It’s too bad, I suppose.
Was I supposed to say more?
Yes, of course I was,
what a question to ask
when I know that in the end
I’m always an overwhelming
Under-reaction.
[There’s a reason I never got bullied in school.]
I wonder why
I keep the letters,
the old poetry
when none of it makes me feel
anything at all
but
I guess all documentation is
in memoriam.
-
It’s too bad,
we couldn’t be
Civil.
[But of course,
Civil is never what you wanted,
I should have known better, my fellow borderline.
It’s all or none.
It’s always been that way.]
I think about you from time to time
not with anger,
just with,
well, I don’t know.
I don’t suppose
we’ll ever talk again.
The difference between you and I
is that if you cut me off,
I get the picture.
You say you’re done,
well,
say no more,
I’m gone.
There’s no need
to embarrass myself
again.
The difference between
you and I
is that I don’t cross
Boundaries.
-
Tonight
I find myself
rereading your poetry.
I do it from time to time -
strange to think of it
as illicit, Bad, Facebook stalking,
when we used to know each other.
[Seemingly.]
This one,
one of your many published poems,
is supposed to be about
Me.
That’s what you told her, anyway.
She didn’t get it,
and neither did I.
Even now,
there are not enough references to hold on to,
and the meaning is still lost on me.
[I was lost to you, a long time ago,
but that’s how it goes I guess.]
-
Found your soundclound page
[the only place I’ll hear your voice again]
and it’s strange
to see a picture of you
Smiling.
Your last words still buzz around in my head:
*…I am so done trying to be your friend
…selfish,
…I deserve better*
I don’t think
of you as smiling.
-
It’s too bad,
I suppose,
that I keep thinking
we could have been something,
that I keep thinking
it could have worked,
that I keep thinking
it could still work,
simply because
we had things in common.
Of course those things were never enough,
but what can I say?
I’m an idealist to the end.
-
It’s too bad, but
I am never going to forgive you.
Dec 8, 2014
Dec 8, 2014 at 10:46 PM UTC
It’s too bad, I suppose.
Was I supposed to say more?
Yes, of course I was,
what a question to ask
when I know that in the end
I’m always an overwhelming
Under-reaction.
[There’s a reason I never got bullied in school.]
I wonder why
I keep the letters,
the old poetry
when none of it makes me feel
anything at all
but
I guess all documentation is
in memoriam.
-
It’s too bad,
we couldn’t be
Civil.
[But of course,
Civil is never what you wanted,
I should have known better, my fellow borderline.
It’s all or none.
It’s always been that way.]
I think about you from time to time
not with anger,
just with,
well, I don’t know.
I don’t suppose
we’ll ever talk again.
The difference between you and I
is that if you cut me off,
I get the picture.
You say you’re done,
well,
say no more,
I’m gone.
There’s no need
to embarrass myself
again.
The difference between
you and I
is that I don’t cross
Boundaries.
-
Tonight
I find myself
rereading your poetry.
I do it from time to time -
strange to think of it
as illicit, Bad, Facebook stalking,
when we used to know each other.
[Seemingly.]
This one,
one of your many published poems,
is supposed to be about
Me.
That’s what you told her, anyway.
She didn’t get it,
and neither did I.
Even now,
there are not enough references to hold on to,
and the meaning is still lost on me.
[I was lost to you, a long time ago,
but that’s how it goes I guess.]
-
Found your soundclound page
[the only place I’ll hear your voice again]
and it’s strange
to see a picture of you
Smiling.
Your last words still buzz around in my head:
*…I am so done trying to be your friend
…selfish,
…I deserve better*
I don’t think
of you as smiling.
-
It’s too bad,
I suppose,
that I keep thinking
we could have been something,
that I keep thinking
it could have worked,
that I keep thinking
it could still work,
simply because
we had things in common.
Of course those things were never enough,
but what can I say?
I’m an idealist to the end.
-
It’s too bad, but
I am never going to forgive you.