#11
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Wait? No,
no, I shan't wait, I've a mind
to make some changes, in time,
as you have imagined, I am
a poet of the most illustrious,
and least industrious sort, but,
you know? In just so right uses,
we was used to being used as,
tov ra... beauty's hard truths
see, who rah reason came to,
was us, the used to hold shield walls,
as was the point in playing football, see
we was the first of our kind, grid iron men,
we entertained the miners and foundry folk,
made believe enough's enough, and enough
to share, give a care, think one anxious thought,
ghucking gone phorthought, just if I'd wisht it, right
you can see the worth of the artist in us all, right?
We all make up our minds what we choose to believe,
doncha wonder, what if we all just up and got it wrong,
long ol' time ago, cowboys and Comanches storied wars,
Magi, wise, knowers of old kept faithful sacred creeds, wait,
suffer it to be so, all things, all our gathered empty ambiguity,
as we who assumed, as children of about six summers, pledged,
eh, we who pledged, under God, in 1954, first class of us, used
to prove who answers yes to Eureka as a concept, at age seven.
Those few exposed to Omnibus on Sunday afternoons, those
few were made to believe, we were the free and the brave, us
*** from the glorious projection toward this very same tomorrow,
which, be not deceived, is thunk slow, drunk slow, sometimes, not
often but plenty, as survival has probably been from not driving,
when one of these foolish daring doings done been done, doing
any weeping in my beer, will not stave the gout, goodness gracious,
gout, and Ben Franklin, and me and Madame Helvetius,
as a just us, we mental aberrations
at edgewizened sidereality's
twinkling, just as ifs.
Feb 16
Feb 16, 2026 at 10:24 PM UTC
And so I finished the letter
And you too finished your text
There may be good reasons, lies aplenty
but in the end my irises grew like lilies.
And so, it is over.
Whatever I thought was going on
I may be able to fool you once- but twice I cannot
I gave you every 11:11, every foolish wish and cry
My tears and crys, dedicated to you, when all I wanted was to die.
Maybe, in another life, we could be whole.
But something sits between us, yes,
Whether be my sorrow or your hole.
Feb 11
Feb 11, 2026 at 9:56 PM UTC
I like my coffee really hot.
Direct from the coffee machine,
Freshly brewed and steaming skyward,
Nonetheless to the nearby microwave, I digress,
For 90 seconds of steam room added bathing of my mourning
Coffee, bathing in a Vincent Van Gogh almond blossomed mugging
During said 90 seconds, I flutter and putter among the kitchen
countertops, hithering and dithering all about, wiping, swiping
crumbs of prior day's excessive remaining excesses, carcasses of
grains and grams, fruits and vegetables, restocking coffee beans,
watering said machine's infernal thirst for double pure ground water,
ect. etc. etcetera
all of the above takes a little over a minute, whence I return to my still
pre-re-intializing heating microwave clock is advising twenty four seconds till my additional brewing will be finite finished…
gawd, what the heck am I supposed to do for the next 24 seconds besides rock back-and-forth watching my coffee cup turn Vinny's
almond blossoms slightly more yellow?
Nah.
the internal ding resounds, with a write a poem dummy!
and so I did, even if it ain't exactly short and sweet or more
pissy than pithy
Ha!
while dashing off this scripty nitty gritty writy,
guess what?
my cafe au lay
grew cold again,
and so the
poem repeats
itself...grrr...
now, me extra very hot & pissy
Aug 11, 2025
Aug 11, 2025 at 9:15 AM UTC
Today Is the day I was born
The day i hate the most
Why was I born
If only to be be hurt by the person who help produce me.
I'm bad luck and a jinx
guess what to the man who hurt me
You ain't worth of being my dad
So i am going to celebrate my birthday embrace it no matter what..
You are not worthy of controlling me at 16!!!
Nov 11, 2020
Nov 11, 2020 at 2:04 AM UTC
To the victims of the 9/11 attacks
I apologize as a Muslim and a human being
For what those ******** did to you
If I had the choice I would die protecting
You
As for the ********
Who ******* up everything
Might I suggest
An apology to vics, muslims
And to Allah and Mohammed
(Pbuh)
For acts of sheer insanity
And murderous rage
لضحايا هجمات الحادي عشر من سبتمبر
أعتذر كمسلم وإنسان
على ما فعله هؤلاء المتسكعون لك
إذا كان لدي الخيار فسوف أموت وأنا أحمي
أنت
أما المتسكعون
من أفسد كل شيء
قد أقترح
اعتذار لفيكس المسلمين
وإلى الله ومحمد
(صلى الله عليه وآله وسلم)
لأفعال الجنون المطلق
والغضب القاتل
Sep 11, 2020
Sep 11, 2020 at 4:38 AM UTC
I am saddened by
What my precious
Had to go through
All those years ago
In opposing
Sides of the attacks
He was hurt by someone
Whom supposed to protect him
And I triggered by the idiots
Who caused the attacks
أنا حزين
ما غالي
كان لا بد من المرور
كل تلك السنوات الماضية
في المعارضة
جوانب الهجمات
لقد أصيب من قبل شخص ما
من المفترض أن يحميه
وأثارني الحمقى
من تسبب في الهجمات
Sep 11, 2020
Sep 11, 2020 at 4:29 AM UTC
You said, "Together forever".
When did forever become so short ?
Jun 5, 2020
Jun 5, 2020 at 9:20 AM UTC
We met in a beautiful way,
But we didn't know that we're both cursed.
There's many things I wanted to say,
But the Separation came first.
At the beginning of the journey - Me,
At the very end - You.
We're both stuck, don't you see,
Our shadows are lurking, that's true.
So, pushing ourselves away,
We're both losing each other.
I will trust the Universe,
To break the Curse from one another.
Jan 30, 2020
Jan 30, 2020 at 2:02 AM UTC
many of us know this date
many of us probably dislike it because...
good words, likes and hearts were deleted.
so i disliked january 11th until i figured that
god (others tend to call it "karma", "fate"
or "the cosm") is testing me.
every trial strengthens the
spirit of a fighter.
Jan 26, 2020
Jan 26, 2020 at 5:15 AM UTC
my class ends at 11:30 and ill
be home by 12.
so little in this world can give me
comfort like a closed door and a
grey sky through a
curtain.
Nov 29, 2019
Nov 29, 2019 at 6:15 AM UTC
where do mattresses go when they leave your home?
do they hitch a ride back to Oregon
that place that you only pitched as an idea for a funny road trip
but never actualized
instead the map with all the pins of the places you've visited
has become the places you'll go and now it's slanting askew
because your sense of perception is always a little crooked
do they sit by the curb of a dilapidated 7-11 and watch everyone
give them bedroom eyes
is there such a thing as pining or are we naturally drawn to the new?
something foreign that can be learned with time and patience
but the patience runs out like the water in the bag where that fish you won at the fair came in
and when you got home there was only plastic and the rubbery upside down belly of fish scales in an airless vacuum
do they enter through the window and shimmy under the
other dusty things in the attic?
Do they make themselves at home telling you stories of
everything they've seen and don't you wish that
the guests always stayed longer than you could hope for
but forever is not in your cards, it's not even in the receipts
you horde in the kitchen drawer
forever is stuck under the couch but you never check
because it's easier to just sit and think about it
Sep 1, 2019
Sep 1, 2019 at 12:22 AM UTC
Raindrops, water plops, let’s go see the ocean.
Let’s go skip a stone 14 and 11. Let’s go find a way so we could go to heaven.
Raindrops, falling on my face.
Raindrops mixing with my tears.
Tears falling into the water well.
Rose gardens, little girls picking them carefully.
But the rain is falling, and the girls are crying and the roses are wilting.
The wind is crying and I am crying and the well is crying and the roses are crying.
Raindrops, water plops, let’s go see the ocean.
Let’s go skip a stone, 14 and 11
Jun 27, 2019
Jun 27, 2019 at 7:35 PM UTC
It is Spring,
and you look at us,
take a picture
in the cherry blossom dress,
surrounded by your friends.
Summer nights
when you look at one of us in the bathroom,
grin and laugh at your drunkenness.
We smile back.
The leaves fall and you’re alone,
your breath fogs the glass in front of us
tears sliding down
“I'm dramatic”, you say.
If we could tell you something new,
it would be that we are there for you.
no one has seen you like we have,
checking your mascara
before your dates,
glancing in bathrooms when you feel overwhelmed,
before those college interviews,
sending pictures to the boys you like
that moment right before you cry.
Chin wobbling, lip teetering—
do not be afraid.
We are crying with you.
Apr 11, 2019
Apr 11, 2019 at 11:29 PM UTC
As I stare into the void,
Of a world I cannot hold.
I Escape now from that world,
From the world of feeling.
There is nowhere I can turn,
There is nowhere to go on.
Want to be the one,
To speak her name as mine.
Stars in the daylight.
Sun in the moonlight.
If Only.
Mar 24, 2019
Mar 24, 2019 at 4:30 AM UTC
_If you're looking for a reason not to **** yourself tonight, this can be it._
Sometimes, we feel as if nothing matters.
We all do.
So i made a list of a few of my own reasons,
13 Reasons Why
I'm still alive.
And hopefully you'll change your mind.
Those moments you feel happy, and nothing but lucky.
And you wish nothing will ever change.
I will try my best.
_Reason 11, Hostage._
Surprisingly.
It's really not like me to be so mean,
You're all I wanted.
Nature changes,
You left my mind.
And someone else entered it.
I don't know what feels true.
But this feels right,
So stay a sec.
Yea you feel right,
So stay a sec.
And let me crawl inside your veins.
I'll build a wall, give you a ball and chain.
Hold and hidden,
By my own hostage.
Kiss me until I can't speak.
Let me listen to your voice.
And let me drown in your words.
Want to be the one,
To speak her name as mine.
Changing sentences into the same.
Hold and hidden,
By my own hostage.
Mar 19, 2019
Mar 19, 2019 at 7:04 AM UTC
here came, the hardest goodbye
see it, here comes the end
farewell soon, here comes the sunset
Mar 10, 2019
Mar 10, 2019 at 4:17 AM UTC
11 months
that's all I could do
I tried for so long
I tried just for you
11 months clean
but today we start over
tomorrow is day one
I'm just growing older
11 months
but tonight my thighs sting
I took to them with a blade
as sharp as my ring
11 months
I kept searching for a reason not to
tonight I fought hard
but my blood was long overdue
Sep 24, 2018
Sep 24, 2018 at 10:35 PM UTC