#afterthoughts
I was never good at Math.
Maybe that's why I can never add up
all your love for me
or minus me ~ from you.
Nov 29, 2025
Nov 29, 2025 at 6:38 PM UTC
I am clear in my head and perhaps in heart that it is not love,
It is my own lack that I look to fill through you.
Isn’t it true that you also felt that you could fill your void with me?
Isn’t it all what we look for, in a relationship?
Sometimes I want just that…
Why can’t we have our cup filled by someone?
Why is there an image of ideals and perfection…
That we have to be all for ourselves,
Not needing validation.
Why do we strive to be all?
Nov 23, 2023
Nov 23, 2023 at 3:54 PM UTC
Some days,
I hate you more than words can encrypt.
Some days,
I miss your arms wrapped around me.
Some days,
I cry to my heart’s content blurred by love and hate.
Even through these days,
I must remind myself you are no longer the person I’ve come to know.
A whole 360 of your life was flipped.
Knowing the person you are,
Hurts a lot.
You were suppose to be it.
The one to change my name.
All out the window.
If I’d know the whole truth,
I still feel like it could’ve been different.
Sadly though we don’t get those chances to see.
Not when enough is enough.
Losing the faith that you’d be different.
Gone.
Feb 3, 2021
Feb 3, 2021 at 5:46 PM UTC
When you said "I love you"
it was like a room that was built
on to an already finished house----
always an afterthought.
When you said "I miss you"
it was like drinking coffee
from a teacup----
it never made a difference
But when you made
the mountains we had built up
into valleys
I asked "why?"
And you said
"Erosion".
Aug 30, 2016
Aug 30, 2016 at 9:52 PM UTC