#assurance
I forced all the air in,
My lungs ache within,
My head is ringing,
Now I am fearing, I will go deaf.
What if I won't hear my calling?
My mental state's tearing up,
I am hearing voices,
All these murmurs, whispers,
There's white noise in my mind.
Pushing through the clouds,
I am falling to the ground,
I missed the landing,
Still, I'm going down.
Swimming through the depthless ocean,
I am compelled to find the bottom,
Fighting sharks with bare hands,
Wish I had a cheat gun, I could’ve shot 'em.
Would've made my progress easier,
Instead I'm wasting up my leisure,
Just to make my godforsaken life,
even more ******* busier.
But I'm fighting more than sharks though,
All these nameless monsters circling my luck,
They steal while I'm sleeping,
Leave me with a day even worse so.
They creep close enough,
for me to feel their presence linger,
Not a day goes by,
Where my depression has not given me a seizure.
How long do I gotta keep up?
I'd like to get a measure of my lifeline,
Assure me with a pat on my head,
that all's going to be fine.
Show me a sign,
For once in my life I would like to breathe a sigh,
Give me a rest,
tell me if it's okay for me to die... or to dine.
Mar 4
Mar 4, 2026 at 10:02 PM UTC
All becomes a lie,
When there's ceiling without floor,
When there's omega without alpha before,
When there's entry without a door,
All is a lie.
When day passes, yo text not on my screen,
Yo whisper in a voice note, sleep to bring,
With out yo tender touch, light against my skin,
All is nothing but a lie.
Jan 20
Jan 20, 2026 at 12:52 AM UTC
Chapters closed
Doors locked
New leaves grown
It’s the end of the season where minds are unlockedly locked
The pain of starting all over, the beauty of the last days
Days to let go
Past for past
Begin on a clean slate
Save your life to come by not ruining now,let it go
I never wanted to close not to the extent of closure
My intent was to be open, I aimed for more exposure
Decisions and choices has to be made
Peace, be protected
Safety and security be ensured
I began while the endings withered away
Sorrowful happiness
It is a wound in the heart but it sows healing seeds
Seeds for open opportunities
Jul 1, 2025
Jul 1, 2025 at 1:52 AM UTC
We know that which we know.
That being that we only know
That which is learning, to grow.
That knowing is to learn.
It is to never completely be sure
Of that which you already understand,
Yet to be totally assured.
For in that ignorance,
There is wisdom.
Apr 15, 2025
Apr 15, 2025 at 6:20 PM UTC
I'm a ghost, an empty shell, a stranger amongst flesh
I walk the certain way, contrary, unseen and unheard
Flesh seems unaware of me and my way and walk away
My voice wordlessly soundless and my touch the wind
Spirit and flesh have no fellowship and union, futility
I see the sighted unseeing, stumbling, falling, smiling
Without truth confident the next step is never void
Every fall is knowledge every bone broken is growth
Till the last fall then to sleep eternal, life's done
Without fear, without regrets, for what else is life?
Feb 19, 2025
Feb 19, 2025 at 9:41 PM UTC
It's okay, you don't have to pay. It's covered
By (assurance) of Grace
On Judgement of Value
Food for the world on a gold plate
Something so small has so much weight
For who can weigh eternal life
And who can say that life has a price
This world will rate and measure
Criticize and place you at its leisure
But the Lord uses a different system
Jesus took our place as spotless victim
He looks into the heart of hearts
Where the human soul resides
He moves past even the locked parts
To find where the treasure lies
He sees beneath the surface. Hidden,
Lies untapped potential; something more
And from the depths it has risen
Like waves to crash upon the shore
Who can know the mind of God
Or understand God's actions?
If beauty is in the eye of the beholder
How beautiful we must truly be
For God made us in His image
And so dearly loves you and me
Nov 1, 2024
Nov 1, 2024 at 10:35 PM UTC
The Gentle Breeze signifies Clarity and Peace of assurance that All things will fall into place at its rightful time. So, you need not to worry!!!
B.R.
Date: 9/4/2024
Sep 4, 2024
Sep 4, 2024 at 4:48 PM UTC
“Do you think we’ll ever be ok?”, she asked
“Depends what you mean by ok”, I replied
She then, gave me a look that spoke a thousand words and said, “okay”.
Jun 30, 2024
Jun 30, 2024 at 7:53 PM UTC
Every good time turns into bad
just like every day turns into night.
Every time we think things are getting better
they take a turn for the worst.
Sometimes when you’re in the deepest pit of darkness
that feels like it will never end,
all you need is one thing.
You need that one assurance
that you’re going to be okay.
If you look to God,
he gives you that one hope.
He has already saved you
from the darkest pit you could ever imagine.
He is your light at the end of the tunnel,
and he gives you eternal life
when you think you can never wake up again.
Feb 20, 2022
Feb 20, 2022 at 6:57 PM UTC
Timing plays a big part
I thought I was ready
Ready to start again
Good thing I pulled back a little
Now all that I built
All the sweat & blood that I shed
Bore fruit
Now we are both ready to start this journey.
Jul 27, 2021
Jul 27, 2021 at 3:04 PM UTC
~
*Gliding along
The edge of night
Voiceless
In their sorrow
Silent in the wake
Of remissive waters
Their call
Their beckoning
A flare
To the soundless heavens
Quiet in the assured
Expectation of faith*
~
Nov 9, 2020
Nov 9, 2020 at 11:06 AM UTC
Him: fall for me, l will catch you
Her: why
Him: Because that's what super heroes do
Oct 26, 2020
Oct 26, 2020 at 2:53 PM UTC
I was wondering if there would be a chance you would contact me and talk about what had happened to us, that maybe we could see each other and maybe by then I’ll have what I need－closure. Maybe by that, I could find acceptance and finally say that this is the reality and I have to face it. But I know it won’t happen. I know you, you should have done it earlier, at least?
I’m still waiting for your message. I’m still holding on maybe we could work this time again or maybe we could sort this out but I know that the more I try to connect with you, the more painful it could be since you already cut me off from your life and I don’t want to become selfish to your decision. To be honest, everything is still not clear to me. Maybe because I didn’t get the answers I deserve, that I still lack your explanations to the point I’m wanting to see you so we could settle this out, and maybe by that I could finally have the courage to say my last goodbye. I’m wanting to see you－ to make sure you’re okay, to hug you for one last time, and to tell you I’m thankful for everything.
Maybe we could see each other again, for the last time. And maybe by that, I would finally feel the freedom and assurance that it’s over.
Sep 1, 2020
Sep 1, 2020 at 4:08 AM UTC
It’s the assurance of petrichor after rain
that makes me believe in rainbow after pain.
Jun 20, 2020
Jun 20, 2020 at 7:01 PM UTC
And when all of you are tucked in,
asleep soundly in your beds.
The comforter I'd sewn,
keeping you safe like I promised,
I'll shut the door
and close my eyes to weep too.
Apr 25, 2020
Apr 25, 2020 at 10:59 AM UTC
In my first and final year
Of higher education
At a party of familiarity
I did not aspire to find my limits
And yet
I exceeded them
And lay in a whirlwind,
At the night's close,
Which ****** the air from my lungs
As I forgot how to breathe
Avaricious sirens bore down and
Led me to water
Hooked into my veins
So I couldn't refuse to drink
And a doctor told me
That there were always better options
Than drinking myself away
Naturally,
I grinned and laughed
As if the very idea were preposterous
And yet, couldn't look him in the eyes
"Trust me,"
I assured the man
"That isn't the plan"
No,
The truth is I never had a plan
No grand scheme
To end my suffering
I just slowly taught myself
Not to to take care
To cut myself off
From my lifelines
So that when I did finally find my limit
I wouldn't have far to jump
...but, truthfully
I never wanted to jump
I wanted some calamitous wind
In the form of a stranger
To come along and push
Yet, against all odds
For reasons I cannot discern
I've found
Those who wander into my life
Don't push, but pull
Pull me down from that precipice
Sometimes on accident, or
With intent
Of saving a life
But no matter how grateful I am
To be held and reassured
I always find myself back
Overlooking the sea of my past mistakes
Ready to drown myself
In the towering waves of regret
I wish I could find life worth living
On my own
For myself
But, I find myself living for them
Those who hang on to me
Keeping me balanced
Keeping me
From finding my limits
And for now that's enough
That's enough
Apr 24, 2020
Apr 24, 2020 at 3:10 AM UTC
He loves her even on her darkest days.
His tight embrace shows her that flowers can still bloom
even under the rain falling from a threatening storm,
and even under the pale light of the moon.
His kisses remind her that
even wildflowers blossom on a desert floor.
His words assure her that she is not alone.
This is how he shows her that
he loves her more.
Jul 26, 2019
Jul 26, 2019 at 8:46 AM UTC
“I love you,”
she told him.
At last!
Instead of breaking down,
crying with relief and joy,
as he thought he would,
he whispered back:
(because...
all but a whisper
was drained out of him)
“I love you, too.”
And, in a moment,
the very words
he had waited for,
longed for,
imagined,
became his tether,
a warm vest,
a peculiar fold in the blanket,
one holds through the night.
He repeated them like a mantra.
He pictured them in the ceiling tiles above the bone scan machine.
He heard them in the rhythm of the doctor’s voice,
He saw their outline in the branches beyond the window,
And they were the very last sound,
softly tumbling through his mind
when he slipped away.
Jun 18, 2019
Jun 18, 2019 at 10:57 PM UTC
After a neat little bite
She slid his sandwich into its baggie
And smiled,
Never tiring of her little joke.
“See, it’s alright. Im here with you, having a little fun!”
After the bell he peered into the bag.
And there it was
And a note:
“I love you, Aaron. “
This morning’s mixture of boredom and fear punctuated by her love
Then he daydreamed of helping with the clothespins,
Sheets snapping in the wind
May 30, 2019
May 30, 2019 at 12:51 PM UTC
Hush, Baby, Hush.
Soothing and Pillowy, Lush is Love.
Waters Rush, Rain Pour, Tears Fall.
Sleep, My Baby, Sleep.
For Dreams, Life's Balm, Soothes.
Apr 18, 2019
Apr 18, 2019 at 1:22 AM UTC
I'm slinkin out,
puttin a future behind.
My thoughts are in a scatter
How can i decipher all this chatter?
I just wanna float by in a haze
Leave my mind in hope for some sort of praise,
One moment of peace.
I can't take the accusations
I may seem lost but it's all in the creation
Boozed up, no judgement to spare
Wouldn't have even bothered on a dare
Am I the only scumbag?
Nah, you're all ****** in the head too.
I let the shell crumble
Gave into the demon.
No ***** left to give,
I'm in this alone.
My mind knows its truth,
My heart ignores its signs.
Make me smile and maybe my
Legs spread, knees bend.
Seek your truth,
Have you found mine?
Feb 4, 2019
Feb 4, 2019 at 1:03 PM UTC