#analytical
The height of the ledge granted miles of visibility, from which I perceived a landscape so barren that decay itself had littered the earth with writings of its famine.
Fixed overhead, the harsh sun exhausted every part of my being as my eyes pooled with gratitude—for I could not imagine the state of my vision had the ground been more solid and hoary.
Abandoning hope of amelioration, I watched as the stone below binged upon the light—reflecting only that which met it between guzzles.
From this binge, a subsequent purge of radiant heat ensued, seemingly serving as a form of remittance to the air through which the energy had initially been permitted to pass.
Tracing the cliff's face, the newly heated air rose in gusts to the point at which it met mine—further immersing me in a growing sum of vertigo.
Overwhelmed, I took a step back and—despite my efforts—still somehow managed to collide with everything existing outside of my posterior. The view of the desert displayed itself to me in full; I saw a place unapologetically indifferent to acknowledgement or understanding.
Haunted by permanence, the thought of the city struck me—and I became overwhelmed by the disparity; I felt myself choke on the recollection of its nourishless bounty—an ever-expanding sea of stimulation, perpetually begging for attention: damning us to be pruned by its abundance while starving in its own growth.
For centuries, a desire for more has given reason to manufacture new means for innovation; and in its wake, it has left nothingness itself—the true logical default—to now stand as one of the few remaining novelties.
Jun 25, 2025
Jun 25, 2025 at 2:42 PM UTC
We are all bewildered dancers
Lost in an incomprehensible ballet—
Woven tightly through a rich tapestry,
Drawn from contrasting colors,
Yet forming a boundless whole,
Waltzing hand in hand—
In love and hate, joy and suffering,
Dark and light, death and life.
The universe—a radiant church window,
Fracturing light into polychromatic unity,
Drifting shards of stained glass,
Piercing through the drama of duality,
Rippling into a sea of endless complexity,
Wedged between the boundaries
of stars and the space that forms them,
A perfection found in imperfection,
Beneath this sea of contrast lies truth:
How could we be anything at all
Without two sides to make us whole?
Before the technicolor skies formation,
We were the loneliest deity,
Infinity alone in a room made of itself,
Where everything was everywhere,
And time unfolded all at once.
So we crafted ourselves a dream—
From the core of our mirrored soul,
A place where I am you and you are me,
So we may live and perish in grace.
So we may play a game with ourselves,
Performing on this boundless stage,
An intricate puzzle piece,
Fitting together in a dance of chaos,
Meticulously designed to deceive ourselves,
So we may treasure life in the face of death.
Navigators of the in-between,
Wandering the maze of nothingness.
If infinity could dream,
Its deepest longing would be
To grasp something real—
To feel the grass beneath its feet,
As it runs across the hills of our earth,
Savoring the fleeting bliss of it all.
The present is so precious,
It hints at a reason we call it so—
A split second glimpse of meaning
In the eternal dance of existence.
Sep 9, 2024
Sep 9, 2024 at 10:50 AM UTC
Humans tread this lonely universe,
as an ever-dispersing body,
but our I’s never meet.
Behind the velvet curtains of our minds,
within the iris of our eyes,
rests an endless expanse of stars,
refracting off a crystalline hall of mirrors—
a boundless,
eternal reflection,
devoid of every word.
Whispering so softly in us,
behind all thought, all form,
revealing everything,
yet ultimately nothing—
nothing at all.
Sep 9, 2024
Sep 9, 2024 at 10:49 AM UTC
DIGESTION
When the temperature is raised
Particles gain kinetic energy
And collide at a greater frequency.
The more particles that collide
The chances of a reaction occurring increases.
How many times have elbows rubbed
In hallways, no matter how crowded
Yet nothing happens,
Nothing precipitates,
Not even a cough
Or a wandering shot
From the corner of their eyes.
People pass
By or away
And yet hallways are still full;
Full of thoughts of other people
Full of longing
Full of the people who are missing.
USE OF ELECTROLYTE
The addition of an electrolyte
Reduces the coulombic repulsion
Produced by a solution’s ionic atmosphere;
An electrolyte allows ions to interact more freely.
A full bus is void of tension.
A stranger who writes letters everyday,
But crumples the paper before finishing
Is completed by the person
Who eagerly awaits a text on their phone.
A person with a bouquet of flowers
Catches the eye of someone lost in thought.
So many people who compliment one another,
Or an other,
Sit idly on a moving bus
Separated only by people
Who, too, are separated from their second piece.
You meet such people everyday
Who could have been,
Yet are not.
CO-PRECIPITATION
Something that is generally avoided.
An impurity that co-precipitates with the product
Can cause an overestimation of analyte.
Impurities can be caught within
The crystal lattice structure of the compound
Or trapped inside a growing crystal.
It may be hard to understand
Such thoughts still seem foreign
But I, too, have things that I remember dearly.
They are wrapped up with
Lists of groceries, and formulas
About distance and its relation to
Speed and its change over time.
It is all just things that have
Come to pass.
Such memories are hard to keep
When there is only one who articulates them,
But I am sure
Perhaps years from now
You’ll catch yourself thinking
For a split second
And then go about your day.
PEPTIZATION
The breaking up of precipitate
Due the loss of electrolyte
Which strengthens the ionic atmosphere
Around the analyte.
In line at a bus stop
A glimpse is caught
Of the oncoming bus
And people shuffle
As the line moves up.
Never again
Can the same people
Line up the same way
For the same bus
We are too fragile
To construct ourselves in such a way
Where we can meet again.
Fate is too frail
Someone must leave
Leaves must fall
But someone always stays.
Nov 4, 2018
Nov 4, 2018 at 12:43 PM UTC
Of thee, my queen of stinky toes;
ur feminine perfumes surround me;
ur red perfume meanders through
my nostrils like day and flowers;
I will drink all ur sweet and bitter
nectar; look and do not deny urself
to your prophet, squire, thirst for
thirst, and you will drink of me in
the gilded brook of the joyful dance
O to ur exquisitely stinky feet; woman's
heady perfume surrounds me; ur red
perfume smashes through my nostrils
like heaven and flowers; I will drink all
your sweet and bitter dew; look, don't
deny your prophet, nostalgia, thirst for
thirst, you will drink of me
of the gilded stream of joyful dancing
ur exquisite smelly feet; Woman's perfume
surrounding me like red petals crushed
to my nostrils like the sky and flowers;
I will drink all ur sweet and bitter dew;
Look, don’t deny ur prophet, Your memory,
ur thirst for understanding thirst, you
will drink w/ me with a happy golden dance
Exquisite smelly feet; Woman's perfume
surrounds me; ur red perfume is crushed
in my nostrils like the sky and flowers;
I will drink all ur sweet and bitter dew;
Look, don’t deny ur prophet,
ur memory, eager to understand
the longing for longing, drink of me
longingly in gold-plated happiness
The woman's stench and delicate feet,
the woman's perfume revolves around
me, ur red perfume is pressed against
my nostrils like the sky and flowers, I
will drink all ur sweet and bitter dew,
see, do not deny ur prophet, ur memory,
longing to understand nostalgic desires,
you will drink w/ me in a cheerful dance
The woman's stench and delicate feet,
the woman's perfume swirled around me,
ur red soles pressed against my nostrils,
I breathe u in like the sky and flowers,
I would drink all your sweet and bitter dew,
see, do not deny you Prophet, ur memory
to understand nostalgic desires,
you will have a cheerful golden dance
The stench of a woman and her thin legs,
the perfume of a woman swirling around
me, ur red spirits snuggled against my
nostrils, like the sky and flowers, I would
drink all your sweet and bitter dew, do
not deprive urself of the Prophet, ur
memories of nostalgic desires, you will
be a joyful dancer made of golden light
A woman and her thin thighs,
the fragrance of a woman revolving
around me, ur red soul blazes
against my nose, like the sky and
the flowers, I will drink all ur sweet
and bitter dew & like rare wine
you do not depreciate w/ the memory
of ur sadness's desires, you will
be a prosperous golden dancer
That a woman and her skinny
thighs wrapped in the perfume
of my wife; despite our soul's
sadness, we will be successful
Apr 17, 2018
Apr 17, 2018 at 7:05 PM UTC
*Her beauty glows from her character,
Her eyes are good attitude,
And her lips; good words.
Her nostrils are hope,
Her make up is confidence,
Her crown is her integrity.
She isnt flawless and she doesnt try to be
Real as she can be,
She lives in reality.
Emotional independence and stability both are her strengths,
A woman with values and well aware of her worth,
Doesnt abuse her sexuality to take men for granted.
That is the queen of integrity.*
Oct 31, 2016
Oct 31, 2016 at 12:06 PM UTC
hatred
for every human
that's ever existed
how pathetic,
naive,
stupid
they fill me
with disgust
and pity
isn't it ironic
how my
pretentious
view of humanity
is matched
by my inherent desire
for their company?
making me the
most pathetic
most disgusting
most pitiful
one of all
I'm ******* lonely as hell dude
can't stand to be around anyone
but even more,
can't bear to be alone with my mind
intimacy and conversation -
regardless of quality -
serve as a distraction
from the feeling of dread
which won't leave me
ever
in my solitude
it feels like
something is laughing
at my existence:
a cockroach
with a superiority complex
pretending to be dignified
like it won't be crushed
immediately
when stepped on
SOMETHING OR SOMEONE
PLEASE
END MY LIFE
Aug 20, 2016
Aug 20, 2016 at 11:11 PM UTC
I am the ocean-
from an objective glance
one might say
I am predictable
my tides
my moods
are just a reaction
caused by
my moon of emotion
I inch closer to you
then pull away
the moon is my master
and I am but a puppet
to her
wade in my shallow waters
before venturing further
for your own safety
study me first
before exploring my depth
I have swallowed innocent people
whole
when they did not
know what to expect
their bodies will always rise
but I have drowned their souls
in my darkness
not something I am proud of
but they
should have known
what they were getting into
inside me there lives
demons disguised as sharks
lurking
until you show your
vulnerability
once they smell it
they will hunt you down
and abuse you
for their own advantage
but when you get to know
my secrets
my waters
my soul
I promise there is
beauty
in the underwater foliage
I can show you sights
you have never seen
as long
as you remember
when to pull up for air
just bring a life vest
and don't say
I never warned you
not
to swim too deep
Apr 11, 2016
Apr 11, 2016 at 2:56 AM UTC
I was thirteen when I made the first incision on my ****** heart, allowing its contents to pour out in a heavenly wave of confusion and innocence.
Which is fine.
I was fourteen when I tried to stitch the pericardium back together with the “I love you’s” that were never meant to be said, the heat of the activity, and the temporary “Stay Strong”s.
Which is also fine.
I was fifteen when I learned that the heart muscle can only regenerate in small, limited quantities, that it would never be quite the same in its entirety.
Which is, again, fine.
Now I am seventeen days from my sixteenth birthday, and I’m learning that time spent alone can not only let you find yourself, but can also lead you to parts of yourself you weren’t meant to discover quite yet.
But I am almost sixteen, and it’s too late. I cannot forget what I know.
Maybe seventeen will be kinder.
Jun 7, 2015
Jun 7, 2015 at 7:28 PM UTC
Im starting to write less and less
and Its scaring me
because I either have no sufferings to write about
or Its all become to much
which one?
how will I know?
whats wrong with my head
Its all twisted up inside
knotted guts struggling to chew through knowledge
am I maturing?
or am I finally turning to dust
I'm sorry if I'm not so sweet to hold,
its difficult when you slip through gaps
like the ones in your fingers
and the holes in your heart
May 6, 2015
May 6, 2015 at 6:18 PM UTC
Time is valuable
Its worth is incalculable
Time is unstoppable
Pausing it is impossible
Time is change
Nothing will ever be the same
Time is limited
Because death is imminent
Time is uncontrollable
The amount we receive is not negotiable
Time is mysterious
Because it is very ambiguous
Time is irrational
Attempting to measure it is unnatural
Time devastates
It will slowly decimate
Time is addicting
Without it, we would not be living
Time is torture
It slowly prepares us for the coroner
So be happy
It will cure the pains that hurt badly
So be unique
Your life does not have to be routine
Take the path that is right for you
Take the path with the best view
Jul 30, 2014
Jul 30, 2014 at 4:55 PM UTC
Don't obsess over the romantics-
shadows of eyelashes
what longing is and means
the way a chest falls
when bad news is heard.
Do anticipate disappointment-
and revel in pleasant surprise
only for the moment it exists.
Understand nothing lasts forever.
Don't give it away all the time.
and form a forcefield- a wall if it wills.
Always focus on the next task at hand.
Stop being so gracious-
and have more ambition,
demands that are either met or excelled,
higher standards.
You are stone until you want to be water.
Trees until you want to be storms.
The mouse until you want to be the owl.
Jun 25, 2014
Jun 25, 2014 at 3:19 PM UTC
Illegal answers require psychic invasion,
Personal opinion poses dangerous hobbies.
Thought police outlaw; evasion,
Applauds fourth-dimensional bodies.
If lifespan be as a labyrinth,
And garish men of magicians,
Are blessed with luck and wisdom.
If we bloom as imperialists,
And abandon our traditions,
Then it backfired, teaching us to think independently but listen.
Some advice screams truth aloud.
Too poor, for this is the minority,
Now the scene of this ****** thing is crowned.
Dim lit street lamps; slow dancing silhouettes.
A kingdom falls and it kills the sound.
Where we question lies here and there,
Here, then there, cancer coated lessons-
And long conversation that only wonder of more, hollowing an aged box of danger.
It has only taken every single descendants chances,
and we've trophied our lack of community.
So we've taken up advances, and embraced our anonymity.
More secure in loneliness and his companions,
Because fear is a world built for lost men with a common trait.
Their demeanor cheers:
"Abandoned, Abandoned."
-Traversing dust-riddled attics,
Discovering volumes, the journals of addicts.
We make the vices so dramatic,
Pray sweet no sinner, leaving gods post-traumatic.
Paperback letters,
Another waiting for the weekend.
Another fix, and I'm complacent.
Another deafening regret.
Screaming in my ears,
My pulse excites, vacation.
Animus gone racing.
You can't see it, but I swear it's there,
I don't know what you see in material things.
It doesn't hurt, but it bleeds.
Ghost towns, we,
The apparitions,
have minds so twisted,
It's Cataclysmic commonplace,
And these are some sadistic statistics.
What is the damage?
The telephone whispers, almost dead.
Another crippling harlot,
Internal bleeding,
And a few scars left.
A question lingers in the atmosphere.
Will I die like this?
The grass is green, and you can hide in your lies,
But know there's not much luck on the other side
Now?
I don't ******* care,
I don't...care.
Because all I consist of is a lost cause,
A lost cause with burdens to bear.
All of this conversation piece casts,
Yet I plant enlarging gardens.
Mother warns and Father mourns;
You'll reap what you sew, and finish what you've started.
Household horror story,
moaning and groaning and talks of hell.
Award-winning wintered heart
Burned the millionth ironic degree colder.
All-american, classical religion; a cult's worried storybook.
Gears grinding within a machine fit to sell.
The saint stays sinning while I rust nigh twin decades,.
Along the way,
Cemetery silence and vesper's nine raised my entity centuries older.
Salt-water sea folds offer flooring,
Riverbed full-house cathedral; blasphemy.
I stand and mimic a missionary, touring.
Nostalgia.
This all reminds me of home, though now it's not we who sit in
permanent pews snoring.
Forgive my old identity and it's abuse of me.
Forgive me and my use of we,
That I don't seem dull for my mind's eye's sight strayed... For a few thoughts.
Retrospect depicts life lived selfishly in leisure.
Mocking, spitting in the kindest face still surrendering, and...
I'm lost and content, drowning in thought again.
Thought...
An infinite, sacred journal.
A closet, save a doorknob, because no key is needed inside the bedroom's housing our souls.
Where god's children fellowship among the angels.
Or those like us fall for demonic hypnosis, with no need to say farewell.
Thought.
A trap, a gravesite, a laboratory.
A map of your life, or the origin of our own self-inflicted boring.
Our thoughts are forever ours, under any circumstance.
Even those of us that greet the sun on a grim crossway sidewalk, shaking with violence,
Internal, external,
Cold and wet.
To compliment the poetic beaten bones,
holding in place sentences scribbled across worn cardboard that whimpers...
That whimpers something so human.
To regular passerby's this is meaningless and mediocre.
To the youth, a sick humor for spoiled wannabe's and jokers.
Personally, and with whole heart my pen exposes sorrow, empty of any patience left on a fabled morning for that imagined intersection, or that city.
I saw humanity in broken cursive ink,
Cursing under sighs I saw what connects it all in my eyes.
It will seem radical, and hollow in meaning but I feel there exists substance behind this being's...
Expression.
I say there is depth.
I spoke the universe in my interpretation of the cardboard sermon that read,
"I don't want your pity, I want your pennies".
Consider with I, 'thoughts', again.
I consider, that if anyone were to remember the phrase connecting both, with distaste or sympathy.
No war hero, no slave to addiction;
The most ancient ideas of enemies, but neither side fate favored on what's given.
Be witness to our ignorance,
Where one another we could give our petty...nothings.
To save a life, or many.
To save our world.
We submit no rag the value of one single rich,
Gift no population with hope to survive and forgive.
Millionaire beggars scatter 'round plenty,
And their wealth will stay fictional,
But don't you agree their thoughts have stayed many.
Their pockets are empty, save their thoughts, which are infinite, and continue.
Endlessly.
Jun 9, 2014
Jun 9, 2014 at 2:09 AM UTC