There is always greener grass
Your life rests in ruins
Lost so many parts
Kids
Friends
And reputation
Vanished like your heart
Falling apart a piece at a time
Pretending to keep together
We both know you can't maintain
Perfect charade forever
Your youthful beauty all but dead
Wear so much paint on your face
Entire cosmetics section of Walmart
Stuffed into your makeup case
I see beneath false advertisement
True colors bleed right through
Under skin is grey and black
Soul the ghastliest hue
Reflected in statements you make
Sound either insane or idiotic
Unsure if you are playing stupid
Or you are truly that psychotic
It appears you hurt those around you
Because you can
As if you don't have enough suitors
Steal another woman's man
Your cruelty clearly defined
At least it is from my point of view
Fool everyone else surrounding
A persona that isn't true
But karma will catch up in the end
Hope you're destined to be alone
I feel that is what you deserve
Frozen straight to bone
It's never too late to turn over a new leaf
Begin treating people right
You have to want improvement
Fear for you it's out of sight
Content with road you're walking
Not knowing where it leads
Flesh poked with needles
Uncaring it bleeds
Darkness swallowing you whole
Don't seem to be aware
It's strangling the last bit of goodness
Within remaining there
I do not understand how you can glance
In mirror and not feel disgust
All the disappointment you've caused
Lost a lot more than just trust
Next time you drag name through the mud
Make sure own hands are clean
You have more sins in your book
Than a ***** magazine
If expecting us to back down
In for quite a surprise
Soon as we go toe-to-toe
I will cut you down to size
So better watch your mouth
If the plan is to avoid confrontation
Free to do and say whatever you please
I warn you - there will be retaliation
Apr 22, 2022
Apr 22, 2022 at 2:51 AM UTC
The dogs romp about,
their masters prefer to look --
any other way.
Apr 19, 2022
Apr 19, 2022 at 3:34 AM UTC
Turned the radio off
When breakup songs came on
Because you couldn’t face the fact
That they sounded like us
Jul 2, 2020
Jul 2, 2020 at 10:17 AM UTC
I think we're so afraid of breaking
each others' hearts,
That we can't even start a conversation
in the first place.
That is unbelievably painful.
Apr 3, 2020
Apr 3, 2020 at 9:01 AM UTC
my hands and thoughts do tremble
seeing that which i resemble
nasty snarl upon my face
reminding me i’m a disgrace
furrowed brow and clenching fist
intrusive thoughts i can’t resist
cowardly i run and hide
from everything i keep inside
Mar 8, 2020
Mar 8, 2020 at 10:22 AM UTC
We caress the heavens together
-Calm-
In a trance
Lost in a sea of souls
I find you hard to miss
-familiar-
I can’t escape your pull
I flow
-not with the wind-
But with you
Bending air as I go
My whole eternity is you
A blue vastness
-too great to ignore-
From my perspective
I live for you
As there is nothing else
Quite as magnetic
-although, I’m trapped for sure-
My naivete may live on
Yet even I ponder
The slight trembling in my heart
Subconscious, or am I over?
There, a world spilling with ants
So small-
Yet visible with their feats of humanity
-I can see it so clearly now-
Where once there were only specs-
Now there lay a myriad of wonders
Right before me
-the haze clearing-
My confidence
often a victim of gravity-
So steady hands always pulled me up
Right on cloud nine
I no longer feel the softness of those palms-
Once my ever-aiding life
-safety-
I have fallen out of your grasp
The wetness of tears
Staining my existence-
Yet clearing it all the same
I fall as the icy raindrops guide my demise
All hard and true-
I must accept my punishment
For I have lived on far too long
And know much too little
Seeping into reality-
I can feel every texture on my skin
Every imperfection on the ground
-forever taunting me-
Leaving the once continuous cycle-
Venturing into the unknown
Where-for once-
A seed may grow larger than a planter could ever provide
A wild flower-
Thriving in a sea of individuality
Forever smiling at the sky
Despite the abandonment
Feb 21, 2020
Feb 21, 2020 at 1:48 PM UTC
The drops on my face
Cool and refreshing it feels
Hidng all my tears
Nov 14, 2019
Nov 14, 2019 at 4:28 PM UTC
You can't catch what I have
Your sympathy I avoid
The happiness that I had once
My depression destroyed
Nov 8, 2019
Nov 8, 2019 at 1:23 AM UTC
she looks at me with sad eyes
as if the is asking me to leave
to go away
as the eyes once told me to
to vanish into thin air
like the dandelion's seeds
but i stare back
trying to take in her beauty
for this might be the last time i see it
i forgot i miss her
i forgot that we had good memories
but i try to smile
or not look sad
but i can't help it
i can't stop
staring
staring into her eyes
the sad eyes that told me to leave
the sad eyes that once told me to stay
the sad eyes that were once happy
the sad eyes that i once loved to see
the eyes look away, almost quickly
as if they've seen enough
and look down at the ground
trying to avoid the sight
of another's eyes staring
the eyes that they once loved
and my eyes
kept
staring
Nov 2, 2019
Nov 2, 2019 at 6:03 PM UTC
I'm drunk
At home
Alone
Again
I met
That girl
Who's she
Again
Tight curls
That girl
Striped pants
No chance
You shot
My heart
I can't
Pretend
To be happy
Tonight
So don't @me
Alright?
No dm please
I'm fine
I must
Avoid
The things
You say
Wake up
No luck
You're done
Okay?
I miss
Those nights
Up late
We sang
You shot
My heart
I can't
Pretend
To be happy
Tonight
So don't @me
Alright?
No dm please
I'm fine
Oct 20, 2019
Oct 20, 2019 at 1:05 PM UTC
i am laying
as still as possible
i feel a small spider
gently walking across
my right eyebrow
i refuse to stir
or bat it away
if i do
you will know
i am awake
and i would rather
you did not
Sep 3, 2019
Sep 3, 2019 at 2:38 AM UTC
Running after you
I think about us
You avoid me
Are we meant to be?
Jul 9, 2019
Jul 9, 2019 at 12:13 PM UTC
Go ignore yourself, go be someone else,
Say it’s all okay, smile another day.
smile, inside you’re crying,
Laugh, inside you’re dying.
Say it’s just a moment, it’ll go in a minute,
hide away your feelings, bottle all emotions.
You keep hearing questions, questions you can’t answer,
You don’t know the answers, growing sick and tired.
Go ignore your friends, possibly the best,
watch em walk away, from this utter fake,
Doesn’t know themselves, doesn’t know what to say.
Smile, there’s no tomorrow,
laugh, there’s no today.
They don’t know you, darling like I do.
Ignore the silent voices, mute yourself you’re silent,
watch as you scream and shout, look there’s not a sound.
Go ignore you’re family, they don’t mean a thing,
No it’s all ok, they‘re just everything to you.
Go avoid your father,
just cause he will hate you, if he only knew,
who you are today, such a disappointment,
Bad taste , bad excuses, god you’re really hopeless.
Go avoid your mother,
Yes avoid her questions, go ahead keep you’re distance,
Watch her sit in silence, watch it you’ll lose her too.
The world still turns and turns,
the worlds still in its orbit.
We’ve got a billion thounsand heads,
millions loosing their sleep.
And a billion thousand hearts,
millions of them hurting.
I am only one,
in billion thousand souls,
So insignificant,
So irrelevant.
Apr 21, 2019
Apr 21, 2019 at 2:27 AM UTC
I have ignored the warning signs
teetering, all a' kilter
upon this precipice
to breathe, hard air
a gasp, of frigid life
tip into another one
trip into oblivion
my mornings are strains of
ichor from within
ochored bile an offering
to a porcelain god
an illness slinks
through these
capillaries
sandpaper stress
scrubs my marrow clean
to bleached
pale
bone
Apr 8, 2019
Apr 8, 2019 at 8:45 PM UTC