#affected
how you affected me
was not a single moment,
but a slow erosion
like wind convincing stone
to forget its shape.
I didn’t notice at first.
your presence was a flicker,
a shift in the way I held my breath
when the kettle screamed.
you rearranged my sentences.
I began to speak in ellipses,
leave thoughts unfinished
to feel them echo.
my hands learned new hesitations.
I touched things differently
the edge of a book,
the space between keys,
the silence after music.
you didn’t ask for anything.
you just arrived,
and the architecture of my days
tilted slightly,
as if gravity had changed its mind.
I still walk the same streets,
but they feel
less certain.
Nov 16, 2025
Nov 16, 2025 at 4:06 AM UTC
There’s something about this early group, the ones that started first.
Denying the old to except the new, can never be rehearsed.
They’re scattered sparsely all around, nothing left to chance.
Often seen with underwear, on the outside of their pants.
Switching to the positive age, it’s light that we become.
so working on forgiving yourself, might not be so dumb.
The light that will configure you, soon about to start.
This will help you understand, when thinking with your heart.
With senses traveling higher than, you ever would have thought.
The world we knew will drip away, as old begins to rot.
As our world now awakens, to this glorious new day.
Chances are we’ll meet again, upon the middle way.
Sep 7, 2024
Sep 7, 2024 at 10:16 PM UTC
I have a lot to prove
I have even more to lose
If I forgot how to move
Would you risk a mile in my shoes?
Much of my heart I've had to forcefully remove
Just to hide the fact that I'm affected by the abuse
And maybe convince myself I'm of some use
A far cry from the sorry excuse of a life as a light fixture hanging for a noose
And even though it seems to always be me against myself it's still lose lose
So I hoist a white flag but my mind isn't interested in a truce
And ignores my pleas too please just cut me loose
©2024
Mar 17, 2024
Mar 17, 2024 at 10:14 PM UTC
When people are saying cruel words to me
it helps me when I say “They are being cruel to me”
as I name and blame their behaviour
then what they say loses moral-credibility
then I don’t have to listen to them anymore
then I don’t have to be affected;
When people are saying cruel words to me
I do my best to ignore them,
and I re-focus my mind on striving for my joy and happiness.
Jul 30, 2019
Jul 30, 2019 at 7:25 PM UTC
i wish i could be unaffected by the scars of my past
but time can heal no wound of mine
the marks will last a lifetime
Mar 7, 2019
Mar 7, 2019 at 12:14 PM UTC
Life was perfect- nothing to worry about
Enjoying everday, every minute, not and second
Never worrying about anything bad happening
But then, one day, things took a drastic turn
I'm now on the verge of ending my life
Nothing makes sense anymore, nothing matters anymore
The only thing that's stoping me is that:
I'll be hurting those around me, those who love me and everyone around me will be affected in some way
I can't do this to my best friend, she is everything to me
Without her, I'm nothing
I now found reasons to not **** myself
And I learned that life is going to be more painful death
But I just have to live through it
And one day, all will be different- a good different
Dec 3, 2018
Dec 3, 2018 at 6:18 AM UTC
"Affected"
is the only word I have
to describe what you do to me.
Apr 24, 2014
Apr 24, 2014 at 2:06 AM UTC