i can remember your hands on my body
and feel entirely on fire
and i can remember the softness
of lying in your arms
and my entire heart softens with sadness
i can miss you with such strength
i can miss you with such pain
i can acknowledge inside of me i love you
but i can remember two weeks
and when you didn't hold me
and your sidestepping my anger and me as well
i am in love with who was mine.
i did trust you not to make yourself
to me someone who i would not
think to be with.
(this is selfish i know. i expected to stay unhurt,
i expected to recognize you in all your forms;
you showed me one i did not know you occupied)
i stay with my thumb
running across the features of your face,
loving you as you were mine.
i love you goodbye and tell you
that i will try to understand,
now, when you are not mine.
sunday, november.16.2014, 6:03 P.M.
Nov 16, 2014
Nov 16, 2014 at 9:00 PM UTC
i can remember your hands on my body
and feel entirely on fire
and i can remember the softness
of lying in your arms
and my entire heart softens with sadness
i can miss you with such strength
i can miss you with such pain
i can acknowledge inside of me i love you
but i can remember two weeks
and when you didn't hold me
and your sidestepping my anger and me as well
i am in love with who was mine.
i did trust you not to make yourself
to me someone who i would not
think to be with.
(this is selfish i know. i expected to stay unhurt,
i expected to recognize you in all your forms;
you showed me one i did not know you occupied)
i stay with my thumb
running across the features of your face,
loving you as you were mine.
i love you goodbye and tell you
that i will try to understand,
now, when you are not mine.
sunday, november.16.2014, 6:03 P.M.
this is not an attempt to condemn your change, but a way to explain to me how i can feel so much for you and feel such disappointment and unfeeling as well.
