Sometimes I just want to call my heart
To tell what's been on my mind
How far my art
has come,
To show how many times have I been blind
for some,
Lessons I needed to learn, and a way to find
out of this pain I gave meaning to.
Even tho' at the time I had no clue
That I chose to be attached to it.
Without any help, even a little bit.
So, I became indifferent,
But still it can still trigger me.
I truly believe I'm free
But something's always bringing me back
Into the space of emptiness
Where you convince yourself that there I'll find my happiness
...
It's not working like that;
Sick of waiting.
Being satisfied with a little chat?
Sick of hating
And loving myself in the same time.
...
I can't control someone else's heartbeat.
The only thing I can do,
Negative thoughts to defeat.
To define who I am
and don't care anymore
who are you.
May 1, 2021
May 1, 2021 at 3:07 PM UTC
can my angel army be more violent when it comes to expecting too much? to allow me to touch the fast thoughts converted to true colors of your dragon scale.
very proud and very kind
when it's all around okay
very loud, very strict
when it comes to do their own script
Mar 13, 2021
Mar 13, 2021 at 3:30 PM UTC
Yesterday the great conjunction started,
As well as the first day of winter,
The planets are aligned and charted,
The day of your birth, on calendar 2020,
printed.
I'm moving again soon.
Without any fear.
I'll be followed by the moon,
For the darkness of my path to see clear.
I'll leave here all bad visions and dreams,
This place doesn't know for good, it seems.
As an Aquarian, please oh Divine everything let me design my life the way I deserve it, without the influence of others.
Dec 22, 2020
Dec 22, 2020 at 3:16 AM UTC
These days, situations from the past,
Are going around me so fast,
To test me how will I react,
In those situations where you have to act.
Almost the same people, same locations,
Only you avoiding those stations.
But you're still finding that way in this maze,
Even though I'm not the one who chase.
Not Anymore :)
To get in touch again,
It's hard, I know.
Relax, I'm preparing a great show.
After ten months, you found a reason to talk to me.
You realized - I miss her, I see.
I will do my best,
That in the end we can lay on each other's chest.
Nov 1, 2020
Nov 1, 2020 at 4:36 PM UTC
The mirror now is broken,
The conformation woken,
My doubt from the other side - spoken.
Golden blood spilled all over my field,
Without any fear, I used that to form my shield.
He saw You there. He called me by the name You call me.
That's just a proof that you're waiting there for me.
While fighting his demons, he only met you on the way,
Luckily, I drove him away.
I made him break the layer of glass I couldn't master.
The frame will now heal faster, and the Gate is coming much more powerful then ever.
Just not letting anyone get near my space ever !
Hope The G.G killed one of the bad that morning.
There are three more to break free.
Don't mess with me again- This is the last warning.
You're just scared of your true self G.G, so get you away from me.
Since you're gone I have no sleep :D
Yeah for sure.
Joke on you.
Peace on you too !
Oct 28, 2020
Oct 28, 2020 at 8:41 PM UTC
All the time I was moving, I carried a large wall mirror with me.
I was looking for the best place for him in every new room I had to live in. The frame was very nicely decorated and the reflection in the mirror was even more beautiful.
Chapter One - Realization-
Last year, in December, I was upset about one specific person’s relationship. I analyzed a lot of our communication and the separation that had no end...suddenly my body began to tingle and release some waves coming to my mind that created for me a vision of someone behind that mirror. I felt amazing and very curious.
Little version of me was waiting behind the mirror to go through and go together into that space that is the only one right for me.
I consciously tried to take the best position to run in as soon as possible to see what all there was, but something was stopping me.
Zeitgeist touched my hand and it was a sign to me that it was not yet time for me to leave so abruptly.I came to terms with it and sketched up everything I saw and felt that night.
Chapter Two - The Next Year-
I move again. The mirror and the decoration of the wings had no place in that apartment, and neither did I. Their power was slowly weakening and I didn’t know it was so. A strange virus has occupied the whole world and we all had to isolate ourselves and deal with it. September is coming and as it is known, people are transforming a lot. I was doing a lot of reckless things because I was waiting to see that change in myself, and I didn’t know I was going to run into a lot of life-threatening situations. I did all this to drive away the pain of all failed relationships with friends, people, memories ... moving again ; new friends, new location, new balcony, new space for my Portal.
Chapter Three - The Golden God -
In those days I invited many people as guests to celebrate my new living space. They helped me make a lot of drawings and decorations to help me feel like it was my art studio.
One day a strange guest and potential friend came...
Split personality,conceit, ****** and everything bad you can imagine disrupted my values. He connected too much with the mirror and drew a lot of bad energies through it without me knowing it...after a while, I had to break the glass in the frame of my mighty Portal just for safety to protect my path which is now under repair. The Joker was sneaking around every time I had to deal with this **** of man, to help me in a strange, madly way to make a shield around myself.
(This story isn't really as short as I thought it would be)
Chapter Four - Broken 27 Layer -
I had to sacrifice the portal so that it could be reactivated at the right time. A painful moment when you hear the sound of something bursting that is part of you but you also saved it so you could continue to create stories and see behind it all. I removed The Golden God from my life now. Go f*ck yourself once for all !
The numbers that follow and protect me are now somewhere outside my space sorted and making codes that will be sent to me at the right time.
Chapter Five - Coming soon ...
Oct 28, 2020
Oct 28, 2020 at 8:40 PM UTC
In a strange way
The past of the future is coming My way.
I have my own Guardians,
But other natives are there to put me in the marble chains.
Perfectly ignoring them, I'm buliding My portal to see the unseen.
I realized, they don't respect me.
So, every time I feel the urge to make them feel free, I Will remeber that I'm the one who make the rules here.
Like if I had a choice to be the part od this **** inhabited field.
Oct 28, 2020
Oct 28, 2020 at 8:39 PM UTC
I put a lesson on my skin,
This time for the rest of my life.
Again, victimized, decided to get used to my pain.
It doesn't even hurt anymore, it's just implanted on the surface on my body. My never well accepted body.
I don't write in rhymes anymore.
Cause lost my passion for every little thing I loved to do or to make or to think and see and feel.
This tattoo on my hand will remind me on not giving permission to anyone to be more important than me.
Not to rely on another or something.
The ink is now out of the dark.
Sep 16, 2020
Sep 16, 2020 at 2:04 PM UTC
I went to that place by accident.
After two years of searching,
For the City view, I realized
I was very near.
I always knew, this place was hiding from me to come alone.
Now, that's clear.
My good friend was with me, and without her being there, I would probably choke on tears... Cause you once Said to me :
" I come here to suffer alone"
I need to grow into My Dragon spirit.
I feel like I'm loosing The Faith again.
If you really don't feel anything, you Will feel My sadness every time you come there alone or with somebody else. Or with her...
Aug 29, 2020
Aug 29, 2020 at 5:34 PM UTC
We meet
I stay.
They fall For me
I say :
I'm not from here...
They leave;
My dan turns into the night.
Cause nobody can't hear,
My love For them;
Even if they don't know the sight
Of My old soul.
Dazzling and beautiful
Black Hole.
Aug 4, 2020
Aug 4, 2020 at 2:15 AM UTC